ăMiyagi, are you going to be at the door all the time? Iâm freezing.ă
I hear a rushing voice behind me and a poke on my back.
ăI know that.ă
I take off my shoes.
I gently remove the scarf and coat, and go to the common space. I turn on the light, and Sendai-san picks up the remote control for the air conditioner.
ăArenât you going back to your room?ă
ăIs Miyagi going back?ă
ăItâs late, Iâm going to bed.ă
The Christmas party was fun but exhausting.
Besides, the date is about to change.
ââIt will be the 25th.
That means it will be the appointed day.
ăLetâs talk a little. I have a question for Miyagi.ă
Sendai-san ignored my words about going to bed, turned on the air conditioner, and draped her coat over the back of the chair.
ăWhat do you want to ask?ă
ăDid you consult with anyone when choosing my earrings? Did you choose them all by yourself, Miyagi?ă
ăThereâs no way Iâm going to consult anyone.ă
The earrings I gave to Sendai-san are a sign that she is mine and that I control her, so it makes sense for me to choose them and for me to put them on her. Itâs not something I would choose to discuss with anyone, and itâs something I shouldnât.
I donât need other peopleâs opinions on what I make so that Sendai-san can know she is mine.
ăOkay then.ă
Sendai-san says quietly and touches my earring. Her cold fingertips, dragging the cold outside, press down on the piercing and softly caress my earlobe.
ăâŚDid Sendai-san choose my earrings after consulting with someone?ă
ăI made my own choice. I didnât talk to anyone about it.ă
With a soft voice, her lips are pressed against my ear.
Itâs not unusual for Sendai-san to kiss my earrings.
It happens all the time.
But today, I have a lot of strength in my back.
My body stiffens and I involuntarily push her shoulder.
ăAre we done talking, Sendai-san?ă
I ask, looking at my watch.
The date is still the same.
I am not conscious of it, but I am concerned about the time.
ăThereâs still more. Iâll make you some tea. Sit down.ă
Sendai-san pulls out a chair to hang her coat and smiles.
ăYou donât have to do that. If you have something to say, just say it.ă
ăOkay, I wonât make tea, but have a seat.ă
Her tone was light and it seemed like I had a choice, but in reality I had no choice. She tugged on my arm and forced me to sit in a chair covered with my coat.
ăIf you want to talk, Iâll stand and listen.ă
ăThereâs no need to rush.ă
I donât expect her to ask me to fulfill my promise as soon as the 25th comes, but I am restless about the time. But Sendai-san wonât let go of my arm.
I glare at her.
ăIâm gonna sit down, so let go of me.ă
I say strongly and the hand that was holding my arm leaves. I place my scarf and coat on the table, then sit down in my chair.
ăMiyagi, look over here.ă
Today Sendai-san has many orders.
I turned my body toward Sendai-san with my whole chair, as it seemed that doing as I was told would end the conversation faster than resisting by saying I didnât want to do it.
ăWhat would you like to do tomorrow?ă
She made me sit down, but Sendai-san doesnât sit down and asks in a cheerful voice.
ăâŚIâll go out.ă
I donât have a place I want to go, but if I stay at home, I will definitely worry about my appointment. So I want to be outside so that Sendai-san canât do anything.
ăWhere?ă
ăIâll just wander around as I see fit.ă
ăIf thatâs what Miyagi wants, fine.ă
ăWe can also eat outside.ă
ăIâm fine with that. What do you want?ă
ăWhatever. Iâll decide tomorrow.ă
ăOkay.ă
Sendai-san stroked my hair and unwrapped it, wrapping it around her index finger. The same thing was repeated over and over to kill time, and I kicked her leg lightly.
ăCan I go now? Iâm tired. Iâm going to bed.ă
ăStay up a little longer.ă
ăIâm going to bed.ă
I tell her shortly and try to get up, but Sendai-san takes the scarf from the table and wraps it around my neck.
Even though I like the scarf, itâs not something I would use in the room. I try to remove the freshly wrapped scarf, but Sendai-san interrupts me.
ăIt looks good on you. Itâs very pretty.ă
She sounds happy, but Iâm not happy. The unnecessary words donât fit in my ears, and I kick Sendai-sanâs leg. But she saidăprettyăagain and put her lips to my cheek.
Once, then twice.
A kiss I didnât ask for warms my cheeks. I press against Sendai-sanâs body, and this time her lips are attached to my temple, and I feel her body heat.
ăSendai-san, what is this? I told you Iâm going to bed.ă
I complain to Sendai-san, who kisses me on the cheek for the fifth time.
ăBecause, I couldnât do it earlier.ă
ăWhat do you mean by earlier?ă
ăWhen I gave you the scarf.ă
ăWell, then, youâve had your fill.ă
ăItâs not enough.ă
ăI have enough.ă
ăOne more time.ă
Sendai-san smiles and caresses my cheek.
Not much time has passed since I looked at the clock earlier, so it mustnât be 25th yet. The promised date is near, but only near, and itâs not yet a promise to be kept.
I make eye contact with Sendai-san.
To get back to my room, I have to deal with her standing in front of me.
Iâm going to step on Sendai-sanâs foot.
She doesnât move.
She doesnât move out of my way.
Perhaps she wonât move out of the way if I donât fulfill her request for one more time.
I stop to look at the clock.
There is enough time for one kiss.
ăItâs just one time.ă
After reminding her, I pulled on Sendai-sanâs clothes.
The hand that had been caressing my cheek touches my lips.
I thought the kiss was supposed to be on the cheek, but apparently not. I closed my eyes and felt something soft touch my lips.
Our lips gently overlap and should separate immediately, but they donât.
Quietly and slowly, our body temperatures continue to meet.
But the gentle kiss doesnât last long.
Something warm and raw, different from my lips, touches me and pushes in. It is, without thinking, the tip of Sendai-sanâs tongue, which naturally enters me. It was hot, unlike when only the outside of our bodies were touching each other. We exchange, and the body heat that we had been exchanging with each other turns into a one-way pouring sensation, and I choke. I grab Sendai-sanâs arm in agony.
A mass of heat entangles my tongue and I donât know how to breathe.
Soft yet resilient, it feels good, painful, hot, and Iâm afraid Iâm going to lose control.
When I clawed at the arm I grabbed for breath, Sendai-sanâs body finally moved away.
ăYou didnât tell me this is where youâre going to kiss me.ă
I kick Sendai-sanâs leg.
ăAny kiss is a kiss, right?ă
ăReally, thatâs annoying.ă
When she does weird things to me, I canât sleep.
The air-conditioned room is hot, and I try to take off the scarf, which is still wrapped around me, but Sendai-san gets in the way.
ăâŚAre you waiting for the 25th by any chance?ă
I ask Sendai-san, who doesnât allow me to return to my room.
ăWhat if I told you I was waiting?ă
I hear a hushed voice and I step on Sendai-sanâs foot with all my might.
ăThat hurt.ă
ăThen get out of my way. Iâm going to bed.ă
ăThe 25th, and youâre giving it all to me.ă
ăThat promise, when didââă
I start to say it, then stop.
When is it going to happen on the 25th?
Itâs best not to make that clear. If she asks, it will become a new commitment, and even the time to fulfill the commitment will be fixed.
ăItâs nothing, Iâm going to sleep.ă
With the scarf still wrapped around my body, I pushes Sendai-sanâs body and forces myself to stand up and take my coat from the table.
ăIf Miyagi says itâs good to start now, itâs good to start now.ă
ăIâm not going to tell you. Even if I said for the whole 25th, Iâd still need at least some sleep.ă
ăYes, I know. Sleep well for tomorrow. Good night.ă
As I opened the door to my room, returning a good night to Sendai-san, who spun the words without hesitation, I turned to look back at her when she called me,ăMiyagi.ă
ăMerry Christmas.ă
Sendai-san says quietly and smiles.
The 24th and the 25th are no different.
Same with any other day, itâs not special.
I had always thought so, but Sendai-sanâs words sounded special.