âYeah. Well, donât say it like Iâm being niceâŠâ
The class president smiled wryly.
âDid this kid always have such diverse expressions?â
It felt a little unnerving. Thinking about it, we had been in the same class since first year, but we never talked much.
âIâm running for student council this time, remember? So that I could get college recommendations⊠But anyway, the student council president should act like it. I should at least be able to handle a problem in my class. I donât know how to resolve this, but Iâll try asking Kim Yul. Do you know his number?â
âYeah⊠Just a moment.â
While I was looking for his number, I realized something. The class president didnât know Kim Yulâs number, but all of my classmates who watched the video would know that fact. Therefore:
âClass Pres isnât the culprit.â
Though, there was still a chance that this was all an actâŠ
âThat canât be. Heâs such a square, and he had no way of getting hold of the recording.â
The class president was safe. I was sure of it.
While I was nodding my head, the class president exclaimed in surprise and said, âNevermind. Itâs kind of rude to talk about this sort of thing over the phone. Iâll just secretly talk to Kim Yul after school tomorrow. That should be fine, right?â
âOh, right. Calling might be bad. Well, thanks for trying to help.â
âIf youâre grateful, vote for me instead of your girlfriend, please.â
ââŠSure.â
My girlfriend broke up with me today, anyway. The class president didnât seem to know about it, which was another reason he wasnât on the suspect list.
âThatâs right.â
I had hope.
âItâs not over yet. Nothing has ended! As long as at least one person supports me, I can make a new plan using him. This atmosphere will only last a short time⊠After a while, my friends will come back to me and everything will be back to normal.â
From that day, the class president really started to act. I didnât know what exactly he was doing, but he seemed to be taking advantage of the [model student] image he had built up.
âAll right. Iâve heard what Kim Yul had to say,â the class president said the next day.
It was during lunchtime. I didnât go to the cafeteria today, either. My classmates continued to scorn me, and I didnât want to get caught up in the atmosphere. So the two of us were speaking secretly in the empty classroom.
âReally? What did he say?â
âHe wants you to apologize in front of your friends. Heâll never accept your apology if itâs just you two. If you apologize sincerely about what you did and how bad it was in front of your friends, heâll forgive you.â
That crazy guy.
âApology? Forgiveness? Who is he kidding?â
He simply wanted to humiliate me. There was no difference between my classmates and Kim Yul. They were acting up for a little taste of power.
âHe said three times that he wouldnât forgive you if he couldnât feel âsincerityâ from the apology. Mm. His face was expressionless, but I think heâs really angry at you.â
âIâm gonna go nuts.â
Couldnât I just give him a million won and call it done? He would accept it since he was poor.
âWhat is sincerity? What do I have to do for him to feel it?â
âWho knows? I donât really get it either⊠Anyway, the important part is apologizing in front of the other kids. Why donât you try writing out the apology beforehand?â
The class president sounded a bit irritated. He may finally have realized the situation was more complicated than he expected.
Dammit. My school life and future were at stake here. My life depended on this. If he was pretending to be good, he should take responsibility till the end!
âYeah, Iâll write an apology. HaaâŠâ
I sighed, making the most pitiful expression I could.
âHwang Eunseo, itâs time for the performance of your lifetime.â
âReally, why did I stupidly torment Kim Yul? I thoughtlessly joined in since all the kids were doing it. Dammit. I shouldnât have done that.â
Câmon, hurry up and pity me. Sympathize with me. I was a human being. I could feel regret and repent my mistakes. But it wasnât that big of a sin! So hurry up and feel sorry for me!
âItâs natural Kim Yul is angry at me. I could have stopped the others, but⊠Now, Iâm sorry. If I could, Iâd apologize in front of the whole school. Really.â
ââŠâŠâ
The class president stared at me with his eyes, deep as a well. His face was hard to read, but there was no mistaking that he was listening to me.
âI have an idea.â
The class president suddenly got to his feet.
âHuh?â
âIt just occurred to me how you can get Kim Yulâs forgiveness. Wait a moment. I need to go to the teachersâ office.â
The class president sprinted out of the classroom. I was dumbfounded. What was that guy doing? I absentmindedly chewed on the Gâstly bread in the barren classroom.[1] I had gnawed off about half of the bread when the class president returned.
âAll right! I received permission from the teacher.â
âFor what?â
âThe student council election speech. I asked if a non-candidate can go up to the podium. Nothing in the rules says you canât.â
The class president smiled confidently.
Maybe he dropped by the bathroom on the way back, but there was moisture around his mouth.
âYou said it. If you could, you would apologize in front of the whole school. I was already pondering what to write in my speech to beat your girlfriend, so this is great.â
âUhâŠâ
âListen carefully.â
The class president sat down and took out a notebook. Swish, swish! An old-timey cursive danced on the page.
âHwang Eunseo, youâll apologize to Kim Yul. Then, Iâll take over the microphone and continue the speech, saying [The type of school I want to create as student council president is one where you admit your mistakes and grant forgiveness]. Got it?â
I didnât get it.
âWeâll decorate it as a story. The speech wonât just be a boring pledge of what Iâll accomplish!â
ââŠâŠâ
âI donât know what your girlfriendâs speech will say, but sheâs uber-rich. I can imagine it clearly. Sheâll offer her own money to put perfume in the bathrooms, make sure we donât run out of tissues, stuff like that to coax the students. If I make simple campaign promises, my odds are zero⊠Yes, letâs fight with a story.â
The class president wrote in his notebook.
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A student council that solves problems!
A council that helps you speak!
We will become all studentsâ emergency mediators!
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âUhhhâŠâ
The class presidentâs eyes were gleaming.
âWhat do you think?â
It was really sappy.
âThis is the era of storytelling! Bathroom fragrances, tissuesâall that is overused. Students have heard those promises since elementary school. Theyâll eat this up. Letâs use a story!â
âUm.â
Well, student council elections were supposed to be cheesy. Candidates would slap on whatever to their speeches, mediating or communication and whatnot. The class presidentâs idea didnât seem bad.
âBut holy shit, this bastardâŠâ
I looked at the class president with fresh eyes.
âHe has no interest in anything but his election, huh?â
Even though he was the class president, I was wondering why he was going so far to help. This selfish bastard. He was thinking about how to use me to get elected from the start.
The class president didnât care about what was happening in class. He had no interest in what happened to Kim Yul or why my life was falling apart. He only got involved because he could use this for the race. And even his desire to be student council president was so he could get into a good college!
âThatâs right.â
But as I looked at the class president, I now had no suspicions.
âI can work with this kind of asshole.â
The class president and I were one of a kind. He looked toward the future. He was concerned about his prospects. He intended to enter a good university and live a good life. How many people went so far to become student council president just to get a letter of recommendation to Seoul National University?
âHeâs just like me.â
The class president was much more trustworthy than someone who acted nice for no reason. He was someone who would definitely succeed once we entered society.
âBut thereâs only a few days left before the election. Are you sure you donât mind changing your speech because of me?â
âItâs fine. Winning is all that matters.â
The class president smiled.
âCounting the time I used making posters and such, Iâve spent 20 hours on this election. I gave up 20 hours of studying for this election, so I canât lose.â
âThis bastard. Really, we think on the same lines.â
I trusted him even more now. I felt a sense of camaraderie with him.
âAll right, Class Pres. Iâll help with what I can, for sure. In exchange, you have to help me too. Tell our classmates that I want to make up with them. In the meantime, Iâm sorry, and I want to be friends again if we can.â
âSure. Sounds good. Weâve got to scratch each otherâs backs.â
We shook hands.
âIâll be in your care.â
âThe same to you!â
I helped with the class presidentâs election. I couldnât help him out in the open, but I looked over and coordinated his speech with my apology.
My classmatesâ ostracization didnât change, but the fact I had [something to do at school] stabilized me a lot.
âOh? Itâs not half bad.â
The class president was satisfied when he read over my apology and speech. It was after school. Only the two of us remained in the sunset-tinged Grade 2, Class 5 room.
âNow, if you just act it out well here, weâll win.â
âAct?â
I tilted my head.
âWhat acting?â
âHuh? Hwang Eunseo, you arenât actually sorry to Kim Yul at all.â
ââŠâŠâ
âOh, donât worry. Iâm not accusing you. Itâs not the mindset of apologizing thatâs important but the attitude, in my opinion. In the first place, I donât even know what it means to have a sorry mindset.â
The class president flipped through my written apology.
âYouâre risking humiliation by apologizing in front of the whole school. What apology can be more sincere than that? It doesnât matter how many times you say youâre sorry or feel bad. You have to prove it with actions. In that regard, youâre a thousand times better than the other kids, Hwang Eunseo.â
Hm.
HmmâŠ
âI slyly asked Kim Yul yesterday whether anyone properly apologized to him. But nobodyâs done it, you know? Youâre the only one who even asked how you can be forgiven. Seriously, our classmates have no shame.â
âClass Pres⊠YouâŠâ
He really got me. I was a bit touched.
âAh, of course, itâs good from my position. If you went around saying, [Vote for my girlfriend! No matter what, vote for her!] then Iâd have lost dozens of points. While I feel bad that youâre being ostracized, truthfully, itâs advantageous for me.â
âWow. Youâre a piece of shitâŠâ
âYup. Thanks. Arenât humans shitty to begin with?â
I laughed. He was right. I hadnât laughed this much since my girlfriend broke up with me.
âThis guy really knows how to talk.â
People were trash. They were beasts. If a human being looked tame, it was only because they had degenerated into livestock. Only those who quickly realize this survive.
[Currently, your immersion rate is 100%.]
Then, instead of being livestock, they could be a wolf. If theyâre lucky, they could even become a lion.
They could succeed.
Those who complained that relationships were difficult did so because they saw people as people. It was simple if you saw them as beasts.
You have no friends? Itâs because thereâs nothing to gain from being beside you. If you canât do anything else, you should at least be able to relieve someoneâs stress while hanging out. You have many friends? Itâs because thereâs a lot to be gained from being with you.
That was all.
True friendship only came from quid pro quo.
âIf I stick with this guy, I donât think Iâll lose anything, at least.â
I smirked.
âClass Pres. You wanna be friends?â
The class president snorted.
âFirst, I need to be elected student council president. The speech is fine now, but thereâs room for improvement. Iâm working hard to talk you up to our classmates, you know? Itâll all be for naught if I donât win.â
âFine, fine! Okay. Iâll write you a great speech! Itâll make you cry and tear up when you recite it! I, Hwang Eunseo, will give my all to make our class president into Shinseo Highâs president!â
âYes, yes, I hear you. Iâm counting on you, Eunseo.â