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Chapter 2 ā The Trigger\nVolume 1\n<hr class="wp-block-separator is-style-wide">\nNishikawa and Fujisaki were surprised at the change in my attitude. But I couldnāt stop my words anymore.\n
āAre you going to live like this forever, taking advantage of peopleās favors?ā\n
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I have no right to say such a thing. Of course, I have no obligation to say this either. They are just selfish words that I spit out as my emotions take over.\n
āWhatās wrong?..Naocchi ā¦ā¦ā\n
āOokusu-kun?ā\n
The puzzled voices were all drowned out by the white haze spreading in my head. I knew it was a bad idea, even for me. But still, I felt compelled to say it, so I kept moving my mouth.\n
āIt might be a good idea for now. Even if you are causing trouble for others, the frustration in your heart will exonerate you and you will feel like itās not a problem. You want to rebel a little because you hate acting the way others want you to. Even if rebelling doesnāt produce anything, it seems like thereās a point to it.ā\n
Oh, I feel like an idiot. Whatās the point of talking like this now, at such a place. Look at Nishikawa and Fujisakiās faces. Theyāre confused. No matter how many times the voice of my heart ran through my mind, the simmering feeling inside me would not disappear.\n
āI donāt know what youāre annoyed about, Enami-san. I donāt even want to know. Iām sure you have a lot on your mind. I understand that. But how long are you going to keep doing that? You donāt take school seriously, you donāt listen to your classes seriously, you ignore people who talk to you like theyāre annoying. And yet the people around you donāt leave you alone, so I guess it feels nice.ā\n
Enami-san remains unresponsive to my words. But Iām sure she can hear me. I continued to talk.\n
āItās good, isnāt it? You canāt stop, can you? As long as we continue to make our presence felt with a bad attitude, someone will care about us. Some people, like us now, will flatter you and ask you to study with them. Some, like Nishikawa, will talk to you every time and put you in a good mood. Others, like the teachers, scold you patiently. Everyone worries about you.ā\n
It was as if all the sound had disappeared from my surroundings, and only my voice was penetrating my ears. My vision narrows. Itās not true that humans have 120 degrees of vision. The only thing I could see right now was Enami-san in front of me.\n
āIn a word, this is just taking out my anger.\n
Iām just spitting out the words I couldnāt get rid of to the right person.\n
āSomeone who cares about you, someone who is important to you. If you neglect these people because of your frustrations, someday you will surelyā¦..ā\n
My lips became dry. A lump that caught in the back of my throat slowly spilled out.\n
āYouāllĀ surely regret it.ā\n
The moment I said those words, I felt as if the pent-up feelings in my chest had faded and the white haze that dominated my brain had cleared.\n
ćMy vision, which had been narrowing, widened and my ears suddenly picked up the bustle of my surroundings. My ears suddenly began to pick up on the hustle and bustle around me, and I realized once again the situation I was in.\n
ćThis is a family restaurant. Fujisaki and I are talking toĀ Enami-san. Nishikawa is covering for us, and Enami-san. is ignoring us. Such a situation.\n
ćI can feel the blood drain from my face. Iāve done it. I donāt know what Iām getting worked up about, and what right do I have to be lecturing her. This is not good. And the other party is that Enami-san\n
Sweating on my forehead, I looked at Enami-san.\n
She hadnāt even been looking at me, but now she was looking at me. I donāt know what kind of emotion is on her face. But sheās staring at me with wide eyes and a curious look on her face as if sheās looking at a new kind of creature.\n
This is bad.\n
Fujisaki and Nishikawa had their mouths hanging open. It was obvious that they were put off. It was as if their eyes were saying what this guy is telling and what happened all of a sudden.\n
For a while, silence drifted between us. It was Nishikawa, after all, who broke the frozen air.\n
āWellā¦ that part you know, I think Risa-chan knows as well.ā\n
Right? is what Nishikawa told Enami-san, but no one answered her. Enami-san also did not say anything in particular.\n
The four of us were no longer in the mood to study together. Enami-san was probably pissed off. Thatās right. A classmate she has barely spoken to has just told me something as if he knows it all, and even told her that she would regret it. If I were in Enami-sanās position, I would have added my name to the āunforgivableā list, and Iām sure it would be dragged into future relationships as well.\n
I couldnāt take it anymore, so I just said, āIām sorry,ā and went back to my seat. I shoved my study materials into my bag, left a thousand-yen bill on the table, and left.\n
I left the diner and rushed far away from the restaurant.\n
I knew there was no point in running away. But I didnāt stop.\n
I looked back to make sure no one was following me, then leaned against a tree on the sidewalk and exhaled heavily.\n
I had failed. I had never lost control of my emotions like this before. Not that I hadnāt had them before, but this was the first time I had exposed such ugly emotions to people who had nothing to do with it.\n
Calm down. Anyway, I would have to make up for todayās mistake tomorrow.\n
I stood there for a while until my heart calmed down.\n\n
<hr class="wp-block-separator is-style-wide">\nTN: And weāre hereā¦finally got the preaching..next one looks like an side story.. letās see. \n\n