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Chapter 187
Sendai-san is unlike anyone else — 187
Translated by KaiesV
Edited by KaiesV
We were going to watch movies until morning.
But Sendai-san didn’t want to make use of the tablet she brought with her. She said she would meet me after taking a bath and getting dressed, and she is drinking tea gracefully next to me.
「Isn’t a sleepover a party to watch a movie together?」
I asked Sendai-san, who was wearing a T-shirt instead of pajamas, and she put down her mug and looked at me.
「Miyagi, you were going to stay up all night to watch the movie, so you should watch it.」
「Then, I’ll stay up all night and watch a movie.」
「You and Utsunomiya saw the movie, so you can do that later.」
「I’ll watch the movie first.」
I try to grab the tablet on the table, but Sendai-san takes it from me before I can reach it.
「Do the movie after we run out of things to talk about. I told you we’d talk nonsense and get to know each other.」
Sendai-san chuckled and placed the tablet on the bed where it rested on his back.
「I don’t have anything to say.」
「There are a lot of things to think about, aren’t there? For example, what will you have for breakfast tomorrow?」
「Butter and jam on toast」
「Okay, then, what was your most memorable moment in high school?」
「I don’t have to answer that. It’s my room and I decide what to do.」
When I assured her, Sendai-san replied,「I see,」but she didn’t seem to be listening to me and said,「Miyagi,」in a rather cheerful voice.
「Let’s do janken.」
「Eh?」
I cannot give a proper reply to words I did not expect.
「Here it goes, Rock, paper, scissors!」
When she called out to me, I reflexively put out a goo. When I looked at Sendai-san’s hand, I saw a par and heard her happy voice.
「It’s my win. The movie would be later.」
It seemed that the game of rock-paper-scissors was a choice of what to do next, and Sendai-san, who won the game, started talking nonsense as a matter of course.
「You won’t do any part-time jobs, Miyagi?」
「I’m not.」
I would consider doing it if I had to go back to that empty house without a part-time job, but so far that hasn’t happened. My father does as much as he can to help me through college without a part-time job.
「Hey, you know, I said I’m thinking of getting more part-time work for winter break, but why don’t you do that with me, Miyagi?」
「Sendai-san, you should do it alone.」
Sendai-san, who works part-time, is unacceptable.
I don’t want her to go to places I don’t know, and I don’t want her to meet people I didn’t know, but I don’t want to work part-time with her.
「If you’re not going home, you have time for winter break.」
「I won’t work part-time, even if I had the time.」
「Why?」
「I’m not cut out for it.」
If I were to work part-time with Sendai-san, who does everything with ease, I would definitely be compared to her. I am not able to do everything like her, nor am I to the point. If we work at the same place, I think I will show Sendai-san that I’m not good looking. Not that I want to show my good side, but there is no need to go out of my way to show my bad side.
Besides, I don’t know what I should look like when I am with Sendai-san in the presence of others.
「You’re going to get a job after college, so you should at least get a part-time job as a rehearsal for that.」
「If I were to practice, I wouldn’t do it with Sendai-san.」
「…What if it’s with Utsunomiya?」
I hear a slightly low voice.
It seems that Sendai-san is in a bad mood today.
「Maika has nothing to do with that.」
「If you’re going to work part-time, do it with me.」
「I won’t be doing it with Sendai-san, and for now, I won’t be working part-time during winter break itself.」
I wish Sendai-san had never had a part-time job in the first place.
It would be faster for Sendai-san to give up her part-time job for the winter break than for her to tell me to get a part-time job. She should quit her tutoring job without taking on more part-time work and spend her time slaving away at home. But she didn’t seem to think so, exhaling in frustration and turning her body toward me.
「I’ll say it again. Let’s work part-time together during winter break. I’ll find you a part-time job.」
「Like I said before, I won’t work part-time with Sendai-san.」
I don’t want her to decide on a part-time job without my permission, so I clearly refuse once again. No matter how many times I’m told, I have no intention of taking a part-time job with her.
「No matter what?」
「No matter what.」
「…Miyagi.」
Sendai-san calls me in a quiet voice.
When I didn’t answer, a hand was placed on my shoulder.
「I think Miyagi should think about me a little more.」
「…I did buy pudding for you.」
「That’s not what I mean. ——I’m saying you’re hurting me.」
Sendai-san slowly puts more pressure on the hand she has placed on my shoulder. I almost pushed her down and pushed her shoulder back to gain just a little distance.
「Why did you get hurt?」
「If you don’t understand, then it’s fine.」
When she said this, Sendai-san kisses me as if it were a matter of course.
Her lips are pressed hard against mine, and her hands are wrapped around my back.
Her hands go down over the T-shirt, stroking the shoulder blades. The hem of my dress is rolled up to push Sendai-san’s body away from mine, but our lips meet again. This time she goes deeper and bites lightly to expel the tongue that has parted her lips. Still, she does not leave me. A tongue that is not mine tries to engage me.
The hand traces up the spine and up.
I am distracted by the tongue that has become so familiar to me over the years, and then my bra is unhooked. I push hard and strong on Sendai-san’s body, and also expel her hand that got inside my T-shirt.
「I wasn’t in the mood for this.」
Kissing, however, wouldn’t have been in the mood to remove my underwear. And that’s not what was promised.
「You said you’d wait until I said it was okay.」
That’s not a promise she forced upon me.
It was something that Sendai-san said to me, and it was something she pledged to my earring even before she came to this room.
「I didn’t say I wanted to have a sleepover with the intention of doing something like this… it’s Miyagi’s fault.」
「Even if I’m at fault, you made me a promise, and you’re going to keep it.」
「I’ll keep my promise. But if Miyagi says it’s okay, I don’t have to wait, right?」
I pushed her shoulder as she tried to put her hand in my clothes again, saying something that I didn’t think was right, as if it were obvious.
The order is wrong.
She should ask if it’s ok and then do it.
「Miyagi, if you don’t like it, tell me you don’t like it. Then I’ll stop.」
「Stop.」
「What’s the reason?」
「I told you earlier.」
「Doing or being done, because you’re about to lose your mind?」
It was something I said, but when I heard it in Sendai-san’s voice, I couldn’t help but realize that I had said something terribly embarrassing. I feel like I want to erase myself from the past because I never had to say it.
「Miyagi.」
When I remained silent, Sendai-san’s hand would caress my cheek and I would respond with a small「yes.」
「It’s okay to lose your mind. Tomorrow is your day off too, so don’t worry about losing your mind.」
A hand stroked my cheek and crawled up my neck.
Sendai-san’s fingertips touch my collarbone and I grab her hand.
「Sendai-san, you said something similar the other day, but I’m not okay with that.」
I peel off the hand that is attached to her body and pushes it toward Sendai-san.
「Okay, I’ll try not to lose your mind.」
A voice is in my ear and her lips are pressed against my neck. I am sucked lightly and her teeth are set, but it’s a sweet bite, so it doesn’t hurt. But the tickling momentarily relaxes me from my body.
Next thing I know, my back is on the floor.
「Sendai-san!」
When I call her name strongly, my lips are sealed.
A hand slips inside my T-shirt.
A hand is placed on my stomach and slowly moves up. My bra, unhooked, is slid off without hesitation. I bite her lip, and Sendai-san moves away as if to escape, but her hands cover my breasts.
It takes my breath away.
But Sendai-san did nothing more.
The hand on her chest remains still, not moving.
Right now I just feel her warmth so I can maintain a sense of normalcy, but if I can keep this up——
I grab Sendai-san’s hand over my T-shirt.
「I didn’t say it was okay.」
「I know I can’t.」
「If you know what you’re doing, get your hands off me.」
「I, for one, want to respect Miyagi’s feelings, and I know I have.」
「…You’re not doing that now.」
「I still want to do it. So make up a reason why you don’t want me to do it, except you’re going to lose your mind. Make up a reason that would make me unable to do anything, not one that could be easily overturned, and tell me what it is.」
Sendai-san says in a tone that makes no sense, yet seems to make sense.
「Then answer me, Sendai-san, before I answer you. What is the reason you want to do it, Sendai-san?」
When I ask, she stared at me.
The hand that was holding on moves down spontaneously and I fix it on my stomach.
「…Is that a good answer?」
The voice I heard sounded much less confident than before.
Sendai cast her eyes down as if she was lost.
The air becomes heavy as her gaze is averted.
It shouldn’t be a suffocating scene, but my heart tightens and I find it hard to breathe. My heart beats irregularly like raindrops slamming against the window.
I don’t know what I’m trying to say, but I feel as if it’s something I shouldn’t hear.
Eyes that were downcast look at me.
She is about to open her mouth, and I interrupt the words that are about to be spun out.
「I don’t have to answer that.」
「I’ve asked you about it, Miyagi.」
「Yes, but I don’t have to answer that.」
「Then, don’t answer… but you better give me a good reason why you don’t want to.」
As she said this, Sendai-san pulled her hand out of my T-shirt.