I wonder how many times Iâve been here in the last few days.
It was all a dream. âŚI get such a fluffy kind of feeling.
It would have been better if it had all been a dream.
âMonetâŚâ
I tried to get up quickly, but âŚmy face got distorted by the pain in my sides.
âYouâre awake.â
âChris-senseiâŚâ
Chris-sensei was sitting there with her legs crossed.
âDonât get up, youâve been hurt badly this time indeed.â
My body hurts.
Especially my sides.
The throbbing, knife-stabbed pain is still there.
But right now, thereâs something Iâd rather hear than that kind of pain.
âWhere is MonetâŚ?â
âI donât know.â
Then sensei kicks off.
Iâm sure it is.
If we had a location, Chris-sensei wouldnât be here.
I tried to stand up, holding my sides.
âWhat are you going to do?â
âIâll go look for her, sheâs still aroundâŚâ
âYou canât do it, give up.â
Chris-sensei quickly got up from her chair and led me back to the bed.
âI want to go.â
âWhat are you going to do now that youâre like this?â
âIâll go find Monet.â
âEven if you could find her, what can you do about it?â
âIâll convince her.â
âAnd?â
âMake her come back with me.â
âAnd?â
ââŚagain âŚthe usual routine âŚâ
âAre you serious?â
I couldnât say anything back to Chris-sensei.
Thereâs nothing I can do about it now.
âYouâre naive âŚtoo naive.â
âI know. âŚâ
âYou donât understand, if you did, you wouldnât have said that.â
The teacherâs sharp gaze pierced me.
I thought back to the words Julian and Monet were talking about.
I think he called it a regression group, but I have no idea what he was talking about.
But I knew that Monet belonged to a group that was not good.
ââŚMonet said âŚwhy âŚâ
I hate myself for not knowing anything.
âTell me, what is a regression group?â
Chris-sensei raised her gaze gently, as if thinking about something.
âWhat do you think equality is?â
If you look up equality âin the dictionary, you will find that the meaning is no discrimination or that everyone is equal.
âItâs about equal rights for allâŚâ
âWould you say the world is equal then?â
âNo, âŚThatâs not true.â
The gap between the rich and the poor.
Nobles and commoners.
One that can use magic and one that canât.
Many other disparities are widening in this society.
This is completely different from the Japan of the present generation, where a certain amount of effort could be expected to produce a certain result.
There is an inexcusable disparity from birth.
âIn the first place, there is no such thing as equality, after all, if someone benefits, someone else loses, and society is built on such a zero-sum game, so who do you think would benefit?â
The term âmagical supremacyâ is used as a matter of course.
How much easier life would be if one could just use magic.
Iâm not ignorant enough to not know that.
âIâm a wizard.â
Even a poor man of low status can rise in just one generation if he can use magic.
âYes, and wizards have taken advantage of their power to set their own rules, and as a result, there are those who are dissatisfied with the supremacy of magic.â
âDoes that mean itâs a regression groupâŚ?â
ââThatâs what it comes down to, by the way Owen, why do you think we have a star system?â
âIs that as a sign of a âŚfirst-rate wizard?â
ââThatâs not wrong either, butâŚ, then why favor only those who can use magic, when there are even those who can defeat the starred ones with physical enhancements?â
The reason why wizards are considered great is because they have the power to defeat demons.
If you use that argument, you should be able to give a star to someone who can fight well enough with a starred wizard with just physical enhancements.
But I wonât do it.
âItâsâŚâ
âI want everyone to think that the star system is great, that there are people who think that way, that the star system is for wizards, that there are many other systems that favor wizards, and you are benefiting from them, as am I, of course.â
Chris-sensei goes on to say.
âEarlier you asked me why Monet was in a position where she couldnât benefit, itâs simple, if Monet was a normal person with nothing she would have given up, but she was powerful enough to resort for violence. âŚand well, thatâs just my guess, I donât know the truth.â
I realized I didnât know anything about it.
All around her were those who could use magic, and she no longer felt that she was in a particularly privileged position.
People have a tendency to think that the environment around them is everything. âŚitâs not something that can be put away with words.
âIâm âŚHow can IâŚ?â
âThink for yourself, as your teacher, I will teach you magic, but I will not tell you where you will end up.â Chris-sensei said.
I know.
I have to decide where I want to go.
I muttered to myself as I held my side, âIt hurts.â
My side is aching as if Monetâs rage is flowing into it.
âAn experience without pain is meaningless, and that pain is proof that you are growing.â
âIf this kind of pain is called growing up, âŚI donât want to grow up.â
I want a peaceful world where I can live in warmth.
I donât have such great hopes that no one else in the world will get hurt.
I donât want pain, I want a tomorrow where we can all be happy.
âIf magic is a wish, then I want a tomorrow where my friends arenât hurt, and I want to be a righteous wizard if that means wizards get preferential treatment, so at least I want everyone around me to be happy.â
âYeah, âŚwish that were true.â
Chris-sensei looked at me as if she was looking at something dazzling.