16 - She Is Beside The Light

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Chapter 16: She Is Beside The Light

Freya-Sensei announced the end of the match.

At that moment, the giant “sun” that Luke created, fizzled out as if it was just a joke.(E/N: Most likely the joke meant as if it was just some magic trick.)

That peculiar sensation of being pulled from the inside of your body was also gone.

Along with the loss of magic, the feeling of powerlessness rising from the bottom, and Luke’s gaze looking down at such an unsightly person.

Haah, I can’t resist it.

The inside of my body tingles and my lower abdomen becomes hot from the sight.

It’s really unfortunate that that gaze is not directed towards me right now.

“Really, Luke is something else…”

“… Haa, Haa”

“Are you okay Alice? Your face is all red…”

“Don’t worry about me. Just leave me be.”

“Okay… if that’s what you want.”

Usually, the pain in my body subsides quickly.

No, it can be suppressed.

But today… it’s different.

Far from subsiding, my body is getting hotter and hotter.

No… I know the truth.

I’ve long ago reached my limit.

And I’ve been holding back for a long time npw.

Everything about me has changed─── since “that day”.

Before I met Luke, I was convinced that I was the best on earth.

I never doubted it.

Because the way people looked at me was always the same.

So I didn’t like it.

When I first saw Luke at that party.

He had the same eyes, the look I had for those around me.

Eyes that were looking at insignificant beings.

I wanted to stain those eyes of his with humiliation

To break his heart full of arrogance, and further crush him filled with hatred.

How enjoyable that would be.

Just imagining him, no matter how much he hated it, but can’t do anything, made my body tingle with excitement.

But─── that didn’t happen.

I was the one who was dyed in humiliation.

I wasn’t even a match.

To him, I was just one of the many.

I felt helpless.

Miserable.

Pathetic.

A great deal of black emotion overcame me, something I had never felt before.

And… I changed.

The emotion that should have been loathsome became “pleasure” and then transformed into “love”.

As I began to spend more time with him, those distorted feelings grew and grew even further.

I don’t know why myself.

Yet, sure enough, I was remade from the ground up.

I couldn’t go back to the way I was before.

I didn’t even want to go back.

But… It was also the beginning of pain.

He was never one to shy away from hard work.

If you see him, he was always either wielding a sword or reading a magic book.

He didn’t even look at me.

He continued his studies as if obsessed with something.

He was looking for “strength” with a craving heart that was never satisfied.

It was then that I understood.

He was─── too big of a “light”.

Light sometimes becomes something to hope and long for..

But what if it is too big?

Its glare burns the eyes of those who see it, and anyone who tries to approach it is burned to death.

Such too big of a light.

Intense light sometimes deceives and drives people crazy.

Luke was just that.

It is really ironic that his attribute was “darkness”.

Still, I fell in love with that Luke.

But, this was not such a beautiful and clean emotion.

It was more muddy and hideous like “dependence” and “crazy love”.

Before I knew it, I couldn’t imagine a world without him.

He was not being nice.

He didn’t whisper love to me.

Still, my heart was so stained that there was no room for any other color.

I began to make efforts I had never made before.

It was not half-baked either.

I tried desperately, really desperately hard.

Because I wanted to be reflected in Luke’s eyes.

Those were tough days.

I explored magic as much as time permits, and indulged in miserable masturbation in order to let out my growing desires at night.

Somehow that became my daily routine.

I told myself that… this is what it means to be beside the big light that is Luke.

I also thought about how much easier it would be if I could forget about Luke, but I just couldn’t.

It was like once you are enchanted by his intense light, you can never get him out of your mind.

But it was worth it, and Luke started to see me a little more.

I was so happy, really happy.

No matter how hard it was, it was enough to keep me going as long as I wanted.

But─── I realized that human desire is bottomless.

Luke’s was like a sweet poison that slowly afflicted me.

More.

I need more, more.

More, more, more, more, more───.

My desire grew at an accelerated rate.

The desire that swells without limit.

The pain of having to endure it.

This pain only grew greater day by day.

So maybe it was already destined to happen.

The moment I saw Luke’s “Sun of Darkness” today─── something in me broke with a sound.

I think it was like a shackle.

My heart had lost its shackles.

The desire that had been suppressed so far overflowed and quickly covered it.

“Breakfast and dinner are served in the dormitory. There are some rules, but basically you are free to do whatever you want. Also, get along well with each other, okay? It’s better for you. When you enter this school, you are guaranteed a certain status. It is a benefit of this school that you can have connections with such people.”

I found myself in a dormitory.

My consciousness was blurred.

“Then class is dismissed. Real classes will start tomorrow. Those of you who have classes you want to take, don’t be late.”

The second floor was for boys and the third floor was for girls.

I then went to my assigned room.

I opened the door, entered, and closed it.

With a clang, I locked the door.

I fell straight onto the bed.

Then I crawled into the sheets.

And naturally, my hand reached down to my lower abdomen.

Not good.

I’m addicted to it.

But now, if I don’t do something about this rising heat in my body, I’m going to get crazy.

I gently traced it over my underwear.

“…….”

I consoled myself for a while.

I wanted to somehow get this heat out of my body.

But… it didn’t.

No matter how much I comforted myself, the tingling only increased.

I was not satisfied.

“… hah… hah.”

That was when I knew that something broke in me.

Something that was holding me down.

─── I’ve had enough of this.

I thought I heard such a voice.

No more.

I can’t take it anymore.

My feet naturally lead me to─── Luke’s room.

My brain’s rational part searched for reasons to affirm me.

I just had my period the other day.

So it should be okay.

Besides, Luke and I are engaged.

There shouldn’t be any problems since we’re in a relationship with a promised future.

While I was thinking about this, I reached Luke’s room.

A strange sense of tension spread gradually at this moment.

But my body ached for more.

With determination, I knocked on the door of the room.

The door opened immediately.

“It’s you. What are you doing here?”

He clearly didn’t like my presence.

He was looking at me as if he was looking at garbage.

He seemed to deny everything about me.

All of this uplifted me and coated what little reason I had left.

“Will you let me in…”

“… ah.”

Luke let me in unexpectedly.

Closing the door, I locked it immediately.

“What the h**l are you───ha?”

I took off my clothes.

Not slowly.

I immediately took off my jacket and all of my underwear.

“What do you want…?”

Luke didn’t change his complexion.

But his voice was a little different from usual.

That was cute.

“…….”

I went straight to Luke and put my lips on his.

Put my tongue into his mouth.

And pushed him down with our tongues entwined as it was───

＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋＋

The morning sun shines through the window.

I got up from the bed and looked outside.

It’s such a wonderful morning.

It’s really… a nice morning…

………

………

Damn you, you sonovabech!

And you call yourself a man!

Men are such stupid creatures!

───Bang.

I slammed my head against the wall.

The worst.

I did it.

My reason stopped functioning as we did it last night.

I never thought I would be controlled by my body, not logic…

Damn it!

What the h**l is going on with the security here!

Is this also included in the so-called freedom they mentioned!?

Connections are not supposed to be like that!!

… Sigh, calm down.

I’m the one who’s at fault.

I didn’t realize I had such a low tolerance for women.

I feel sorry for myself.

Well, all I was doing up until now was… swordsmanship and magic.

“Good morning, Luke.”

I heard a voice.

There was only me and one other person in this room.

“I can’t believe you’re so good at bed. You really are impeccable.”

“… shut up. And get dressed.”

“Ara, no, not yet.”

… Damn it.

I underestimated her based on her appearance, thinking it was her only good feature.

I had no idea that it would turn into such a deadly weapon.

“─── Well, what do you think? I think you can do it at least once more, right?”

“…………”

I looked at Alice.

Skin as white as snow.

Slightly red lips.

A glamorous, curvaceous body.

All of it caressed my lust.

Oh… Seriously───

“───Now get down on all fours.”

Men really are such foolish creatures.