Chapter 31

Hyung was right.

When we started kissing, there were only two things left in my head.

The ecstasy brought by his aggressive kiss, and the chilling thrill that someone might come into the room and see this scene.

‘I don’t remember liking roller coasters…’

I can understand the feelings of people who ride dangerous rides such as roller coasters at amusement parks. When the thrill and the ecstasy mesh, the situation in your head becomes worse than mud.

Every time his tongue raked my mouth, my body shuddered and trembled. And when he tapped my tongue here and there, held and tugged it hard as if he was pulling it out, to the point where I felt embarrassed by the heated moans that trickled out.

Last time, I was drunk, but this time, I was so sober that it was a problem. While my hesitant tongue was pulled back and forth and ravaged, saliva I couldn’t swallow down the corners of my mouth and down my throat. Hyung sometimes slipped his tongue out and licked it, as if not to waste even the saliva.

My eyes kept trying to look elsewhere even while the heat was suffocating my body. Looking in the direction of the invisible door, I was tense and nervous about whether I could hear the sound of the doorknob turning through the fricative mixing sounds of sticky saliva.

Now I couldn’t imagine what kind of conversation the other two were having and how they would laugh. There was nothing in my head but the mind-blowing1 euphoric sensation and suspenseful thrill. I felt like a child doing bad things secretly on a narrow corner along a busy street.2

I was panting while intoxicated by the kiss, and hyung’s voice, who was just as breathless as I was, pierced my ears.

“Can’t you turn your head? To do more.”

He didn’t kiss me again after asking that. He just exchanged his breath with mine from a close distance.

The only way I could stop kissing him entirely while I was completely crushed by him was by turning my head. But I looked up at him like a frozen doll.

I was already intoxicated, how could I turn my head?

“Heuub…!”

Our lips met again, and hot breaths and soft tongues came and went between them. By then, even I, who had little kissing experience, did not stay meek. I moved around as if imitating him, and extended the tip of my tongue into his mouth. Each time I did that, it was caught and sucked a few times like he was waiting for it.

In the midst of the deep kiss we were sharing, he suddenly released the hand that was holding me down and lifted himself up. As I looked up, panting with questioning eyes, I felt my vision suddenly swept up and was carried away in one breath.

Hyung embraced me and held me up against the wall by the door. Pushed somewhat hastily, I was trapped in his arms and kissed again.

I didn’t realize it when I was lying down, but as I was drunk on kisses, I noticed that I didn’t have enough strength in my legs. To be exact, it would be correct to say that all my nerves were focused on the kiss as if I had forgotten where and how I needed to apply strength to stand.

Hyung was already expecting it, so he put his firm thigh between my legs and held my waist with one arm. Otherwise, I might have already stumbled and collapsed.

Then I heard the sound of the doorknob turning in my ear.

I came to my senses. I had chills shiver down my spine and goosebumps all over my body. When I looked at him with my eyes wide open, for some reason, his eyes narrowed and formed crescent shapes as if he were smiling.

“… that’s what I said. So the chief told me…”

“Noona… isn’t that why?… aay, no way.”

I hear the voices of two people in the kitchen. Although it was not as clear as it would sound right next door, when the door is closed, the voices were only heard as murmurs were now quite distinct.

With my wide-opened eyes trembling, I looked to the side with a sideways glance.

I could see the light in the kitchen beyond the two-finger size gap. With my lips still open, I took a deep breath and focused my gaze on the gap.

At the end of my sightline, a black shadow passed by and my shoulders shudders in surprise. Then I saw that it was Kang Ji Seok in a black hoodie who took something out of the refrigerator and went to the sink.

Not knowing that my lips had slipped down, I stiffened and opened my eyes.

“If you make too much noise, they might hear everything.”

His low voice sounded like a devil’s harsh whisper.

When I was caught by the chin and my head turned back to the front, I gave him my lips and trembled. Excitement close to fear ran through my whole body in succession, as his long tongue licked every corner of my mouth where my senses were on edge without missing a single spot. With my legs barely standing up, I clenched the front of this shirt tightly like I was clinging on to him. The neat shirt was wrinkled, but he hugged me tighter like he didn’t care and raked his tongue up the front of my throat.

“Heut, eup…!”

While I was caught off guard, a poorly suppressed3 moan trickled out. Surprised by my own moaning, I rolled my eyes. I could feel a gaze looking at me through an invisible gap.

“Since you’re ready, should we go and call them?”

“I’ll call them.”

Kang Ji Seok, with an excited voice, was approaching this way. I was completely attached to the wall and hidden by Ji Geon-hyung, so no one would be able to recognize me through the gap now. But if someone were to put their hand in the hap and opened the door wide… It would be enough to witness the current situation.

“Eup, euup!”

I let out a small unintelligible sound and pulled on his shirt a couple of times. My hands didn’t even have enough strength to pull on it sufficiently, but he looked at me as if he understood.

But why, the tongue that burrowed into my mouth wasn’t thinking about going back.

“Euht! Eup!”

I tried to push out his tongue and turn my head, but it was as if I was caught by the back of my head and it was difficult to move.

“Hyung, it’s all ready. Just have to come out and eat.”

Ji Seok’s voice came nearby.

‘Oh no…!’

If Kang Ji Seok sees this, I’ll…I…!

The indescribable dread became an intense stimulus and made my body tremble. I desperately squeezed hyung’s thighs which were like supports for me to stand on and tensed up with a shiver.

‘Don’t come. Don’t, Kang Ji Seok…!’

I scrunch my shoulders, jerking like I had a twitch, and closed my eyes tightly.

Kang Ji Seok’s footsteps almost reached the door.

“Hyu-…!”

“Ji Seok-ah, does this…! Ack!”

“Noona?!”

The sound of Kang Ji Seok’s footsteps approaching the door quickly faded away in time with the sound of something dull falling with Mina-noona’s cry.

“Are you okay, noona? Any injuries?”

“I’m not hurt. Sorry, I don’t have strength in my hands…”

“There’s nothing to be sorry about. It’s a little heavy, so I’ll move it.”

As soon as I heard their conversation, I was relieved. By that time, hyung’s lips that were persistently kissing me fell away, and the legs which seemed to have been pushing against the wall and had been supporting me like a bridge dropped down, so I collapsed and leaned my back against the wall. If he hadn’t been holding my left hand, I might have fallen sideways and panted to death.

I was so absent-minded, I couldn’t think of anything and took a rough breath. Then there were light footsteps coming this way.

“Kang Ji Geon, Woo Seo-ya, everything is ready.”

I could see the narrow gap widen a little more. Despite the tension from before, I thought it didn’t matter if Mina-noona saw us or not because we weren’t in the middle of kissing anymore.

“…then, come out slowly.”

I’m sure she saw us through the widened gap, but she didn’t say much. From between the gap, hyung simply reached out and wiped the saliva off my lower lip as if it steal it.

Since I couldn’t understand the situation easily, I was still in a daze but hyung raised my left hand and put his lips on the ring of my ring finger.

“What do you think now? Are you still only thinking about Kang Ji Seok and Han Mina?”

I shook my head slowly at his question.

Until a while ago, when Kang Ji Seok almost opened the door, I was resentful and scared of him, but now I didn’t even think about it because of the feeling of a pleasant chill like a person who had just reached the climax.

“Don’t think about it, Woo Seo-ya.”

Hyung sat down together in front of me and tickled my bottom lip with his tongue.

“You, only think about me.”

Now, I couldn’t even tell if his kind eyes were an imitation of Kang Ji Seok or his own. As much as that, I wasn’t searching for Kang Ji Seok in his brother, but myself. Perhaps it was confusing because I had been looking into hyung’s heated eyes for a while through the deep kiss just like now.

‘It doesn’t matter.’

I knew the person I was kissing wasn’t Kang Ji Seok anyway.

In fact, I realized later on that unlike the previous kiss, I didn’t even feel any repulsion at him even though I didn’t ask him to imitate Kang Ji Seok.