Iām not sure myself if thatās what I think, but I talked about tutoring as if I wanted to see her. I donāt regret it, but I do wonder why I said what I did.
In the first place, it is unbecoming to be tutored by a classmate.
I was a bit of a jerk and seems to be after money.
Iām in the hot water like Iām going to drown.
ćMiyagi is stupid.ć
A voice echoes in the bathroom.
Itās summer vacation starting tomorrow, but I havenāt heard from Miyagi. I knew that, but I guess that means she donāt need a tutor.
The rule is that we donāt see each other on holidays, and it is within my expectation that Miyagi would refuse. But I am wondering what Miyagi thought of me when I suddenly said I would tutor her.
Iād rather be good than bad, and Iād rather be liked than hated.
Such simple and straightforward behavioral principles make up the person of Sendai Hazuki. It is no different for Miyagi. Iām not a good person for Miyagi to begin with, but I donāt want her to think Iām a jerk because of this incident.
We only have a relationship with money.
I know and accept that I have a relationship with Miyagi that is nothing more or less than that, but sometimes it bothers me terribly that I am getting money from my classmates. That is because I do not welcome the intervention of 5,000 yen.
The closer I get to Miyagi, the more the weight of the 5,000 yen increases.
Still, I have become so accustomed to a life of seeing Miyagi once or twice a week that I feel uncomfortable if I donāt see her. If I donāt hear it from her, Iām at least wondering whatās going on.
The truth is, I should not be meeting with Miyagi during summer vacation.
Iāve been too emotionally involved lately.
It is important to give it time, time to pull out the rationality that I have been pushing away somewhere else, time to regain my composure.
Well, she seem to think itās better if I donāt see her, and I havenāt heard from her, so I guess it doesnāt matter.
I turn my gaze downward.
I see a small mark on my chest.
She donāt have the guts to undress people, but she do have the guts to put a hickey on them.
Such a weird fellow.
Miyagi does a lot of strange things.
I let her do whatever she wanted because I knew she would do it even if I told her I didnāt want to and it would be troublesome to argue with her.
When I see traces of Miyagi in places like this where I can see her, even if I donāt want to, I think of her and reflect on the past. Thanks to this, I canāt even get out of the bath because I keep mulling over the fact that I havenāt heard from her.
I wish she would just go away.
Summer vacation is already starting.
Iām going to a prep school and meeting with Umina and the others.
There are more things I have to do than last year, and I canāt think only about Miyagi.
ćItās impossible. So hot.ć
I get out of the hot water and wipe myself off in the changing room.
After drying my hair, I head to the darkened kitchen. I grab a plastic bottle of sports drink from the fridge and head back to my room.
I looked at the phone on the desk and saw a light glowing to indicate an incoming message.
I think itās a hassle.
The clock is past midnight.
There is a certain person who sends me messages at this time of day, and it was either Umina or Mariko.
Is it about karaoke, or a blind date?
Today at school they went on and on about their plans for tomorrow, so they must be contacting me about that.
During summer vacation, Umina said her parents were forcing her to go to cram school, but she also said she was going to get a part-time job. Mariko said she also goes to cram school. Still, she said she canāt miss karaoke or a party.
I am looking forward to having fun with the usual members, but I donāt feel like going to a party. The boys they brought with them were always only good-looking and had no substance.
I picked up my phone and sat on the bed.
Looking at the screen, I see the names of Umina and Mariko as I expected. The content of the message is also what I had in mind.
This year, I may have to turn down some of my plans because of prep school.
As I think about this, I look closely at the screen and notice Miyagiās name.
ćThree times a week, Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Let me know what time youāll be there. And call me before you come, too.ć
If I look at the time the message was received, it was shortly before midnight, which means the reply was received before summer vacation.
The promise was ritually kept, and I send a message to Miyagi saying that I understand, faster than I can write a reply to Umina, and faster than I can write a reply to Mariko.
I meeting with Miyagi three times a week.
The added schedule over the long break is not much of a schedule. But I feel strange because we see each other more often than ever before. I am the one who thinks it will be less boring than a vacation where I am just seeing Umina and Mariko in between prep school sessions.
Prep school is not that interesting.
The instructor takes the class seriously. They are easy to understand and my grades improved. I also enjoy being able to solve a problem that I could not solve, or to improve my test score. I like the moment when I can see the results.
However, I has already realized that no matter how many prep schools I attend, my grades will never be high enough to be accepted into the university my parents wanted me to attend. Still, itās boring because I canāt choose not to go and continue to attend the prep school of my parentsā choice.
I have the grades to go to what people say are good universities, but that doesnāt mean much.
I will send a reply to your message to Umina and Mariko.
I put a number of embellishments on the words that Hazuki Sendai, who is an extension of the school and knows things well, understands, and press the send button. I have agreed to schedule the party, except for the party, which I have put on hold.
Since I started meeting with Miyagi, I am disgusted to find that I care more about others than I thought I did.
Probably the easiest time is when Iām meeting with Miyagi. Itās a better time than anywhere else, and I feel more at home in her house.
Itās complicated, though, because thatās not what I was hoping for.
According to the schedule she has given me, I will start tutoring on Wednesday.
I went to a prep school in the morning and went to Miyagiās house in the afternoon.
I just study, but I wished it would be Wednesday sooner.