I finish my makeup and stare at my ears in the mirror.
The ones I gave Miyagi for her birthday.
But they are also the ones I wanted.
A pair of commemorative piercings opened by Miyagi on her birthday.
It has one on the right and one on the left.
The high school days seem a long way off when we said it was against the rules to create scars that would stay on our body forever.
Two days after the piercing was made.
The little ornament that Miyagi put on me is much more at home with me than I thought it would be. It made my feelings for Miyagi stronger and more certain, and I never get tired of seeing it again and again.
I touch the piercing.
It feels not so different from when I ran my fingers over Miyagiâs ear, and I let out a small breath.
ăJust in case, we two have the same.ă
If I told Miyagi, she would not like it, but my earrings are the same as the ones Miyagi wore in the past. These days she only wears earrings in the shape of plumeria flowers that I gave her, but itâs heartening to know that she once wore the same ones I did.
What did Miyagi do with the first piercing I put in her ear?
Is it tucked away somewhere or did she throw it away?
I want to ask, but I canât because I donât want to be told that she have thrown it away.
I wouldnât throw away these earrings. I could wear it all the time. But since Iâve gone through the trouble of getting pierced, Iâd also like to wear other piercings.
For example, the earrings Miyagi chose to wear.
ăI guess itâs impossible.ă
I let out one sigh.
Itâs hard enough just to make an opportunity for the two of us to go out together, but to make her choose a pair of earrings seems as difficult as teaching a stray cat how to âplay house.â By the time a month or so passes, when the piercing hole is stable and the day comes when Miyagi can chew on my ear, I doubt that the stray cat will have turned into an obedient dog, so if she wants to buy a new piercing, sheâll have to choose one herself.
Well, itâs only been two days since I got my piercings.
If she does buy new earrings, I wonât rush her to buy them.
For now, Iâll just be happy to have my new treasures. We can think about what will happen in a monthâs time. Maybe a miracle will happen, and by then Miyagi will be a stray cat playing with her hands.
I tug at my earlobes, decorated with pierced ears, then look at my watch.
Itâs too early to go to college.
I decide to leave the house after having something to drink and open the door to my room. When I go to the common area, Miyagi is there.
ăYouâre already going?ă
When I called out to her, Miyagi looked at me.
I have felt Miyagiâs gaze in my ear ever since I had my earrings pierced, as well as when we were eating. Miyagi has been watching me for not a few hours since the night of my birthday.
ăYeah.ă
They donât look out of place.
Miyagi stares unreservedly at my earrings.
I didnât realize there was such an option for piercing.
Punching holes in the ears.
Thatâs all it takes to take the eye of Miyagi.
I donât just want the eyes, I want something else as well. If I can draw Miyagi to me by offering any part of my body, I will offer as much as I can. I would give anything if Miyagi wants it.
If I ask her what she wants, will Miyagi give me an answer?
Trapped in thoughts that are not healthy, I am brought back to reality by the sound of Miyagiâs voice.
ăSendai-san, are you still not going?ă
I exhale a small breath, dismayed at myself for thinking that there was nothing else I could offer.
I am too encroached upon by Miyagi. Miyagi is taking up too much of my life, and I think everything is about to be painted over with Miyagi. If Miyagi covered everything that was left over of who I am, I would be a little afraid of where I would be inside of me.
ăSendai-san?ă
Miyagi calls me in silence.
I canât go on forever without answering a question that could be answered immediately. I look at Miyagi and smile.
ăIâm not going yet. Iâm going to coat you the lipstick, Miyagi.ă
Her lips are not used to the lipstick I gave her.
ăYou donât have to coat. Iâm going to go now.ă
Miyagi, perhaps not liking my answer, makes a blatantly disgusted face.
ăYou wonât use the lipstick?ă
ăIt doesnât have to be now for me to use it. Besides, I used it once the day I got it.ă
ăUse it everyday.ă
I am glad that Miyagi is using what I gave her.
I hope she will use the lipstick just as the stuffed black cat is always in her room.
ăI donât want to.ă
ăWell, if I say, âIâll do anything for you, Miyagi,â will you let me apply your lipstick?ă
Itâs a better opinion than trying to figure out what part of the body to offer up, and I hope she actually use the lip I gave her.
ăâŠWhat do you mean by âanythingâ?ă
ăAnything within the bounds of common sense.ă
Miyagi looks at me with a difficult face.
There is no need to think about it, because applying lipstick is not a big deal. There is a discrepancy between my common sense and Miyagiâs, but there is no way I wouldnât follow Miyagiâs, so the word âcommon senseâ shouldnât be a problem. And yet, Miyagi thought about it for a full minute before answering.
ăSendai-san, you better keep that promise.ă
ăIâll take good care of that, bring me the lipstick.ă
When I say this, Miyagi looks twice as disgusted as before and pulls out a lip from the bag she was carrying and hands it to me.
Itâs not left in the room.
I swallow the words that almost come out of my mouth.
Maybe if I said that, Miyagi would take lipstick away from me and go to college.
ăSo what does Miyagi want me to do?ă
ăI havenât decided yet. Can it wait until later?ă
ăOkay. Then, close your eyes.ă
I say quietly, and Miyagi closes her eyes without defying me.
She doesnât have to close her eyes to apply lipstick, but she wants me to close them. I still wanted to taste the tip of her lips, so I tried to kiss her more deeply, but she kicked me in the leg. I had no choice but to pull away, and Miyagi kicked my leg again.
ăI thought youâre just going to coat the lipstick.ă
ăI forgot.ă
I smiled and removed the cap from the lipstick. Then, Miyagi closes her eyes once more as I brought it closer with its sweet aroma.
Slowly and carefully.
I color her soft lips.
ăOkay. Itâs done.ă
A delicious scent was coming from Miyagi.
I want to kiss her again, but I didnât, because if I do, she wonât let me apply the lipstick anymore.
ăâŠThank you. I should go now.ă
When I said that, Miyagi took the lipstick from my hand and put it in her bag. Then, as she was about to leave the house without me, I grabbed Miyagiâs arm.
ăWait a minute. Iâll come with you.ă
ăI donât want to. Go after me.ă
ăEh, wait for me.ă
ăIâm not waiting.ă
Miyagi shakes off my hand and leaves the common space, and I rush back to my room. I grab my bag and make a short run to the front door. When I put on my shoes and open the door, I see Miyagi and involuntarily let out a âwahâ sound.
ăYou waited for me?ă
ăI didnât.ă
Miyagi looked me in the ear and then started to walk away. I lock the door and then follow Miyagi.