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Chapter 115
The time left for me and Miyagi — 115
Translated by KaiesV
Edited by KaiesV
Tomorrow, the world will be destroyed.
If such news were to come out, I would believe it without the slightest doubt.
That’s how strange Miyagi is.
She called me several times after we exchanged chocolates, but she never got angry or gave me strange orders. She was not in a good mood, but she talked a lot and allowed me to kiss her.
How could Miyagi be like this?
But if I think about it, it was normal for a person not to be angry and to talk. I think Miyagi is decent as a person now because she treats people in a calm manner even if they are only acquaintances. Perhaps the Miyagi I see these days is the Miyagi I see when she was with Utsunomiya and her friends.
Perhaps I am the one who is worried about seeing such a Miyagi, but I am not sure.
I lean back on my bed and look at the piggy bank on the chest.
The 5,000 yen bill stuck inside that one.
I don’t know how many are in there, but for a moment I wish I didn’t have that one. Without the exchange of 5,000 yen, I would never have gotten close to Miyagi or thought about her in this way. I could have waited for spring break thinking only of myself.
It’s a hassle.
About me, About Miyagi, everything.
I wish I could have been honest and happy, without taking a narrow-minded view of things, such as the fact that I had a lot of fun talking with Miyagi or that I didn’t have to take strange orders from her. It seems to me that the kinder Miyagi is now, the worse the consequences will be.
Looking back, I have no good memories of the unusual Miyagi.
So I am inclined to be suspicious of Miyagi’s actions and feel that there is a backstory to everything she does.
If I were Utsunomiya, I would have accepted Miyagi now without doubt. I think I could have rejoiced that we were going to pretend that the graduation ceremony wasn’t a promise that we made at the end of the day.
But I can’t.
I don’t think Miyagi hates me.
If she doesn’t like it, she won’t let me kiss her or touch her body. But Miyagi seems to be accepting me, but not accepting me. I don’t know what her intentions are, but I have a feeling that Miyagi, who is pretending to be kind, will give me a different answer the more strongly I want to withdraw my promise.
For the most part, Miyagi did not even contact me when the results of the exam were announced.
I have informed Miyagi that I passed the exam.
She also gave me her congratulations.
But Miyagi has not contacted me, even though she promised to let me know the results. Not that there is no way to know if Miyagi has been accepted, but she should tell me the results as soon as possible since I am waiting maturely.
Accepted.
Failed.
I think she should send a message as short as this one.
「I told you to get in touch with me as soon as possible.」
I said to myself, “Idiot,” and stood up.
I jump into bed and close my eyes.
It’s still around nine o’clock, so it’s early for me to go to bed.
I didn’t even take a bath.
But I don’t think I want to get up.
I let out a breath and check the screen as my phone rings in my ear.
「…Miyagi.」
The timing was so good that I wondered if she was eavesdropping, and I couldn’t help but mention the name on the screen.
「About college, it’s not like you didn’t make it or anything.」
Inhale and exhale.
I feel guilty for thinking of the not-so-good results first, but I can’t help it since I was not clearly told how the exam went. I can’t believe it’s a good outcome even if I wanted to.
「Hello?」
Calling out over the phone in a voice that is neither bright nor dark, Miyagi’s voice is heard in place of the ring tone that has rang for who knows how many times.
「I was accepted.」
「Eh?」
「I got accepted to the same university as Maika. End of report」
「Eh, ah, you’re accepted. Then…」
Her report was simple for having made me wait so long, and the words I wanted to hear did not come out easily.
Will she go to the same university as Utsunomiya or not?
I have not promised to ask her to tell me, but I would like to know. But Miyagi starts to speak before I can say a word to ask her which she chooses.
「Also, there’s a movie I want to see.」
「A movie?」
Too abruptly, words that have nothing to do with the university are thrown in, and the words that should be uttered are replaced by different words. When I realized I had forgotten to even say congratulations, I heard Miyagi’s voice saying,「Yes.」
I can’t keep up with my feelings on a topic that has changed direction at a speed I hadn’t considered. Miyagi is silent and doesn’t seem to be enjoying herself, despite being accepted to college. Thanks to this, I am unable to say the congratulations I forgot to say.
Miyagi is always like this.
She says what she wants to say and shuts up without thinking about others.
As for me, I am swept up by my emotions and still can’t help but care about her. I think this role that is detrimental, but I can’t just throw that role away. Even now, I am thinking about how I can reach out to Miyagi.
「That’s all.」
Miyagi says in a few words.
But I know that’s not all. Perhaps I must be the one to speak the rest of the story.
「Are you asking me out to a movie by any chance?」
「If you don’t want to be asked out, fine.」
「When is that going to be?」
Miyagi is unwilling to give the date, which must have been decided beforehand.
That’s bad timing, I think.
「I’d like to go, but I have something to do that day. Can we do it a little before or after?」
Miyagi grunts behind her phone.
Her college report has somehow turned into a story about going to the movies, but it is obvious that if I try to get back on track, the movie story will never have happened. Then the priority would be on the film.
It is better to talk about college face to face.
I don’t want to rush to ask now and end up hearing a bad word.
「Then, before is okay. Tomorrow?」
I reply, “Okay,” and Miyagi specifies a time and place to meet. That’s the time and place we met up to watch a movie together on summer vacation, and it makes my heart flutter.
I feel nothing but discomfort at Miyagi’s request to watch a movie, and at the fact that he went to the trouble of specifying the same time and place as during our summer vacation. I felt somewhat uncomfortable and tried to ask why, but Miyagi said,「Sendai-san.」
「What?」
「What’s the errand?」
「I’ve decided on a university. I’m going to look at rooms.」
To live alone over there.
It was decided that I would do so if I was accepted to the university of my choice, so I was going to look for a room. There is an option to go during spring break, but I heard at the prep school that the earlier you look for a room, the better.
「What about Miyagi?」
「What about me, you ask?」
「If you’re going to college over there, don’t you have to find a room?」
I mention the university thing as if it were a byproduct.
I think this is about as good as I’m going to hear.
「I might stay here.」
「Then, if you were to go…」
「…I’ll move into a dormitory」
「I thought you couldn’t live with other people.」
「Dad is busy, so we don’t have time to go look at rooms together. If I can’t find a dormitory, I’ll think about it then.」
Miyagi speaks as if it were a given. From the way she answers without hesitation, it is clear that her feelings are almost set in stone. I am sure Miyagi will go to the same university as Utsunomiya and will indeed be in a dormitory. But if I pursue it in a strange way, I am sure she will say she will never go.
「It’s really appropriate, isn’t it? It’s fine, but… So, about the movie, what are you going to watch?」
「What do you want to see, Sendai-san?」
「You said you had a movie you wanted to see, Miyagi.」
This is indeed something I would like to pursue.
Miyagi’s words do not match what she said earlier.
「Just asking in case. Don’t forget tomorrow. Good night.」
After hearing a curt voice, the phone hangs up without waiting for my reply.
She would just say what she wanted to say and hang up.
After all, Miyagi is Miyagi.
There’s no doubt that things have been strange lately, and today is no different.
But the selfishness is still the same as always in Miyagi.
The bad premonition I get from Miyagi, who is full of discomfort, and the good premonition I get from her voice when she says she is going to the dormitory are mixed together.
I place my phone under the pillow.
I closed my eyes and think about tomorrow.
After watching the movie.
What will I do about college?
And ask Miyagi about what happens to us after the graduation ceremony.
I don’t know or have any confidence that she will utter the answer I want. But I can’t help but ask.
I opened my eyes and exhaled heavily.