Qin Yining was rather terrified by the prospect. Life was starting to feel like an avalanche in the face of a furiously rampaging storm. Destiny would grind the entire world into dust given enough time. Such a future inflicted the girl with utter helplessness. She was perched atop a leaf, balancing on the surface of a frothing ocean and about to capsize at any time.
āBingtang, do you think thereās much hope for the Prince of Ning?ā
Both Jiyun and Qiulu frowned when they heard the question.
Bingtang sniffled loudly and shook her head sadly. āHis injuries are too severe and heās lost too much blood. Heās not a young buck anymore, and his wounds are badly infected. Itās a tough situation for anyone to pull through. The emperor was there himself when I came back. All of the imperial physicians were there, brainstorming ideas, but the situation didnāt seem to be improving.ā
Some things werenāt within mankindās purview.
Qin Yining lowered her head sorrowfully and took Bingtangās hand after a long moment, having the maid sit down next to her.
āEveryone has their own fate. What will be, will be. Just like all of us will become ill and grow old, so will all of us depart this world one day. The prince is a good man and puts his heart into everything he does. Heās lived his life according to how he would ā cleaning house, defying invaders. Even if something does happen to him, itās still a glorious ending for a general. Everything heās done is an illustration of his moral integrity as a royal. Heās a hero, not a coward.ā
Tears dripped down as Bingtang nodded. āI know. To be honest, having grown up in a family of medicine and learning the craft since young, I thought I had a better understanding of life than most. Iāve seen much of old age and sickness, and Iām not that sad whenever I come face to face with them. But this time, I couldnāt harden my heart when I watched the prince teeter between life and death. Though not everything he did was right, heās still an upright, hot-blooded man at the end of the day. Heās worthy of being called that!ā
Qin Yining nodded sadly, with Qiulu and Jiyun also joining in with their grief.
āI still canāt leave the premises, so go spend some more time with the prince. He treated you well before ā we canāt forget our debts of gratitude. Besides, isnāt he well enough for now? Try your best, we may see a miracle yet.ā Qin Yining rallied to encourage Bingtang. āYou have immense talent and enough time left to try. If you still canāt save him after all that, at least you wonāt have any regrets.ā
Bingtang nodded heavily and wiped away tears to reveal a much more resolute look in her eyes.
āAlright. Iāll look over you first, miss. If youāre recovering well, Iāll head to the princeās manor after writing another prescription for you. Youāre still weak and losing all that blood has harmed your deeply. It wonāt be a quick recovery, so you need to take care of yourself.ā
āI know.ā
Bingtang made a careful examination of Qin Yiningās pulse, the wound on her shoulder, refreshed the dressing of her injury, and double checked everything was alright before making a second trip to the Ning Manor.
Dusk fell as Qin Yining rested on the seat in front of a cupboard ensconced by turquoise veil. She was reclining on a large, soft, baby-blue body pillow and staring off into space while cuddling Riceball. Jiyun approached her mistress hesitantly.
āMiss.ā
Qin Yining turned to see Jiyun standing outside a thin layer of gauze. She smiled. āCome inside, there are mosquitoes outside.ā
āMm.ā Jiyun nodded and carefully rearranged the veils after coming inside, taking a place next to Qin Yining.
āWhat is it? You seem to have had something on your mind all day.ā
Jiyun hesitated. āI do have some questions. I hope youāre not angry with me if I ask them, miss.ā
Qin Yining smiled when she saw her guard thus. āDo you want to ask me about Pang Zhixi?ā
Surprised, Jiyun nodded after a pause. āYes, youāre so good at guessing, miss!ā
āNot at all. Itās more like your thoughts are written all over your face.ā Qin Yining sat up straight. āTo be honest, Iāve been thinking about him over the past two days. Previously I felt lost and caught in the middle. I didnāt know what was the right thing to do. Take the Prince of Ningās injury for example. If Iām on Pang Zhixiās side, should I prevent Bingtang from treating the prince? Will Pang Zhixi be mad if he learns that I let Bingtang treat his enemy?ā
Jiyun nodded with every word her mistress said. āMiss, I didnāt mean anything else by my questions. I just feel that youāre in a difficult position.ā
āI thought so too, but Iām keeping an open mind about it all now.ā Qin Yining stroked Riceballās soft fur. āHeās a smart man and knew we were on different sides from the very first day he approached me. Even so, he still approached me. This means heās thought of everything and has a plan in mind. Heās also told me before that heāll take care of everything, that I only need to focus on being the Qin fourth miss. And so, I trust him.ā
I trust that he wonāt be mad and trust that weāre on the same page.
āMiss, I donāt understand.ā Jiyun frowned.
āI just need to do the things that a Qin daughter would do. My surname is Qin and my father is of Great Yan. I am a Great Yan citizen before I am a Qin daughter. I wonāt harm a fellow countryman for Pang Zhixi. Everything is up to ourselves in times of war.ā
āBut miss, what if my master wins? Wonāt the Great Yan people will curse your name for being with him? Or what if my master loses? Will he blame your father, or you?ā
āAll of that can happen, but so what?ā Qin Yining laughed softly. āIām still me, and heās still Pang Zhixi. We knew this day would come from the very first day we met. Since we were mentally prepared beforehand, whatās there to worry about? The nationās affairs are the nationās, and matters of the heart remain with the heart. I am well aware of the difference. Iām sure Pang Zhixi is as well.ā
Jiyun turned over the missā words in her mouth. Understanding dawned a moment later and she nodded. āYouāre so open-minded, miss. Iām much less than you in this regard. I admire your personality very much so.ā
āHow am I being open-minded? Iām just going with the flow.ā A resigned smile spread across Qin Yiningās face. āWhatās done is done and we have no ability to change anything. The only thing we can do is to follow heavenās will and do our best. Do you not see it still? Such is life, and itās over very quickly. If thereās something you can grab onto right now, hang on tight and donāt let go.
āEven though Pang Zhixi and I have gotten to this stage, I wonāt resent him because of the hostilities between our countries. Neither will I set a trap for him. If I really had these thoughts, then I wouldnāt have struck up a relationship with him in the first place. As for differences in position, well, weĀ areĀ enemies right now. We might have to meet each other face-to-face one day, but even so Iāll only fight him in a fair and square way.ā
There was some heat on Jiyunās cheeks. SheĀ hadĀ been slightly worried that Qin Yining would leverage her identity to entrap Pang Xiao. After all, the prince wasnāt on his guard against the girl. If she was loyal to her country to the bitter end and wanted to set something up for Pang Xiao, it would be difficult for the prince to escape a trap.
She hadnāt voiced her question plainly, but Qin Yining had astutely answered it anyways.
The miss smiled faintly when she saw her guard thus. āIāve always felt that we can play with power, play with schemes and plots, but we canāt play with emotions ā particularly someone who is genuine to me.ā
āYouāre so very right, miss. Itās my fault for thinking otherwise.ā
āNot at all. Youāre very loyal and it only makes sense that you would ask these questions.ā
This teased a smile out of Jiyun and she changed the subject. āNow that your one hundred disciples are settled in and the front hall has been cleaned up, the emperor says that we can receive visitors starting tomorrow. With the rumors in the outside world, there will be many worshippers here to pray for good fortune.ā
āThank goodness for those one hundred oh-so-wonderful disciples outside! I canāt be bothered to deal with the crowds. Iām no holy girl or a priestess. The gig will be up as soon as I open my mouth.ā
āYouāre so smart miss, that the people will believe you as long as youāre not sprouting nonsense.ā
Footsteps sounded as soon as Jiyun finished speaking. Mistress and guard looked at each other, then both looked downstairs through the window screen.
The guard on duty at the flower-hung gate was downstairs and raised a cupped fist salute to the ladies. āReporting to the honored master, large masses of commoners have gathered outside the temple and are raising a fuss to see you. The guards donāt dare let them in because of how late it is, but theyāre also refusing to leave. More and more people are gathering and theyāre blocking off the entire entrance.ā
āWhat are people doing here so late at night?ā Qin Yining was immensely surprised. āThe emperor gave orders for the temple to be open only starting tomorrow.ā
āThis humble guard went to ask them and learned that there were great difficulties when purchasing grain in the city today. The merchants have increased prices to ten taels of silver per half kilogram!ā
āTen taels?!ā Qin Yining clucked her tongue in amazement. Everything was clear to her! Sheād underestimated just how blackhearted the merchants could be. Sheād thought theyād only raise the prices slightly, but it seemed that they planned on hoarding grain as a rare commodity