I felt twice as guilty. The words, âAre you acting again?â came to the tip of my tongue, but the desire to want to pull at his cute lips along with how lovely he looked kept me from speaking.
Heinley, probably thinking my âangerâ persisted, lifted my right hand with his two hands and gently rubbed his cheek against my palm.
âDonât be angry. Yes?â
How could I be angry looking at his lovely face? Finally, I made up my mind.
âIâm not angry.â
âAre you serious?â
âItâs just thatâŠâ
After hesitating, I confessed truthfully,
âI think what you said at the time might be true.â
I had just thought about this. I was struggling not to love Heinley, but I couldnât help but find him lovely. In a sense, didnât I really just love his body? But then, because I felt this weight in my heartâŠ
Smiling slightly, Heinley moved his lips a few times. Then, just as he was finally going to say something, a shout came out of nowhere. âYoung Master, you canât go that way!â
Soon after I looked in the direction of the voice with curiosity, a little boy appeared from the bushes.
Who is he?
I stared puzzled at the little boy Iâd never seen before, and Heinley said, âAh,â frowning.
âDo you know him?â
When I asked him quizzically, Heinley replied with a cocked head, âYes. Iâve seen him beforeâŠâ. Although he looked familiar, he didnât remember him well.
On the contrary, the child recognized Heinley instantly and shouted,
âDad!â
⊠Dad?
Looking at Heinley in bewilderment, he shook his head hastily and exclaimed as if he had remembered,
âAh. This is McKennaâs nephew!â
âThen youâŠâ
âNo, this child has nothing to do with me.â
Despite his harsh words, Heinley smiled and promptly carried the child as he came running up, saying, âDad!â
âHow have you been, Sally?â
âMy name is not Sally.â
But it looked like he didnât even remember his name.
âSo, your name is Sen?â
Just then a voice came from behind, âItâs Sebastian, Your Majesty.â
When I turned my head, McKenna appeared with his hands on his waist, as if he was annoyed.
The child also shouted to McKenna, âDad!â
âIâm sorry, Your Majesty the Empress. Heâs my nephew, he has nothing to do with the Emperor. He wanted to see the imperial palace, so I allowed him to go to certain areas. I donât know how he got here.â
Calling McKenna dad, the child ran to him. McKenna carried him and tried to calm the restless child in his arms while saying that the little boy liked to stop other people from marrying. His words were not nice, but it was obvious he loved his nephew.
As I smiled thinking it was a cute scene, this time the little boy called to me, âDad!â
Heinley whispered, âDad,â laughing as if he found it funny.
After glancing coldly at Heinley, I walked over to the child in McKennaâs arms and stroked his head, then the child whimpered for McKenna to put him down, and this time he came to me. He was a very nice child.
âBaby, how old are you?â
âTwelve years oldâŠâ
âWhy do you lie even with that? Your Majesty, he is three years old.â
âTwelve years old!â
âYouâre three years old!â
As I watched McKenna argue with his nephew, a woman I had never seen before was being forcibly taken away by knights.
She repeatedly claimed, âIâm really not a suspicious person!â But when she saw McKenna, she shouted with a face that looked like she was going to cry, âGrand Master!â
âHow did you get arrested again?â
âI was arrested for making a fuss in the imperial palace while going after the young master, Grand Master, please let these knights know that I am not a suspicious person!â
All members of the McKenna Family are loud.
I couldnât help but laugh as McKenna revealed the identity of the child and the woman to the knights.
After a while, McKenna apologized to us, taking the child and the woman elsewhere. As I watched them walk away, my eyes suddenly fell on Heinley.
Sovieshu was impatient to have a child. What about Heinley? From the way he carried the child whose name he couldnât even remember well, was it possible that Heinley wanted it too?
When I had been worried about whether I could have a baby, Heinley told me about the secrets of the manna bed and his words made me think that, even if I really was infertile, this time I could have a baby. However, despite making love so often, there was still no sign of being pregnant.
Without realizing it, I put my hand on my belly. Itâs flat⊠flat.
I shuddered as I remembered Sovieshuâs words. Just because the mana bed restores the body could I really get pregnant? Heinleyâs brother and Christa could never have a baby, right?
If we canât have a child eitherâŠ
***
A babyâŠ
Sitting in a rocking chair, I put my hand on my belly and tried to think about what it felt like to be a mother.
I couldnât imagine it. Would it have been different if Iâd had a younger sibling? I didnât spend much time with young children either.
Suddenly, I remembered how happy Heinley looked as he held the little boy, whose name I didnât even know. Although he didnât say anything, did Heinley deep down inside want a child as much as Sovieshu? With a successor, his throne would be even more solid, right?
âYour Majesty, the Emperor is here.â
âNow?â
Itâs a good time, but⊠why did he come all of a sudden?
We had just had a meeting about Whitemond. It wasnât even time to have dinner together.
It was fine if he came to try to end the awkward atmosphere, but⊠I couldnât help but feel a little nervous. Just as Grand Duke Kapmen had suddenly come with bad news about the team sent to Whitemond, Heinley probably had something urgent to tell me, right?
My guess was correct.
âMy Queen, there is something unpleasant I must tell you.â
Heinley sat across from me and opened his mouth with difficulty.
âItâs about that woman.â
It was Rashta whom Heinley referred to as âthat womanâ. And Heinley didnât usually talk about Rashta or Sovieshu in front of me unless it was important.
Straightening my posture, I stifled the growing anxiety.
âWhat happened?â
âThat woman hired a mercenary for an assassination.â
The fact that Heinley told me thisâŠ
âIs she targeting me?â
I asked, feeling confused and speechless. But Heinley shook his head.
âShe goes after father and mother.â
âYou mean my father and mother?â
Surprised, my voice naturally rose.
It would have been absurd for Rashta to want to murder me, but it seemed even more absurd for her to want to murder my parents.
âWhy?â
âThat I donât know. Theyâre not even the kind of people who would confront that woman openly.â
Heinley was right. My parents are the kind of people who would stay in their mansion if they didnât want to see Rashta and Sovieshu. Thatâs why it seemed stranger to me. Why my parents? And why now?
The days when Rashta was the concubine and I was the empress were a thing of the past. Me, I was already in the Western Empire, and she had taken the position of the Empress of the Eastern Empire. Why did she have to attack my parents nowâŠ.. Ah.
âShe thinks that my family will stand in the way of her child.â
âI think thatâs the problem, too.â
âIs the mercenary very skilled?â
I asked hurriedly, very concerned. But then, Heinley said with a slight smile, as if to put me at ease,
âDonât worry, My Queen. My informant exchanged the mercenary hired by that woman for a subordinate of his.â
âAn informant?â
âYes. Thanks to him I was able to know that.â
âAhh.â
I pressed my hand against my heart. Hearing Heinleyâs words calmed my racing heart a little.
âThe deadline is also long enough so you can rest easy for now.â
Heinleyâs voice reassured me, but he still had a serious look.
âBut that woman may have hired more than one mercenary, so it doesnât hurt to take precautions.â
âI have to tell my parents. it is necessary to reinforce their security.â
I replied as calmly as possible, but a flame ignited within me.
When I was in the Eastern Empire I had overlooked Rashtaâs actions because the same were under Sovieshuâs responsibility.
Sovieshu had much more power than Rashta, and it was he who made her his concubine, so Sovieshu had to take responsibility for Rashtaâs actions and words.
Besides, if I had used all my power to suppress Rashta, I would have ended up being seen as an evil empress. In the end, people sympathize with the weak.
However, Rashta was now in a position to take responsibility for her actions. But what she does as soon as she has power is try to assassinate my parents?