CH 30

Chapter 30: She just wants to serve, forever

“… Umm, Arisa?”

“What is it?”

Today is the day when I would make dinner for Hayato-kun, and also the day I could monopolize him at night.

After dinner, I went to his room so we could start enjoying our time together. But, Hayato-kun’s face in front of me looked a little troubled… to be precise his gaze was fixed at the fake cat-ears on my head.

“Is that…?”

I knew it. So this is what Hayato-kun is interested in.

There was one reason why I wore cat ears while wearing the maid outfit I showed before to Hayato-kun.

Today, I wanted to be a pet owned by him while being a maid to serve him.

“They don’t look good on me?”

“Ah, no, no, that’s not the case. It’s very cute, but… that is.”

As Hayato-kun looked away from me shyly, I felt a rush of excitement in my heart. Even though it’s odd, if he was thrilled to see me like this, that alone makes me very happy.

“Hayato-kun.”

The place where I was now was his room, the room where I would be sleeping with him.

I leaned back against Hayato-kun looking up at his face. I was wearing a maid’s uniform that slightly revealed my chest, and a short skirt with black stockings… Umm, is it just my imagination or do I look like a perverted maid when I pose like this?

“Hayato-kun, do I look a little naughty in this outfit?”

“… That’s right.”

So it is naughty.

As a matter of fact, you may have your way with your hands on this body at any time. I want you to discipline this perverted maid for indecently leering at her master. I want you to order me to kneel down in a cold voice… Please punish me by spanking this a*s of mine.

“But… perhaps you like dressing the way you do now?”

“Yes. It is a way of expressing my desire to serve you, Hayato-kun.”

I don’t have that much of a preference for the clothes themselves, but I do think these are cute.

But the most important reason is because I want to serve Hayato-kun.

—Hey Hayato-kun, do you want to give me any orders? I’ll listen to anything you want. There are so many things I want to do for you.

“… Ah!”

I came up with an idea!

Okay, I’ll propose this to Hayato-kun.

“Hayato-kun. I want to do a Maid-master play.”

“What’s that…?”

Hayato-kun, who unintentionally became so polite, is cute…

I explained the purpose of what I had just said. Simply, Hayato-kun would be my master and I would treat him as how a maid should. I didn’t care what he ordered me to do, anyway, I wanted to be a maid serving Hayato-kun, even if it’s only for foreplay.

“…Erm… well then… I wonder if I can have a lap pillow.”

“As you wish, My Master.”

I answered the wish that was spoken in a reserved manner.

I put Hayato-kun’s head on my lap and I gently stroked his head. Aina had done this before and I was jealous, but I see, this is certainly something I would like to do to him again and again.

“Does it feel good?”

“Yes, it feels great.”

Ahh… those words make me so happy.

I want to be more useful and do more things that will make Hayato-kun happy. Not so long ago, I was imagining this and doing things on my own, but now I don’t have to be so reserved anymore. But it is also true that I still can’t ask for things as straightforwardly as Aina does.

“Master, is there anything else you want?”

I was completely in the role of a maid.

Hayato-kun pretended to be thinking about something, and then he picked up the pumpkin helm that was in the room and put it on.

“Hayato-kun?”

“Oh~ I’m sorry. I’m just trying to calm myself down a bit, and I feel like I can be a different person when I do this.

“Is that so…?”

Chuckling a little… I turned around to look at his face.

His looks now are exactly the same as that fateful day, and Hayato-kun’s eyes, which I could see through the gap in his headgear, were a little sharper, which convinced me of his words that he can be a different person than he usually is.

“I’d appreciate it if you’d stay and not hate me for the… weird thing I’m about to say.”

“It’s okay. I want you to say anything you want.”

The moment I said that, the atmosphere that Hayato-kun puts on changed a little.

“Arisa, come a little closer to me.”

“… Y-yes.”

I was thrilled by his slightly shrill voice.

I felt as if the woman in me had surrendered to Hayato-kun before I even had a chance to resist. No, I’m not planning to resist, but something inside me shivered at his command.

“I can order you to do anything I want, can’t I?”

“… Y-yes! You can order me to do anything you want.”

So cool… I don’t know what’s so great… but Hayato-kun’s sharp tone of voice made my body tremble. It feels so good! I wonder what this feeling is? Ahh, I can’t stop myself, I’m going to go crazy if I listen to his voice any longer.

“… Ah~”

Hayato-kun choked on his words as if he was troubled when he was about to give an order.

Hayato-kun is never the type to give orders to anyone. That is probably why he is so troubled.

Seeing Hayato-kun in such a troubled state, there is a part of me that is dyed into a slave waiting for his orders, and there is a part of me that loves him and wants to embrace him gently… I really am a troublesome person.

“Ahem…”

“…!”

It seems that he has decided on the order he wants to give.

I glanced in the mirror and saw my cheeks flushed and my eyes moistened, reminding me that I am a female who wants to be subservient to the male in front of her. Ahh, it’s so indecent, so lascivious, so pathetic to myself. That’s why, Hayato-kun, hurry up and please order me—

“You belong to me. Stay by my side for the rest of your life.”

“!? … Ahh, it won’t stop… nn!”

—You belong to me, and you have to stay by my side for the rest of your life!

The moment I understood those words, something like tremendous electricity rushed through my body. Unable to stand anymore, I crouched on my butt on the spot.

“…Ughhhhhh, I can’t endure this anymore!!’

Breathing out roughly, Hayato-kun took off his pumpkin helm in front of me and put it back in place.

Hayato-kun seemed to be worried about me as I crouched down, but you didn’t need to worry at all. All of me has already surrendered to Hayato-kun. I was originally like that, but with what you just said, I felt as if the proof of being Hayato-kun’s property was properly imprinted on my soul.

“… Aha♪ I see, so that’s what this is.”

I have said before that I want to be enslaved to the soul.

Yes, that’s right. That’s what this is all about. I know it’s a sickening thought when I think about it again, but I’m totally fine with it. I can no longer be separated from Hayato-kun.

“I’m sorry, Hayato-kun. I’ve calmed down now.”

I stood up so as not to worry Hayato-kun.

My legs and back are still shaking a little, but that’s not a problem at all. I am now completely Hayato-kun’s property after this exchange.

Aina said that our feelings are really heavy…

“I’m not used to doing this.”

“Fufu, but you looked good, you know? If possible, I’d like to ask you to do that from time to time with me.”

“Please, don’t make me do that frequently.”

What can I do about it?

I want to be stared at by those sharp eyes, I want you to say words like you just did once again, but I think I’ll hold off for a while. This is also for Hayato-kun’s sake… and I think I’ll feel more comfortable if I give it some time.

“I’m your maid, so I have to take a lot of orders from you, Hayato-kun♪ Besides, I know you’ve done this kind of play with my mother.”(E/N: Eh? Eh, huh? Eh, Eh, Nani?!)

“Seriously?”

Well, my mother told me happily.

Hearing stories like this really makes me feel like I am my mother’s daughter. Blood is blood, and no matter how far I go, I am still my mother’s daughter.

“… You see, Arisa.”

“What is it?”

I’m going to pretend to be a maid for a little while more.

Hayato-kun scratched his cheek and said this request.

“Can I ask you to clean my ears…?”[1]

“Yes, of course♪”

Then I put Hayato’s head on my lap again and started cleaning his ears.

[Hayato’s POV]

“How is it? Does it hurt?

“No, I’m fine.”

I was fighting sleepiness while Arisa was cleaning my ears.

However, what happened earlier was too intense for me to get it out of my brain. Not only Arisa, but also Aina and Sakuna-san really try to erase my reason when they are alone with me.

… Well, it’s okay if I lose my reason now, because I’m already doing what I’m supposed to be doing, but even so. I can’t help but feel like I’m feeding my inner demon of happiness every single day.

“… Fuh”

Hey Mom, Dad… can you two see me now from heaven?

If you see me, how do you feel? Are you angry at me for being a troubled son, or are you praising me for helping them and doing well… well, I guess both.

“Arisa.”

“What?”

“… I, I’m soooo happy now. Thanks to you and everyone.”

Recently, I have been telling not only Arisa but also Aina and Sakuna-san my thanks. That’s how much I am supported and helped by them.

“H-Hayato-kun!”

“Muga!”

Arisa’s bosom!… I felt pain as she hugged me to her chest when she moved to tears.

But I feel happy to feel this softness, and I smile to think that I’m a man after all.

Mom, Dad.

I went through a lot of hardship, but I’m still here, doing my best.

I’m going to visit your graves with the three of them sometime soon. I’ve made plans to visit grandpa and grandma with them, too.

If… you’re feeling sorry for leaving me, you don’t have to. Smile at me because I’m living a… little naughty everyday life with this kind of support. So don’t worry, I’m okay now.

I’m not lonely anymore.

[Postscript]

The next chapter will be the end of this volume.

E/N:

[1] ASMR? Nvm don’t mind this comment of mine, just got too addicted to j*p asmr, if anybody wants some just chat me in dc! I swear it’s good af, tho you need at least to know some j*p words, words from anime should be fine, welp anyway.

TLN: No simping, No ASMR.