Chapter 12: Righteous and pathetic.
Posted on April 27, 2022by Soafp
I missed a week of school since that day.
I quickly gave up looking for an answer to why I shed tears at that time.
Because I knew better than anyone else that finding the answer would only make it harder for me.
Various people called me. It was an e-mail exchange, but it made me feel very warm and fuzzy.
It supports me. It proves me.
It made me âRighteous â and â patheticâ.
It was Tuesday when I went to school.
My fears that the incident might have been exposed were unfounded.
There was not a single mention of my fault.
Instead, I learned that hisâŠcrimeâŠwas being bandied about as a rumor.
Everyone was like, âDid it really happen?â. I cupped my mouth and looked down.
It was a bitter past for me. I canât help it if I keep my mouth closed.
A bitter past for me. I canât help but keep my mouth shut.
Everyone around me believes me. So itâs not my fault.
Iâm not the one who started the rumors. I donât know who it was, but someone did it on their own.
Itâs whatâs happening in a place I donât know. Letâs say, I am a âvictimâ too. Iâm being dredged up from my long past.
How â pathetic â of âmeâ.
But there is one thing that worries me.
Yesterday she had sent me messages, but today I havenât talked to her even once. She just sits in her seat and doesnât even come towards me.
I also knew the paper that had been written about Maika.
But I heard she had been with him all last week.
She said she was worried about me, but she was seeing him.
Maybe she knows. Even if she doesnât know everything, she is suspicious.
There were a few things she said and did to me before I missed school that seemed to indicate that.
If I donât do this, I will have a hard time again.
So this is self-preservation. It canât be helped.
Conveniently, he seems to be out of school again today.
Iâm fine. I am always the âvictim.â