Of course, those who know them will know. These are sites where methods of suicide are listed, and one can recruit companions for a joint suicide.
　I had sneaked into the depths of such a suicide website.
　I hadn't decided to die.
　However, the temptation to die wasn't entirely absent.
　I was lightly despairing of this world.
　At school, I was lightly bullied.
　It wasn't something clear-cut. It was the kind of thing where I was ignored in a sinister way.
　I was alone during class, lunch breaks, and when commuting to and from school.
　In elementary school, I was even subjected to direct violence, so in that sense, things had improved.
　I am currently learning kendo and aikido. I started in elementary school because I didn't want to be bullied.
　I've gained quite a bit of strength, so recently, no one has tried to use violence against me.
　They are pitiful people.
　They can use violence against the weak, but when they can't win, they can only ignore them.
　Well, I also look down on them, so there's no way we could become friends.
　The attitude of my father at home is similar.
　When my mother died, I was subjected to domestic violence, but lately, he doesn't even speak to me out of fear.
　The world is ultimately like this.
　No matter how much you try to maintain a facade, in the end, it's all about power.
　If you can't match the power, no one will directly do anything to you.
　That said, just having power isn't enough to reach the top in today's world.
　I really think this world is corrupt.
　Perhaps because I was thinking such things.
　I was drawn into a suicide website I found by chance on the internet.
　When I think about it, I have almost no attachment to this world.
　I have no family to rely on, no lover, and no friends.
　What other attachments could I have?
　My grades aren't good.
　With the abuse from my father, it's unlikely I'll be able to go to university.
　We are poor.
　By the way, the aikido and kendo I learn are taught for free by the temple's priest to children.
　But I knew.
　I knew that the priest liked to touch girls he favored.
　The world is really like this. It's corrupt.
　If I have any attachment, it's that.
　To be honest, I wanted to lose my virginity.
　It would be a waste to die without experiencing it.
　That's the kind of thing a sex-driven high school boy thinks.
　Besides, the idea of suicide is still scary.
　I don't want to feel pain or fear.
　They say that if you really want to die, you can do anything.
　I've put a lot of effort into aikido and kendo. I didn't have much else to do.
　I should have some strength.
　It might not be a lie to say that I might be able to do something.
　While browsing the site without fully deciding to commit suicide, a link titled "Before you decide to commit suicide" caught my eye.
　Right. This is it.
　Healthy teenagers, like me, a second-year high school student, shouldn't be encouraged to commit suicide.
　This is what I wanted.
　Of course, I'm still scared of dying.
　It looks like an ad, but I'll click it anyway.
　...What is this?
　I muttered as I moved to that page.
　To summarize the content simply, it suggests that if you find it hard to live in this world, why not live in another world?
　What kind of Mary?
　It says something like, "A world suitable for you to live in," and you can choose from various options.
　A world with advanced technology, a world where pirates dominate, an ancient world, a world of swords and magic...
　There's even a world with magic.
　If you choose it, you can proceed to a world with only humans, a world with humans, elves, and dwarves, or a world with humans, demi-humans, and beastmen, and so on.
　I get it.
　This is an entry point to an online game.
　Well, it was an ad link, after all.
　I wonder what they intend by advertising on a site where people who want to commit suicide gather, but I'll proceed.
　An online game might be good right now.
　At the very least, it's much healthier than thinking about suicide.
　Perhaps many people think this way, which is why it works as an ad.
　I tried an online game when I first entered high school.
　Without real friends, I played solo in the online game as well.
　That's probably why. I didn't get deeply involved and naturally stopped playing after a while.
　Still, I enjoyed it to some extent.
　I don't hate it.
　As I proceeded further, I was asked to choose the number of cultures and countries.
　More variety would be more interesting.
　It would also be an option to go to other countries when I get bored.
　The next page was about the frequency of wars.
　A world where countries actively fight or a friendly world.
　In an online game, this would mean joining a guild and participating in guild wars.
　It doesn't matter to me as a solo player.
　I'll choose the fourth world, which is slightly more friendly than the middle.
　Then, whether it's a dungeon type or a field type.
　It's hard to choose between the two.
　I'll choose both.
　It's mysterious that I can choose without being forced by the game's rules, but I guess the recommended game will be displayed at the end.
　However, there are really many options to choose from.
　I was even asked to choose the language to use.
　And it's not even Japanese.
　What's this, Brahmic language?
　I don't understand, so I'll leave it at the default.
　As I was getting tired of the many options, I came to a page for setting bonus points.
　Wow.
　It feels like a game.
　I clicked "redo" several times, changing the numbers.
　I'm the type who gets absorbed in such things.
　I can't proceed until I get good numbers.
　My love for aikido might also be due to my obsession with forms.
　Repeating the same form over and over is enjoyable in its own way.
　The bonus points are generally quite low.
　Mostly in the teens and twenties. There are quite a few single digits.
　What's the highest number?
　Oh, 62.
　Is it a lot, or can I get more? It's a tricky number.
　I continued to try.
　Sometimes in the forties, occasionally in the fifties.
　I can aim for something higher than the last one.
　71.
　The number is green.
　Is this a decent number?
　But the last digit is 1.
　If the highest is 75, it's enough, but if it can go up to 79, I want to aim higher.
　I decided to redo it boldly.
　However, after that, no numbers in the seventies appeared, only occasionally in the sixties.
　Did I fail?
　I kept clicking.
　Should I compromise at the sixties?
　While thinking this, I clicked out of habit, and a number 8 passed by my eyes.
　Was it in the eighties just now?
　It was in the eighties, right?
　The number on the page stopped at 19.
　Oh no. I messed up.
　I pressed "redo" without thinking.
　Sigh. No choice.
　I returned to the task of clicking "redo."
　The sixties appeared several times, but after seeing the eighties once, I couldn't stop at the sixties anymore.
　How much time had passed?
　After that, no numbers in the seventies appeared.
　I had no choice but to keep clicking.
　I kept clicking, frustrated that high numbers weren't appearing.
　To prevent myself from clicking past it again, I always checked the number after one click. After checking, I chose to redo.
　Redo. Check. Redo. Check. Redo.
　Why am I doing this in the first place?
　Now, wouldn't it be fine with single-digit bonus points?
　While thinking this, I kept clicking.
　At this point, it's a matter of pride.
　Click, check, and click again.
　I kept clicking endlessly.
　Click. Click. Click.
　Click. Click. Click.
　99.
　The number was even highlighted in gold.
　Finally, it appeared.
　How much time did it take to get this number?
　Finally, after much effort, I got it.
　Probably the highest number, as there are no three-digit numbers.
　99.
　I stared at the number, basking in satisfaction.
　After a long struggle, I finally made it.
　I squeezed it out with all my might.
　The days of hardship, endurance, and despair are now fond memories.
　I had repeated such struggles.
　Now, I don't care about the game anymore.
　But I can't, so I clicked "set" while savoring the satisfaction.
　The next step after setting the bonus points was character customization.
　There was no explanation about in-game purchases.
　Is this a browser-based game?
　I've put in so much effort to get a high bonus point. I can't give up now.
　I have no choice but to continue.
　In the character customization, I could use the bonus points to increase various parameters like strength and health, set bonus equipment, bonus spells, and bonus skills.
　When I tried to increase strength by 99, the bonus points became 0.
　There were no other changes.
　From experience, in this type of game, the benefits of parameter increases are only noticeable in the early stages. As the level rises, the final strength doesn't change much.
　It might be better to allocate points to other things.
　What about bonus equipment?
　Will I get equipment stronger than the best in-game equipment?
　It seems like it will only make the early stages a bit easier.
　Bonus spells seem usable.
　Teleportation, gamma-ray burst, and so on.
　But which one should I choose?
　I thought about finding a strategy guide, but then I realized I don't even know the name of this game.
　Yet, I'm trying to play it.
　I don't want to redo it later just because I got 99 bonus points.
　If getting 99 was part of the game provider's strategy, I've fallen for it.
　What should I do?
　I noticed a "reconfigure character" option at the very bottom of the bonus skills.
　With this bonus skill, I can redo the settings, right?
　Since this page is for character customization, "reconfigure character" should mean I can redo this same page.
　If so, I can start with a casual setup without much thought.
　I clicked "reconfigure character" and checked the box.
　Bonus points: 98.
　What other bonus skills can I use?
　Reduced experience points needed.
　Of course, I need it.
　But there's also a skill to increase experience points gained.
　How are they different?
　I'll choose both for now.
　When I checked "reduced experience points needed," the bonus points became 97, and the experience points needed became half.
　It seems to be a stronger or evolved version.
　When I clicked "half experience points needed," the bonus points became 95, and the experience points needed became one-third.
　When I clicked "one-third experience points needed," the bonus points became 91, and the experience points needed became one-fifth.
　When I clicked "one-fifth experience points needed," the bonus points became 83, and the experience points needed became one-tenth.
　The bonus points decreased significantly.
　It seems the required bonus points double each time, 1, 2, 4, 8, and so on.
　When I clicked "one-tenth experience points needed," the bonus points became 67, and the experience points needed became one-twentieth.
　83 - 67 = 16.
　It's indeed doubled.
　When I unchecked "one-twentieth experience points needed" and clicked, the bonus points returned to 83, and the experience points needed returned to one-tenth.
　I clicked again to return to 91, with the experience points needed at one-fifth.
　I should have the skill to reduce experience points needed to one-third.
　This time, I chose "increased experience points gained."
　When I checked "increased experience points gained," the bonus points became 90, and the experience points gained became double.
　It seems to follow the same pattern.
　When I clicked "double experience points gained," the bonus points became 88, and the experience points gained became triple.
　When I clicked "triple experience points gained," the bonus points became 84, and the experience points gained became quintuple.
　I'll stop here.
　What else?
　Second job.
　This is definitely useful.
　In games with job systems, each job has unique skills and spells. With a second job, you can use the skills and spells of two jobs.
　It's strange that it's a bonus skill.
　What do players who didn't set it as a bonus skill do?
　When I checked "second job," the bonus points became 83, and the second job became a third job.
　It seems to follow the same pattern.
　There probably aren't many jobs available in the early stages.
　I can reconfigure for a third job or higher when needed.
　There's also a job setting skill next to it.
　How is it different?
　If I don't set a job, will it be assigned randomly?
　I'll reconfigure it when needed.
　MP recovery speed increase and spell casting time reduction are also useful skills, but I'm not sure if I can use spells from the beginning, so I'll save them for reconfiguration.
　Bargaining and buyback negotiation.
　I'll reconfigure them when I need to buy something.
　Appraisal.
　It might be useful without a strategy guide.
　What should I do?
　I'll leave it for now.
　I'll skip all the bonus spells for now.
　Some spells, like "Level 99 Death" or "Full MP Release," make me wonder if they are safe.
　But I won't use "Full HP Release."
　If I say I won't use it, I won't.
　Back to bonus equipment.
　In the early stages, bonus equipment is definitely effective.
　I checked the weapon.
　The bonus points became 82, and the weapon became "Weapon 2."
　Is this the same pattern for bonus equipment?
　When I clicked "Weapon 6," the bonus points became 20, and the display became "Weapon 6" in faded text.
　It seems to stop here.
　Next, I clicked "Accessory 2" and set the bonus points to 17.
　Then, I clicked "one-fifth experience points needed" (bonus points 9) and "quintuple experience points gained."
　The remaining bonus points are 1.
　Appraisal, bonus spell, or some bonus equipment?
　But since there are six levels of bonus equipment, one won't be much.
　Appraisal.
　I clicked this last.
　This made the bonus points zero.
　I chose "confirm" to complete the character customization.
　The screen changed.
　Warning!
　You have chosen to abandon this world and live in another world.
　You will never be able to return to this world.
　Do you want to continue?
　Yes No
　What is this? It's not a warning about in-game purchases.
　If it's not about in-game purchases, I don't care.