So, after the championship match against Ilya Lindsay, Airn had graduated from his former self.
Of course, after that, he met with Karen Winker through Gurgar and the clown too. But the dreamâŠhe never saw it again.
From the age of 15 to 22, Airn felt regret at the thought that his relationship, which had been going on for seven years, was suddenly cut off.
â⊠I didnât graduate.â
A familiar sky, a familiar yard, and a familiar smell.
Airnâs expression hardened at the scenery of the rural village which unfolded.
No⊠Currently, Airn had no form or shape and just seemed to be a ball of consciousness floating around like a ghost. Airnâs eyes moved to the side.
And a familiar person came into his vision.
It wasnât his former self. It was an existence that was familiar and unfamiliar at the same time.
Airn Pareira, who was swinging the sword in a serious posture.
Airn's sword was more powerful than Karen Winker's.
There was no fuss in every move, and a sharp energy could be seen. The balance was excellent, and it was at a level that any swordsman could admire.
However, Airn didnât focus on it.
He had slightly different thoughts, and he watched his other embodiment practice.
At some point, his eyes opened. It was no longer a dream. Airn got up and looked out of the window.
It seemed that he hadnât slept for more than 3 hours this time too.
Sitting in that darkness, he realized.
Todayâs dream wasnât just todayâs dream.
Even after graduating from the manâs dream, the fact that he practiced the sword in his dreams was his everyday ritual.
â⊠No, itâs not training.â
Was it because of Philip Lloydâs words?
Unlike before, when he swung the sword unconsciously, today, he was looking at himself objectively.
As a third person, he was able to read the expression on his face.
It wasn't a lack of enthusiasm.
There was still a passion that was burning inside him. However, it was slowly declining. And fatigue and anxiety that was even greater than his passion were weighing him down. Thinking of the dream, he nodded again.
It wasnât that he was concentrating on the goal he wanted to achieve.
The fact that he was too engrossed in himself, i.e., someone who might not be able to achieve his dreams and the negative emotions that came from it⊠he realized it late.
âNothing has changed since the dark barrier.â
He knew about letting it go. There were times when he tried it. At least it worked with the dark barrier.
When he abandoned his meaningless obsession with cutting water, his path was free and natural. But not now.
However, he wasnât very disappointed with it.
He realized that he couldnât get what he wanted at once. It was because he learned all this from the failures he had gone through.
The teachings of Ian, and Lord Lloydâs advice were the same. However, Philipâs words of asking Airn to grow up touched him deeply. He felt like even if his mind couldn't understand the words, his heart was accepting them.
Of course, it wasnât just the positive thoughts. He mumbled, looking at his past self.
âI was the type to live a pretty tired life.â
After the pre-trainee days.
So, after he vowed to find his sword, Airn's head had never rested.
Even when traveling, when moving to his family mansion, even when he traveled with his friends to cities, Airn was constantly engrossed in his thoughts.
And it got worse after looking at his previous life in Durkali.
Even when looking at bright flowers, he couldnât appreciate their beauty. Even when the wind blew, he couldnât enjoy it.
No matter what he saw, heard, or did, his thoughts were somewhere else.
âLike a kid who wants a certain thing right away, and gets irritated when he doesn't get itâŠâ
Airn, who thought that, burst into laughter. It wasn't weird. It was only a few hours since he decided to let go of his obsessions and rest.
But again, he kept thinking of the troubles. And now, an obsession of trying to let go of his obsessions had formed.
He realized that this wasnât going to be easy. Mumbling, he stood up.
He felt like he needed to put in an effort in a completely different direction than before, so he washed his body with cold water to empty his mind. The effect wasnât great, which made him laugh again.
And then he looked at Bratt, who was now in his room.
âI heard from my father about your condition. You canât even rest or work properly?â
"⊠it is. But it is fine now. Because the advice your father gave me is engraved in my heart. Now I feel more comfortable thanâŠâ
Bratt Lloyd had a firm expression, and seeing that, Airn went silent, and Bratt continued.
âDo you think I donât know you? From the days of when you were a deadbeat noble and locked yourself up in the room thinking about depressing stuff all day, and even after you picked up the sword, you havenât been able to relax even for a minute, and youâve always been thinking about how to do better.â
âA guy like you cannot be left alone. Get ready to move and follow me. And wait outside.â
âWhat are you suddenlyâŠâ
Airn asked, bewildered. Bratt, who was about to leave, turned back with a smile and said,
âIt isn't easy for you to have fun. That means that you need to be with someone who can have fun with you properly.â
âToday, an experienced person will teach you how to play, eat and rest. So, donât say anything and follow me.â
He closed the door behind him.
Airn, who saw that, burst into laughter again. A much brighter and lighter smile than before.
Contrary to the confident appearance in the room, Bratt wasnât really well.
The food they went to eat wasnât really good, and the famous street magicianâs music made him frown.
So Bratt took him to a museum, which also bored him.
âYou donât seem to be doing too well.â
âIt is daytime, so they might not have opened yet.â
Hearing Brattâs brazen words, Airn grinned.
Actually, he knew, and although Bratt had more social experience than him, he was still 21 years old.
Besides, Bratt spent half his life in school, so this was expected.
It wasn't boring, though. He wasn't annoyed or even tired.
A friendâs heart that only wanted good for him. Airn felt that, and he mumbled.
Human malice didnât flow in just one direction. If you hate someone, then that person will also feel it and send the same malice back.
It was a natural thing that didn't need any explanation. And the same was true for goodwill.
When someone likes you, you naturally get a good impression of them. Such a mind will keep flowing in a positive cycle.
It was the same with Airn today.
When he was alone, he felt a stagnant feeling inside of him. But it had started flowing now, stimulated by Brattâs good intentions.
Airn, who worried about the future, disappeared and Airn, who concentrated on the joy of the present, appeared.
And it wasnât just that one day.
âIt has been long, so shall we go on a date, brother?â
Kirill appeared the next day.
âAirn! Me, Me! I have lots of new friends. Would you like to see them with me? There is also another black cat like me!â
And the next day came Lulu's invitation. The next day, and the next, were all the same.
Bratt, Kirill, Lulu, Lord Lloyd, and his wife too.
Airn couldnât ignore their good feelings towards him. He began to put his heart into taking a break.
And that was the beginning.
The pressure of not being able to achieve your dream, the anxiety about whether he was on the right track, and what he could do if he werenât. He was no longer caught up in that feeling.
He couldnât focus on flowers and stuff, but it was different when he spent the time with people precious to him.
When he was with Bratt, Airn only thought about Bratt.
When he was with Kirill, he only thought about Kirill.
And when he was with Lulu, he only thought about Lulu.
Feeling his thoughts and emotions flow naturally, he realized how uselessly he had been wasting his mind.
Airn, who sat in the soft chair in the concert hall, looked around.
Bratt, Kirill, Lulu, Lance, and the Lloyd couple too. He had so many precious people around him. Their faces were different, but their hearts were all the same.
Feeling their goodwill towards him for the first time, Airn was able to focus on the pleasurable present rather than the anxious future.
âWhat are you looking at?â
âIt is starting, so donât make that stupid face and look ahead. It is better to enjoy the music with eyes along with the ears.â
âKirill, I am scared.â
âIt is fine. I will hug you.â
Airn didnât laugh out loud.
However, his smile didnât vanish. The bright face he had looked forward to the concert, and the performance began.
He didnât know much about music. Piano, violin, cello⊠that was all Airn knew.
Listening to the music, which resonated according to the conductor's wonderful hand movements, and as he saw that, he thought there wasn't much difference from a street musician, but it didn't matter.
All that mattered was that he was here right now, at this moment.
Unlike himself in the past, he was able to fully concentrate on the situation, the atmosphere around, and the performance.
⊠the melody was flowing into him.
Airn slowly closed his eyes.
âWell, this is good.â
âCan you tell me what is so good?â
âIâll tell you after I get home.â
âIn case you donât know, you need to clap hard.â
âIâll be care⊠huh?â
Brat, who obediently succumbed to his motherâs words, looked to the side.
Airnâs eyes were closed. He wasnât sleeping.
The moment he saw his friend who looked like a knight.
âWhat an absurd bastardâŠâ
A flustered voice came out of his mouth.
âDid something⊠no way!â
Luluâs question and Lanceâs face hardened right away.
Bratt Lloyd looked at the face and nodded as he said,
âAirn, this jerk⊠it seems like he has realized something.â