Chapter 4.1
She was standing in front of a portrait.
She was getting used to this dizzy sensation. She also was glad. Sienna was in the middle of a dream. What would she see today? She was full of anticipation.
In the portrait, a middle-aged man was holding a sword in one hand and a scepter in the other. His face looked somber.
– The First Emperor.
The middle-aged man looked familiar to Sienna. He was famous. Anybody who has ever opened a book in the Empire would recognize him. Every book that was published in the Empire printed this portrait on its first page.
The emperor walked slowly as she looked at the portrait. There was another portrait right next to that one. Sienna recognized this room.
– It’s the Portrait Room.
Every emperor’s portrait was hung in this room. Any member of the Imperial family was allowed to freely enter.
However, the problem was that the Portrait Room was close to the emperor’s bedroom. Therefore, even though it wasn’t required, everyone requested the emperor’s permission if they wanted to enter the Portrait Room.
Sienna had only entered this room twice in her life. Whenever she had looked down the wall of portraits, she had always imagined her portrait being hung at the very end.
The emperor walked at a steady pace. Her steps began to slow as she got closer to the end.
– Ah…
Sienna gasped. The Imperial Emperor… She was standing in front of her father’s portrait.
These portraits were installed at the death of the emperor. It was strange seeing the portrait of a man who was still alive and healthy in the present.
Once every few years, the Emperor commissioned for a portrait of himself to be made. He was preparing for the time when his own portrait would hang on these walls. Her father in the portrait was way younger than her father in the present.
The line of portraits should have ended here. The space next to her father’s portrait should have been reserved for Sienna’s portrait. However, as the emperor slightly turned her head to the right, Sienna caught a glimpse of a corner of a portrait frame.
– Why is there another portrait?
This room was long. The portrait of the founding emperor hung at the very front of the room. As one moved further into the room, they would see the subsequent emperors’ portraits hung right next to the other.
The emperor’s vision moved away from the wall as she turned her head. Sienna could see the door all the way on the other side of the room.
– No. Don’t leave. Show me whose portrait that was.
As if the emperor heard Sienna’s shout, the emperor stopped walking. She slowly turned her head back to the wall.
It was a portrait of a man who was holding a sword and a scepter like the founding emperor. His stiff, closed lips and his resolute stare expressed the man’s determination.
– That can’t be.
Sienna knew that man. It was her half-brother, Dian Argent.
– Prince Dian… becomes the emperor?
Before me?
There was no way this was true. Sienna was next in line for the throne. The ranking was absolute. It was impossible for the emperor to give the crown to the child he liked the most.
“Your Majesty.”
– Something went wrong.
“I should have called you that at least once.”
– It’s all a lie!
“At the time, I hated you.”
– This isn’t a prophecy! It’s just a silly dream! This isn’t real!
No matter how much Sienna screamed, it didn’t reach her dream self. The emperor didn’t turn her eyes away from Dian’s portrait and calmly continued to speak to it. Almost as if she wanted Sienna to know that this was real.
“I always believed that I would be surrendering to you if I ever called you ‘Your Majesty’. I was foolish. Winning or losing. The emperor’s throne isn’t some kind of trophy given to a winner.”
The wise voice slightly calmed Sienna down.
“I’ve been living with my eyes closed. I realized it too late.”
The voice wavered with emotion.
– You… You’re suffering.
The leader of the empire was currently talking to herself as she gazed at the cold portrait. Sienna pitied the emperor. Even though the emperor was her future self, Sienna found it hard to identify with her. She was like a stranger, so Sienna felt as if she was just a member of the audience.
“Do you remember the time we met not long after you received your title as prince? It was a very short meeting. And by the time I met you for the second time at my coming-of-age party, I had completely forgotten about your existence.”
– Second time at her coming-of-age party?
Sienna wondered before disagreeing. Wasn’t it the third time?
“I still remember the way you looked at me that day. I believed that your rage was being directed at me. I didn’t know. I didn’t know what had happened to you. I didn’t realize that it wasn’t rage but sadness and suffering. I know it’s no use saying this now, but Your Majesty… I really didn’t… I didn’t know what my mother had done to you.”
Sienna woke up and stared blankly at the ceiling. She felt as if her world had shattered. As if she had been tossed into an unfamiliar world. A sense of loss? An emptiness? She didn’t know how to describe this feeling.\n