CH 189

For a moment, I didn’t understand what Karendoll was saying.

To begin with, no one, not even children or adults, had ever been able to understand me when I told them about the fantasies that had emerged in my head.

Even if she told me, ‘Give it to Kaisar-sama, and you’ll understand,’ it is impossible to be convinced and easily say, ‘Yes, I see.’

“Well, it’s no use trying to fool me with such an obvious lie… I’ve told so many people, but every time I do, they make fun of me, and even my parents tell me I’m too delusional and should shut up.”

In any case, my fantasy was just the fantasy of an amateur who has no knowledge of anything.

It is impossible to ask people to understand me in the first place, and I now understand the meaning of my parents’ words, which I used to question why when I was a child.

It was more obvious than looking at a clear flame that even if someone says they understand me at such time, in the end, they weren’t denying my imagination but accepting it as a delusion.

[TL: “More obvious than looking at clear flame” means “Be clear enough not to doubt.”]

“Are you going to run away like that?”

“R-running away? Why does this lead to running away? You’ve always been like that, Karendoll! You said I was ridiculous for wanting to support this country with my knowledge back then!”

“That’s… I’m sorry about that. I’m still sorry for what I said back then. I was just a child back then, and when I heard that there was a girl my age with the same aspirations as me, I thought she was training to improve this empire in the same way that I was. I now understand that it’s not military might that makes a country great but intelligence. However, that’s why I thought my fiancé should be worthy of you, and I thought it was my atonement. I can proudly say that Kaisar-sama is the right man for you. I also think it’s too late to apologize for what happened back then. But I want you to trust me for one last time.”

“Iiiiit’s alright, I understand! I was just a kid and still a little stubborn back then, so let’s just say we’re both on the same page. I’ll draw up the plans and give them to you!”

Karendoll bowed her head to me as she said so.

To me, someone from a lower family.

“Oh, thank you. Morrie!”

The smile on Karendoll’s face as she hugged me while saying that was so beautiful that I would probably never forget it.