When I opened the front door and stepped outside, a cold wind mixed with powdered snow brushed against my cheek.
âHey, do you really need to leave?â
The door finally shut behind me. Toslin was putting on her usual mantle. Carol was already inside the carriage, and Rose-san had taken her seat on the coachmanâs bench.
The Water Dragonâs Tail was still flowing through the sky overhead. The moon seen through the clear, flowing water was magnified as if you were looking through a crystal ball. Thanks to that, the road was much brighter than what it usually would have been during the night.
âYour homeâs not an inn, and Iâd feel bad packing so many people into it.â
âBut, youâre my benefactorsâŠâŠ.â
âIf youâre going down that road, then youâre our benefactors. Itâs okay, I already heard from your dad where the inn is, and we shouldnât have any problem getting a room during this time of year.â
âButâŠâŠâ
âWhat, Iris. Are you going to feel lonely if we donât sleep with you? Hyaa, cold!! So cold!!â
Carol stuck her head out from the carriage and laughed. But while winter might be coming to an end, the night air is still freezing. So she immediately jumped back inside.
âI-Itâs not like thatâŠâŠ.butâŠâŠâ
ââŠ..weâll see each other again tomorrow, so thereâs no need to look so lonely. Right?â
When it was just the two of us, Toslin smiled, âRight?ââŠâŠ.and then started gently patting my head. With one hand Toslin managed to calm me down. Meanwhile my hand had grabbed onto the end of Toslinâs mantle so I could keep being selfish. What is the difference between us? Where does that difference come from? Life experience? But sheâs only two years older than me, so thatâs a little hard to accept.
âO-OkayâŠâŠsorry I said something so selfish. Well then, Iâll see youâŠâŠtomorrow.â
Tomorrow everyone would be visiting the church. After that they needed to stop by the blacksmith and get their armor fixed. There was also the booty from the golem that needed to be sold.
Thatâs right. This isnât goodbye. Weâll see each other again. Soon even. Thinking that way my heart started to feel a little lighter, and Toslinâs mantle naturally slipped out of my grasp.
âRight, see you tomorrow.â
âThen Iris-san, have a good nightâs rest.â
âNight Irisâ
Rose-san moved Goldmundâs reins, and the carriage started to move. Carol stuck out only her hand from the carriage and waved farewell. And so a new rut was cut through the lightly fallen snow across the cobblestone road.
âGoodnight everyoneâŠâŠâ
Taking one last look at the carriage as it disappeared into the dark, I gave them a small wave before heading back inside.
â
*Splash* *Splash*âŠâŠ.I scooped up some of the hot water and unloaded it on my shoulders.
âHaaâŠâŠ..so warmâŠâŠâ
I guess everyone wouldâve made it to the inn by now. Theyâre probably soaking in the tub, staring up at the ceiling while stretching out their legs. Even if I try not to think about them, itâs been so long since Iâve spent the night away from everyone that it just happens.
âWhat are you doing right nowâŠâŠ..â
What are they talking about? Is Carol still hanging off of Toslin? And if so, has Toslin started poking and prodding Carol to get her to let go?
ââŠâŠRose-sanâŠâŠ.â
And then, what about Rose-san? As far as I can remember, Rose-san was always by my side. When I woke up each morning, she was always the first person Iâd see, the morning light streaming through the window reflecting off her face. One time when I was half asleep and couldnât decide whether to wake all the way up or lie back down, I thought I noticed her watching me.
(Back then, I felt a little nervousâŠâŠitâs embarrassing having somebody see your sleeping face.)
But maybe, that was her way of getting back at me since I would always take a peek at her face as she slept. Yet I felt strangely happy about it.
ââŠâŠ..â
And then when we faced off against a dragon, she was still right there next to me. And when I was about to eat that tail head-on, Rose-san was the one who saved me.
In the end, that person, those people have grown to be enormously important to me. And so even though I havenât been away from them for even a single night yetâŠâŠ.Iâm lonely.
âOnee-chan, can I come in?â
âEh?â
I was soaking in the bathtub, lost in my memories when a voice suddenly dragged my mind back to the present. When I looked, there was my sister, standing right in front of me. Naturally she was completely naked.
âOnee-chan, is it okay if I take a bath with you?â
âOh, yeah. Come on in.â
I scooched over and made some space for my sister. Thereupon there was a small splash as she fit herself right in. Huh? Itâs floating? And my bodyâŠâŠIâve never seen any part of me float on top of the water, especially not my chest, and yet right now before my very eyes.
âEhehehe, itâs so warmâȘâ
âYes, it sure is. Itâs been a long time since Iâve taken a bath with Sarah.â
I didnât notice because she was wearing a coat, but Sarah, sheâs really grown a lot in these last six months. Iâm still taller than her of course, but her chest, itâs even bigger than mineâŠâŠ..
âYeah, six months now right? I really was lonely you know?â
Sarah smashed one of her fingers into my nose while puffing out her cheeks and giving me a criticizing glare.
âGeez, Iâm the older sister here âȘ Quit messing with me Sarahâ
âSorry sorry âȘ I just really love playing with you.â
Sarah glued her body right up next to mine. My sister was getting as close as she could, acting like a spoiled child and badgered me to hug her.
Fine, weâll forget about her breasts for now. Iâm still growing too. There is still a chance that I can maintain my dignity as the older sibling.
âI guess it canât be helped then. But I wonder when Sarah is going to leave her older sister behind.â
ââŠâŠThatâll never happen.â
âArenât you giving up on your future a little too soon there?â
âProbably, never in my whole life.â
âYour whole lifeâŠâŠ.then I guess Sarah will be taking baths with me from now on and always?â
âOf course? Forever and ever, Onee-chan and I will always be together.â
âThatâŠâŠno thatâd be impossible I would thinkâŠâŠ. Itâll only be a couple years, and Sarah will run off to be somebodyâs bride.â
ââŠâŠ..donât you know? Iâm going to be Onee-chanâs bride.â
âAha, right of courseâȘÂ If I get married to Sarah, Iâll never have to do any housework again.â
âRightâȘÂ Leave it to me. Iâll take care of Onee-chan and handle everything~â
âEh~, but if that happens, Iâll stop being the older sister and become a worthless adult. So I should handle at least half of the chores. Right?â
Ah, right then I just said âRight?âÂč Perhaps I looked just like Toslin right then? Well, Iâm not nearly as beautiful though.
âMm, if thatâs what Onee-chan wants, then thatâs how it will beâȘâ
âSarah really is such a good girl. I love youâ
I started fondling my cute little sisterâs head. I slowly and gently ran my hand through her red hair, wet from the hot water of the bath and the same color as my own hair.
âMe too!! I reallyâŠâŠ.love you Onee-chan!!â
Sarah suddenly let out a tearful voice and clung to me even more tightly.
âWelcome homeâŠâŠ..welcome home Onee-chanâŠâŠ..â
Hearing the sobbing voice in my ear, I realized it once again. Just how lonely I had made my younger sister feel.
ââŠâŠâŠyes, Iâm home. Sarahâ
With only the echo of the occasional water droplet dripping from the spout to break the silence, us two sisters continued sitting there for a while, confirming each otherâs body heat and heartbeat.
Just for clarityâs sake, there isnât some hidden meaning there or context that gets lost from translating Japanese to English. Itâs just that the word they use in Japanese âNe?â stands out more than our word âRight?â