As I kept staring at the writing on the report, my eyes started to hurt and I returned to my room. I had been feeling dizzy. These days, my eyes continuously throbbed when I looked at the dense characters.
âI havenât tidied up the room yet, Your Majesty.â
âItâs fine.â
I dismissed the maid and lay down on my bed. She already cleaned the room three times a day anyway, and the room was always clean. As I leaned against my bed and pressed my eyes, I caught sight of blue feathers on the window sill.
âDid Heinley send a letter?â
It reminded me of the blue bird that was Queenâs friend. I approached the window on my knees and studied it. The only blue bird that came in my room was Heinleyâs, but I didnât see the bird anywhere. Instead, I spied something reddish on the wall below the window.
âBlood?â
My own blood seemed to chill, and I hesitantly stretched out my fingers. I touched the red stain. As soon as I felt the liquid on my fingertips, I quickly withdrew my hand and looked at my fingers again.
It was clearly blood. It was even still wet!
âNoâŚ!â
Did the blue bird get hurt when it came here? Several days ago, Sovieshu had warned that any birds that came near my window would be shot with arrows. I leaned my head out the window and looked downwards, but no bodies were seen. That didnât alleviate my anxiety though, and I went outside and searched through the western palace gardens.
There was no bird at the area beneath my window. Was it a coincidence? I went back to my room and left the window open just in case, and asked Laura to keep watch for any birds.
At work, however, I still couldnât concentrate.
âYou look tired, Your Majesty.â
Even my deputy advised me to go in and rest. I took his council and hurried back to my room after I finished all my essential work as the empress.
âLady Laura. Are there any birds that flew here?â
Laura shook her head.
âNo. I sat by the window all this time, but none came.â
Was I overreacting? Laura stood up and left, and I took her place in the chair and looked out the bedroom window. I didnât see any archers outside, but that didnât mean anything. I was sure that Sovieshuâs men concealed themselves when watching the area.
As my gaze was fixed on the empty sky, I suddenly heard a noise from the parlor room. I closed the window and went out, only to find one of Sovieshuâs servants standing in the parlor room with a food cart. On it was a large round plate with a silver lid. Countess Eliza and Laura were standing beside him.
âWhatâs going on?â
I turned to Countess Eliza, but the servant quickly answered in her place.
âHis Majesty the Emperor ordered this to be delivered to you.â
âFood?â
Why this so suddenly? The servant smiled and uncovered the plate.
âThis.â
Sitting on the plate was a roast bird. The aroma of spices wafted in the air as soon as the lid was removed.
âWow! It looks delicious!â
I heard Laura clapping in delight. But my mind was blank. My eyes could only see the blue feathers ornamenting the roast.
ââŚâ
âYour Majesty?â
Blue feathersâŚroast birdâŚ
The sight of dark golden oil and red and green fruits never looked so sickening. I looked at the plump legs and body of the bird, and bile rose to my mouth.
âUgh!â
âYour Majesty!â
I clamped my hand to my mouth as the ladies-in-waiting ran over to me. My vision seemed to turn white, and the sight of roast meat seemed to swirl in front of my eyes.
Blue feathers, blue feathersâŚred blood under the window and blue feathersâŚ!
âNoâŚah, no!â
âYour Majesty!â
âDoctor! Get a doctor! Hurry!â
The sound of a bell, someone running but with far away footsteps, the slam of a door opening and closing all like a dizzy party danceâ
Someone held me and thumped me on the back, but my senses kept falling away as if my soul was already halfway out of my body.
***
âBird?â
Rashta was on her way to the southern palace when she spotted a small creature that had fallen on the lawn. The birdâs body was pierced by a large arrow.
âIs someone hunting here?â
She frowned. Her etiquette teacher had told her that hunting in the palace was prohibited, and the rule applied to everyoneâslaves, commoners, and nobles. She approached the bird in wonder.
âPoor thing.â
Rashta was not very interested in birds, but it was her first time seeing one with such blue feathers.
âRashta would look like a noble to raise such a bird in a golden cage.â
Like Duke ElgyâŚ
âWhat?â
Why did she think that raising this bird would make her look like a noble? She realized that this was not her first time seeing a blue bird. There had been one with Duke Elgy before.
âIt looks like the bird from then.â
Rashta looked around, took a step closer to the bird, then was startled when the bird opened its eyes and broke into a sad cry. The bird was alive. Not only that, there was a small note tied to its leg.
âIs that the bird Duke Elgy uses as a messenger?â
She hesitated, stretched out her hand, and pulled the letter out. If this was for Duke Elgy, it would have to be delivered. She opened and read it while walking to the dukeâs room.
-If there is some difficult matter you are going through, thinking about it breaks my heart.
-If you share your suffering with me, Mckenna will squeeze out his wisdom for you.
It didnât look like it was about anything importantâŚbut it seemed to be a love letter.
âWas this sent by Duke Elgyâs girlfriend?â
Rashta tilted her head, and when she arrived at his room she delivered the letter.
âWhat is it?â
âRashta picked it up on the way back.â
âWow. Thatâs exciting.â
He thought that she was playing games with him, and he smiled and opened the letter. After a moment, his brow furrowed, and he looked back at her.
âWhere did you find this?â
âIt was tied to a blue bird.â
The dukeâs expression darkened, and Rashta was convinced that the bird was indeed meant for him.
âA bird?â
âIt was hit by an arrow and it was on the groundââ
Duke Elgy jumped to his feet before she could finish speaking. He ran out of the room, leaving her behind, before finally coming back with the injured bird in his arms. She looked warily at it, sure that the bird would soon die.
âIs it the Dukeâs bird?â
âAh. My bird, yes. Thank you.â
He placed the bird on the bed, took a bottle of liquor from the shelf, and poured it on the birdâs wound. The bird screeched and writhed in pain. He finally stopped, then he turned to Rashta apologetically.
âI canât treat the bird when youâre here. Can you go back?â
âCanât Rashta help?â
âI can take care of it. Oh. And thank you for retrieving the letter, as well as your story. â
He paused for a moment before continuing again.
âDid you read the letter?â
âOhâŚIâŚâ
âItâs alright. If you find a fallen letter, read it to your heartâs content.â
Rashta gave a cute smile, and Duke Elgy put his finger to his mouth conspiratorially.
âKeep the contents of the letter secret. I donât want anyone to know I have this relationship with the owner.â
Owner? Who was it� Rashta was curious, but she nodded and left. When she returned to her room, she called for Viscountess Verdi.
âLady Verdi. Do you happen to know who McKenna is?â
âMcKenna?â
âI think itâs someone connected to Duke Elgy.â
Viscountess Verdi replied that she didnât know, but Arianâa new but experienced maidâ spoke up.
âThe McKenna associated with Duke Elgy is likely Heinley Iâs assistant.â
âHeinley I? King Heinley?â
âYes. He is a close friend of Duke Elgy, and is King Heinleyâs closest aide.â
Rashta recalled meeting Prince Heinley when he stayed at the palace. Back then, there was also another man with blue hair that stuck to Heinley like a magnet. Was that him? She recalled the words Duke Elgy said to her earlier.
â Keep the contents of the letter secret. I donât want anyone to know I have a relationship with the owner.
The words echoed constantly in her mind. A letter that seemed to whisper love and could not be sharedâŚ