This year, the summer vacation feels shorter than last year.
About half of a week.
I think the reason for this is that I spend three times a week in Miyagiâs room.
It never occurred to me last year that I would spend more time with Miyagi than I did with Umina and the others. There was no way I could predict the future when I would come to Miyagiâs room, even if I had to change the promise I made on the day I first came to her room that âwe would not meet on our days off.â
I close my textbook and say the words that have somehow become my cue.
ăWant to take a break?ă
ăYeah.ă
Miyagi answers shortly and stands up.
Nearly two weeks have passed since the day I made omelettes, and we continue to act not friends like bicycles with broken brakes.
I canât make friends with her.
It was not good that we went to a movie together and had to admit that it was not a good idea. The fact that we have become unfamiliar objects that cannot be friends with each other is an exemption from touching each other.
Still, the rule of studying built into the summer vacation has not gone away. I need the construction of a tutor, which I used to override my promise not to see her on holidays, and I just continue to study.
ăHere.ă
Miyagi closes the curtains and hands me 5,000 yen.
Itâs not something I actively want to receive, but before I know it, receiving it has become part of our rules, so I sayăthank youăand accept it.
We donât do this kind of thing every time.
The day we donât take a break is the day we donât do those things.
The days we take a break are the days we do those things.
Itâs not decided, but it somehow happens that way, and one of us says the words to signal the other.
I put the 5,000 yen I received in my wallet and sit down on the bed. Miyagiâs fixed position is next to mine, and today she sits next to me again as a matter of course.
It is not a big deal to say that we are not friends. Itâs just the same thing as the day after a movie, so it ends with just a touchy kiss and a little body contact, like touching a skeletal specimen. Miyagi only does that from me, and I am not supposed to do it from her because she says I canât.
Itâs really not a big deal.
I stopped coming to this room in shorts, though.
ăSendai-san, look this way.ă
When my arm is pulled lightly and I looks at Miyagi, she adds,ăClose your eyes.ăI have no reason to disobey, so I do as I was told.
A few seconds after the world went dark.
Something soft hits my lips and leaves.
The time spent kissing is shorter than the time spent waiting for the kiss. When I open my eyes, I hear a disgruntled voice saying,ăI didnât say you could open them,ăand she kisses me again.
I still donât know why Miyagi wants to kiss me, although our lips overlap as a matter of course.
ăYour eyes, keep them closed for a while.ă
Then Miyagi repeats the kisses like a dog or cat coming to play.
The more comfortable I feel the body heat coming from her lips, the more I feel like Iâm doing something wrong. I am not looking for a clean and right relationship, but when I think about the five thousand yen in my wallet, it feels like a cloud over my mind.
Still, the touch of her lips feels good, and I grab Miyagiâs arm.
When I pull her arms around me and bring my lips to hers, she turns her face away from me. But as it was, I pressed my lips against Miyagiâs cheek and I was kicked in the leg.
ăI keep telling you not to do anything unnecessary.ă
ăDid you say so?ă
ăI said it.ă
Miyagi says strongly and glares at me.
Miyagi has the right to give orders, not me. But I have kissed her a few times from me like this.
ăItâs okay if you said it. Itâs nothing.ă
I let go of Miyagiâs arm and say lightly.
I do not feel comfortable accepting the 5,000 yen, and I cannot honestly continue to follow Miyagiâs orders.
ăItâs not fine.ă
I could hear her denying me, but she didnât sound so grumpy.
Perhaps this is part of the break.
This is just a little extra time to kill.
Some days I donât take a break because I feel guilty about Miyagi.
These things only happen during summer vacation.
It will end next week when I come to this house.
Summer vacation and all this.
Once the new semester begins, every day should be the same as the first semester.
Itâs a funny thing because we have so much time on our hands right now. We just donât know how to kill long hours to only study with someone who is not each otherâs friend.
ăSendai-san, you donât seem sorry.ă
Miyagi looks at me, blurting out something.
ăI am though.ă
ăAll you do is lie. Hold on a second.ă
Miyagi gets up and opens the closet.
She rummages through it and pulls something out, then turns to me.
ăIâm coming to you, turn your back.ă
Miyagi who says so has a tie, and I know from her words what is about to happen. The familiar uniform tie in Miyagiâs hand should never be used in the right way.
ăAre you planning to go to school now?ă
I ask without turning my back.
ăI donât go to school when I have no use for it, and itâs Sendai-san who uses this, not me.ă
ăIs there such a thing as an order?ă
The 5,000 yen before summer vacation was for Miyagi to buy my time and give orders. However, the 5,000 yen that is now given after seeing a movie has a different meaning. I thought that beyond orders, there were things like kissing, touching, and such, and that Miyagi would exercise her right to give orders and do such things again today.
ăWhat do you mean?ă
ăOrders to use a tie to tie me up.ă
ăWhatever the order is, itâs still an order. If you know what Iâm going to do to you, turn your back quickly.ă
Miyagi comes back next to me and taps me on the shoulder.
ăYouâre not going to change the way you use it?ă
ăIf you donât want a tie, I can get you a rope this time.ă
ăIâll pass on that.ă
Not that I want to be tied up, but I turn my back and put my hands behind my back. I have received 5,000 yen and I donât think I can refuse now.
Besides, if I keep up this futile resistance, I really feel like Iâm going to have to get a rope. It is ungrateful, but Miyagi has an unexplainable boldness.
Being tied up with a rope she went to the trouble of preparing is no joke. I donât like the idea of starting a shady play. And I hate it even more that Miyagi seems to do such things without hesitation.
ăYou didnât have to go this far.ă
I call out to Miyagi, who has a tie wrapped around her wrist.
ăBecause I donât trust you, Sendai-san.ă
Along with Miyagiâs words, I can feel the tie wrapped around my wrists being tightly bound. But Miyagi doesnât say enough is enough, or look at me.
I turn to her before I am ordered to.
ăI havenât told that you can turn around yet.ă
Saying monotonously, Miyagi gets up and this time opens the wardrobe. Then she returns with a thin towel.
ăAre you still going to do something?ă
ăYou better close your eyes.ă
I got an unanswerable answer, and the towel in Miyagiâs hand covered my eyes. Reflexively, my eyelids drooped and a towel wrapped around my eyes to put pressure on them.
ăThis is a bit much, donât you think?ă
She took away the freedom of my body to do unnecessary things.
I donât want to welcome that idea, but I understand it.
But I am hesitant to pass on even the visual to Miyagi.
ăIf I donât do this, Sendai-san wonât be sorry.ă
ăIâm being sorry now.ă
ăToo late.ă
Miyagi says and ties the towel tightly.
ăWait, youâre tying it too tight.ă
When I complain, the towel covering my eyes loosens. But I still canât open my eyes, so I canât see anything.
I could have expected to have my wrists tied, but I didnât expect to be blindfolded as well. I think about whether this is within the rules, but I am not sure. But I do know that I have to accept the status quo.
ăDonât do anything weird.ă
As I tell her to make sure, I hear her voice coming from close by.
ăItâs just the same as always.ă
Miyagi asserts.
But there is no proof of that statement.
When deprived of vision, everything seems unreliable, and just as before, I cannot trust Miyagi, who is supposed to be standing next to me.
ăYou can turn around now.ă
I turn my body around, relying on the voice.
Of course, I cannot see Miyagi.
I suddenly feel like Iâm alone in this room because I canât see what I should see. I was inconsolable and tried to reach out, but my hand could not move as the tie only dug into my wrist.
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ăMiyagi.ă
Thereâs no reply.
After a short pause, what I thought was a hand flattened against my neck and I felt its body heat.