Tensei Oujo wa Kyou mo Hata o Tatakioru Chapter 17
āā¦!!ā
āPrincess Rosemarie?!ā
I stood up from my chair with a clatter, and turned around in a panic.
Rose, you big foolā¦!!
I hadnāt thought about the possibility of Hilde getting killed at all. On top being aware of their plans, once she was deemed useless there was no way sheād be left in peace!
āWhereāā
Klaus chased after me.
Hearing the uproar, the duo in the greenhouse poked their heads out.
Seeing my ghastly state, they immediately understood something was wrong, and became alarmed.
āWait a, hey you , whatās wrong?!ā
āPrincess?ā
Lutz rushed over and shook my shoulders.
āWhat happened? We wonāt understand if you donāt tell us!ā he said.
I considered his words.
He was right. If I didnāt tell them, they wouldnāt understand.
But, I couldnāt . I wanted to confess everything, but in this situation where I didnāt even have someone to talk to, it was pure torture.
If I told them, the danger posed to them would only increase.
āI just remembered some urgent businessā¦ā
āHuh?ā
āIām sorry. Iāll have to excuse myself for today.ā
Lutz seemed to want to say something, but I removed his hands and smiled at him.
Holding back my impatience, I took my leave, walking as normally as I could. I felt their gazes on me, but I didnāt turn back to look.
āPrincess Rosemarie, where in the world are you headed?ā
āTo meetā¦ā
Hilde, I replied in a small voice, and Klaus moved in front of me to block the path, a harsh expression the like of which Iād never seen before on his face.
āI cannot assent.ā
Klaus was usually sweet on me. He happily granted my wishes, and almost never denied or refused me anything.
The only time that guy would ever go directly against me was probably when I was putting myself in imminent danger.
āKlaus.ā
āI cannot allow you to place yourself in danger.ā
My shoulders shook.
Klaus just said it was ādangerousā .
āYou knew. ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
In other words, Klaus knew Hilde was on treacherous footing. If he knew, then it only stood to reason his commander did as well.
And yet, why?
āā¦donāt you protect her?ā
āShe is not my charge.ā
You should already know, his eyes reproached me, stone cold.
That was that. Although it was highly likely she would get killed, she was on the enemyās side. There was no way he would protect her.
In the kingdomās eyes, she was one of the traitors.
The enemy could not risk having their movements here known. If they prioritized secrecy, then the girl would definitely be abandoned. They had divided interests, after all.
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
THMP. THMP. My heart beat unpleasantly.
I felt painfully suffocated, like Iād run a marathon and couldnāt get enough air. My blood pumped rapidly throughout my body, and cold sweat flowed down my back and neck.
Eyes wide, I was on the verge of fainting.
Right now, I was trying to influence the fate of a person.
That truth terrified me more than anything else.
Letās say, for example, Hilde had indeed done wrong.
Even if I didnāt personally get involved, it didnāt change the fact that I could have done something.
I was close to getting forced into watching a 15 year old girl die without lifting a finger to help.
The burden was crushing.
āAhhā¦ā
My voice escaped out of me hoarsely. I automatically hugged myself, and noticed my body was shaking uncontrollably.
How in the world do you make the right decision? As a princess? As a human being?
Overcome with fear, I couldnāt think at all. My mind was blank, and nothing came to me.
Klaus had kept silent until now, but when he saw how I shook with fear, his expression gentled.
āLet us return, Princess Rosemarie,ā he said, indicating the path we had come down.
The soothing sound of his voice took away all my thoughts. I felt like it was comforting me, gently blocking my eyes and ears. Thereās no need to see anything scary. Thereās no need to hear, it consoled.
āThe ones important to you are those boys, and not the girl, are they not?ā
āKlausā¦ā
Guided by his voice, I turned around.
I took a step toward the greenhouse.
Unsteadily, I took a step. Then another, just like a puppet.
He was right. The ones I wanted to protect were my precious friends.
Their names were Lutz and Theo, and they were kind children. Some girl Iād never even had a chat with could not compare to them.
Thatās right, no matter how you tried to pair her up with the boys, her life was no match for theirs.
Iāll listen to Klaus, and do what he tells me. Iāll choose them.
I couldnāt believe Iād be so despicable.
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
My legs came to a halt, and my head hung down in shame.
āPrincess Rosemarieā¦?ā
I stood unmoving. I couldnāt even respond, sobs almost leaking from my throat.
I was so frustrated, so lost, I was about to scream.
I was afraid to both go forward and turn back.
I hated both options. I didnāt want to go either direction.
Whichever way I went, Iād want to save them. I was greedy, selfish, and self-centered. I wanted to help, to save everyone.
I never wanted to say there was nothing I could do.
I didnāt ever want to let the matter of someone dying end with a few words.
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
I donāt want to become someone like thatā¦!!!
But, what should I do?
There was a limit to what I could do by myself with my insignificant power. Even if I held the title of a princess, I had no real say in anything. I couldnāt influence anyone.
What am I to do? My back was against the wall.
Was there anythingā¦
āIf there is something causing you worry, please consider calling on me for assistance before you act.ā
The memory of his voice played through my head.
āI will help you without fail.ā
āSir Leonhard,ā I whispered, sighing.
āDid something happen?ā Klaus stared at me in wonder. It seemed like he hadnāt heard me.
I spun on my heel and walked away, pretending not to see the greenhouse.
āPrincess Rosemarie!ā Klaus raised his voice.
He placed himself in my way again, and I glared at him.
āKlaus, step aside.ā
āEven if it is by your command, that alone I cannot obey.ā
āI do not seek her out.ā
āThen, where to?ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā
Impatience threatening to run away, I held back my growing irritation, and opened my mouth to speak.
But, before I could say anything, a figure appeared behind Klaus and my focus shifted there. Eyes widening, and I studied that petite frame from head to toe.
A beautiful girl with long, straight flaxen hair, and veridian green eyes. Even from a distance, I could tell her skin was ashen. She chewed on her lips, her hands folded out front, and the air she gave off was so tragic it made you worry she would throw herself in the water.
The one who just appeared was the person at the center of my emotional upheaval. At the sight of Hilde Kramer, I couldnāt conceal my shaking.