TN: Damn, translating this chapter really leaves a bad taste in my mouth⊠And thereâs still a chapter like this in a later chapter⊠Iâm really bad with stuff like this >.<
Well, other than that, now itâs from hero girl PoV. Enjoy~
I have become accustomed to being whipped.
Maybe I donât even feel pain anymore.
I donât even know if Iâm feeling pain anymore.
ăâŠHey, is this guy okay? Sheâs only five years old, and sheâs still a kid, right?ă
ăHis Eminence the Pope has told me to train this kid and break her heart by hurting her thoroughly. And even if she should die, theăTwelve Holy Apostlesă, Gale-sama, will bring her back to life.ă
ăHah⊠The top is thinking of some pretty horrific things. Theyâre going to hurt this kid and turn her into a weapon⊠Well, she can become a machine that can kill demons, in other words, she can become what Misery-sama wants, right? Sheâs a lucky guy when you think about it, isnât she?ă
ăHahaha, no doubt!ă
Misery-sama⊠Goddess of Life and Mercy.
But I donât believe in that. If she existed, she would be the first one to save me from this place.
Even if there were, she would probably be a helpless goddess who only thinks of herself.
Someone, please rescue me from this place. It doesnât matter who it is.
It doesnât matter if itâs a demon or an evil god. As long as you can save me.
This is hell.
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ăOi, wake upâŠHero!!ă
My day begins at 4 a.m. in a cage with no bedding or bed, with a bucket of water poured over me.
I then leave right after that and train until 8:00 a.m. I eat a tasteless breakfast that only considers nutrition in 10 minutes, and right after that I am punched, kicked, and hit with a sword by the 20 knights who are finally awake here.
ăYouâre not gonna do it, are you!?ă
ăSuch a sword is not enough to kill theăDemon Kingă!ă
I continue to fight through the bruises and the repeated bad words, and at 12:00 I eat another 10 minutes of food, the same as in the morning, only in increased quantities.
The afternoon is the worst. Someone from theăTwelve Holy Apostlesă, one of the countryâs most elite military personnel, comes to bully me.
ăToday itâs me. Watch and learn, Hero.ă
Todayâs person is a blonde woman. She was the one people around me calledăEdithă.
Edith attacked me repeatedly until the sunset, and then she said,ăThis is all for the good of humanity. Be thankful for ită. She left me with those words.
My day is not over just because night falls. I will eat the same food again, only in increased quantities, and this time, I will be made to kill a living being.
âŠAt first, it was a rat. From there, it got bigger and bigger, rabbits, cats, and nowâŠ
ăLet go of me, you son of a bitch! Get the hell off me!!!ă
Iâm ordered to kill people who have done wrong and have been captured.
If I donât want to kill them for even one second, they will whip me again and again.
I donât feel pain anymore, but when I am about to be whipped, I shake all over, and I lose the desire to disobey anyone. I hate that feeling, so I have to kill them.
ăN-No! Stop! Donât do this!ă
I swung my dagger at a man Iâd never met before and didnât know what heâd done, who begged for his life⊠Eventually, the man stopped moving.
Late in the evening, I hear a final sermon from the priest.
He said, Misery-sama is absolute, I am aăHeroă, I am aăweaponă, kill your feelings, have no mercy, kill the demon king, destroy the demon tribe.
I donât know, but I get the feeling that if the Priest says it, then maybe it is true.
One oâclock in the morning. That is the time I am finally allowed to sleep.
My body aches so much that I would normally want to cry, but I donât feel it anymore.
The pain and exhaustion have long been forgotten in the six months Iâve been trapped here.
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I am sure I am breaking down.
Maybe soon I wonât even be able to think about anything like this.
I will never be able to live a peaceful life again.
I am aăHeroă. I have to protect the humans.
âââ-Why? Why protect the people who hurt me?
I have to defeat the Demon King and bring peace to the world.
âââ-Why? What did the Demon King do to me?
I must destroy the demon tribe and make this world what it should be.
âââWhy? Who decided that the demon tribe is not needed in this world?
I will soon no longer be able to think about these questions that I have thought about for so many nights.
The thought of it terrifies me, but my tears have long since dried up and wonât come out.
This place is hell.
Someone help me. It doesnât matter if itâs a demon tribe, a demon king, or an evil god. Help me before my heart is broken.
If help doesnât come, thenâŠplease break my heart as soon as possible.
Make it impossible to think about anything. Make me forget everything.
I donât want to protect people. My parents who sold me out, the knights who hurt me, and the great people who see me as nothing more than a tool.
Why should I protect them?
I canât kill a demon tribe I donât even know well with this kind of feeling. But if I canât do it, Iâm sure Iâll suffer worse than death.
Thatâs why I want to break down as soon as possible.
Let me quickly become a doll that canât think about anything.
AN: In case you are wondering, the hero is only five years old.
I wrote this in the simplest language I could, but please bear with me when I say things that donât sound like a five-year-old.
I donât know anything about a 5-year-oldâs vocabularyâŠ
And the titleâŠ
In addition to the current title,ăReincarnated Vampire Princess and Former Hero, Trample Over Mankind ă,
ăAnd they will be a disasteră, like so
Iâve been thinking aboutăDiary of a Reincarnated Vampire Princess and a Former Heroâs Extermination of Mankindă, but I havenât decided on anything yet. What should I do?