CH 23

In a way it is made by the association for the guides. So-Won thought there would be nothing to see even if it was for adults.

The illustrator’s skill was so great that So-Won was amazed, but the content was more suitable for screams than admiration.

So-Won, who was checking the contents, felt distant and looked at the ceiling for a while.

So-Won decided to put off thinking for now.

He quickly moved on, reading the explanation with soulless eyes.

However, after moving on to the next captor, the brain reached the point of striking.

‘What… are you preparing…’

The more So-Won read the explanation, the more strange the illustration, the more he couldn’t close his mouth.

The brown eyes, which were originally clear, shook miserably without light.

So-Won looked closely and carefully checked if the scene in the picture was what he was thinking.

The painting, which was painted with care one by one, informed new knowledge that So-Won did not want to know at all.

So-Won was shocked and turned the page without the courage to read the explanation.

It was finally the last chapter.

So-Won took a breath and checked the last page, and when he found the “recommended posture for guiding well,” his eyes widened.

So-Won closed the booklet.

‘What did I see? With Tae-Woo? It was beyond belief.’ So-Won thought.

So-Won looked at the last page again.

The last chapter was not less than the previous ones because it contained several pictures on one page.

Still, So-Won could see very well what it was.

So-Won closed the booklet again.

So-Won could not say anything and cooled down by looking at the cover.

Unlike So-Won, two men who looked peaceful put their arms around each other’s shoulders and the sight of it comforted So-Won.

So-Won wanted to forget everything he just saw in the meantime, but when he remembered the contents, he suddenly felt a sense of distance.

After a short break, So-Won’s head, which was in shock, began to turn little by little.

So-Won knew that opposite sex guides through stronger contact than normal contact, but he didn’t know it would be the same for same sex.

How could he even think that this is something he could do as a guide.

This simply did not fall within the scope of So-Won.

Nevertheless, So-Won unwittingly drew Tae-Woo’s image in his head.

‘What am I thinking….’ So-Won thought.

When So-Won thought of Tae-Woo, he felt a sense of shame in an instant.

So-Won put down the  booklet.

The booklet was so ugly that he wondered if the country could make such a thing.

It was a content that could only be said to be ugly.

Theyt printed it in color and they seemed to have paid a lot of money and attention, but it should never be released to the world.

So-Won looked down at the booklet with a complicated mind.

Should he throw it away? He didn’t think much about keeping it. But it was dangerous to throw it away at Tae-Woo’s house. It was a big deal if Tae-woo saw it after he throw it away, and a cleaning company person could have seen it.

So-Won was thinking about going out of the house and burning it, but he decided to give up removing the booklet because he was afraid the fire would spread by mistake.’

The pamphlet was eventually sealed in the deepest part of So-Won’s room.

So-Won lay in bed blankly with a face that did not go away from the shock. He came down to the first floor to wait for Tae-Woo’s return.

If So-Won were in the room, he thought he would continue to be in shock without knowing that Tae-Woo had returned.

The typhoon passed, but the summer was not over yet, so the sun was shinning brightly.

Even though it was time to get off work, there was a bright sun outside the window.

When So-Won sat on the sofa without doing anything and waited for Tae-Woo, the contents in the booklet kept coming to mind and bothered So-Won.

Tae-Woo and So-Won overlapped over the faceless picture.

So-Won turned white and wanted to scream, but he quickly came to his senses and shook his head violently to shake off his thoughts.

However, the imagination that began once did not stop easily.

Several paintings that So-Won saw in a short moment passed through his mind as So-Won and Tae-Woo.

Tae-Woo’s body became more specific as he tried to stop thinking.

It was easier to imagine because he had seen his body closely in a private room before.

If So-Won knew this would happen, he wouldn’t have stared at his body then.

‘Tae-Woo, I’m sorry… I couldn’t stop feeling guilty and self-loathing. I was infinitely ashamed of myself for thinking this way about a person who died horribly.’ So-Won thought.

When Tae-Woo returned right away, So-Won didn’t know how to greet him.

The evening glowed red outside the window.

It was a sky that seemed to be painted with a brush by mixing a lot of water with bright red paint.

So-Won emptied his mind while lying on the sofa watching the slowly flowing clouds.

By the time the shameless thoughts of Tae-Woo and So-Won as the main characters came to an end, a password was pressed at the front door.

So-Won sprang to his feet.

‘Taewoo is here.’ So-Won thought.

“Are you here?”

Tae-Woo opened the door and came in and encountered So-Won, who was out to meet him.

Tae-Woo didn’t say anything for a moment.

Tae-Woo imagined So-Won to welcome him when he came home, but he didn’t think it would actually come true.

It was impossible until a few days ago that there was a person who welcomed the monster Tae-Woo.

“Yes. Were you resting comfortably?”

Tae-Woo didn’t feel like he didn’t like it.

Tae-Woo did not deny it, but he just couldn’t like it.

After meeting So-Won, dirty greed kept wriggling in the corner of Tae-Woo’s mind and growing in size.

Whenever what Tae-Woo had hoped for was achieved one by one, he wanted more next time.

It was the same now.

Tae-Woo, who saw So-Won welcomed him once, wanted to come back home to see this tomorrow.

Tae-Woo followed So-Won into the house.

Tae-Woo listened quietly to the clear voice chattering next to him.

Warm air flowed through the house, which was always cold and lonely.

Only the bright voice of So-Won has was added but it’s not like his empty house.

It was like a house where a ‘person’ lived.

‘Has it ever been this lively here?’ Tae-Woo pondered, but only concluded that it was the first time.

The boisterous atmosphere was not bad.

Tae-Woo thought he liked quiet, but it didn’t seem like it.

Unlike other people’s voices that only feel noisy, So-Won’s quiet tone was good to hear.

A positive yet cheerful voice, Tae-Woo felt like he became a person who burned when a voice that wasn’t shaking was directed at him.

After meeting So-Won, Tae-Woo had an ordinary daily life that he had never had before.

Tae-Woo felt light when he woke up every morning, and he had time to enjoy the morning.

If So-Won was next to Tae-Woo, he could sleep so deeply that he didn’t want to open his eyes the next day.

These days, the power control is also good, so there is a significant reduction in the number of accidental damage.

Tae-Woo could breathe when he was with So-Won.

Before that, it was only possible to breathe next to So-Won so that it was impossible to know how he breathed.

Whether it was because of the guide or because the guide was So-Won, it became a mess.

Today, the guide was a little early.

So-Won was talking nonstop next to Tae-Woo and suddenly stopped talking as if he thought of something.

“Ugh…” So-Won’s face flared up.

His red face, which seemed to burst in an instant, seemed to smoke up at any moment.

Tae-Woo looked at So-Won, who suddenly became quiet.

So-Won, whose face turned red, glanced at Tae-Woo and avoided looking at him in surprise when his eyes met.

“Nothing…”

The voice became smaller and smaller.

Only then did Tae-Woo realize that So-Won was overdoing it.

Tae-Woo ate dinner and took a clean bath.

Tae-Woo was all ready to sleep, but So-Won couldn’t easily go to Tae-Woo’s room.

So-Won looked embarrassed because he remembered the booklet he had barely forgotten while welcoming Tae-Woo.

He was like a thief, sneaking up and wishing to sleep next to Tae-Woo

So-Won raised himself up hoping that Tae-Woo misunderstood that his face looked red because of the sunset.

Still, So-Won had to sleep and guide Tae-Woo.

So-Won sighed deeply and headed to Tae-Woo’s room.

The arm So-Won lifted to knock was heavy.

“Tae-Woo, I’m going in.”

As soon as So-Won opened the door, he saw Tae-Woo sitting on the bed.

So-Won climbed onto Tae-Woo’s bed with a noticeably awkward gesture.

So-Won felt a little better as he crawled into the blanket while leaning on the bedhead.

Even before the feeling was smooth enough, Tae-Woo’s wave hit So-Won and made him feel like he should guide Tae-Woo quickly.

When So-Won hurriedly began to guide Tae-Woo, recalling that he lacked guidance, he felt Tae-Woo’s sharp wavelength as if he had been waiting.

So-Won stared at Tae-Woo’s hand and opened his mouth.

“The lack of guides… I didn’t know. I’m sorry, Tae-Woo.”

“No, it’s enough now.” Tae-Woo said so, but his wavelength was little different from when So-Won first met him.

As the doctor in charge said, it was clear that only this much guidance was not helpful for Tae-Woo, who was in bad condition.

So-Won recalled the more intense guidance that the doctor in charge said and the booklet that he was handed over very confidentially afterwards.

So-Won didn’t want to admit it, but Tae-Woo needed high-level guiding.