Ilya Lindsay has been wandering on a long road.
The defeat and disappearance of her brother, Carl Lindsay, robbed her of the chance to live her life. And more than 10 years had passed since then.
After meeting Airn and her other friends, not much had changed.
Sure, she realized the path she took was wrong.
Acknowledging a mistake didnât mean that the problem itself was solved. And so, she was still unable to find an answer.
As Ignet moved confidently, Ilya was there as a best friend to Airn, who had also found his own sword.
But if not for holding Airnâs hand, she would have never come this far.
A person whose embankment had collapsed because of a few words from Ignet.
A person who couldnât walk on her own path and gets swayed easily. A person who hadnât been able to take a step forward ever since she had been previously swept away by the words and gazes of people.
As she was like that, she hesitated to even knock on the door.
Was it fine to ask her father for help as if she was a child?
The thought of her dreams lingered on her mind.
But, Ilya finally knocked on the door.
âItâs the same always.â
Right. After all, she was the one who made the same mistakes over and over again.
She knew that she wasnât complete and was lacking.
If there was one thing different from when she was in Land of Proof, that would be...
And that made her feel comfortable.
Ilya, who brushed off her feelings of shame, appeared in front of her father.
â⊠I want to consult you about some concerns.â
Why hadnât she come a little earlier?
She couldnât be more at ease when talking about it to anyone else.
Since her father was a person who looked at her with eyes full of kindness and warmth.
And with complete trust that no one else could have that look, Ilya confided in him.
After a short time passed.
âYou are mistaking something.â
Joshua Lindsay, opened his mouth after careful deliberation and pointed out something Ilya had missed.
âWhen walking your own path, why is it that you think that you need to think and decide about everything alone?â
âYou donât think so? Humans are creatures who interact with others. Neither the beggar in slums, nor the royal family nor the noble ladies or men, nor the commoners nor the kids⊠no one can live alone.â
Ilyaâs confusion grew stronger.
Didnât Airn do it by himself? If we constantly interact and get swayed by other people, then what is the meaning of such a life?
Was it right to follow Ignet?
However, the words her father said told her the opposite.
Humans interact with others.
That they influence each other.
It was when Ilya put on a confused expression.
âThe important thing here is that the subject of interaction with others should be âmyselfâ.â
Joshua Lindsay smiled and continued.
Like before, he made sure to say that a human cannot stand alone.
Sharing emotions, ideas and talents. Just like that, one can lead a better life by filling in each otherâs shortcomings.
And of course, that didnât mean that one should depend on another person till the end.
And it doesn't mean you have to listen to everyone either.
âI heard from Perry Martinez. He said that you swore at the nobles who spoke about you?â
âI am not reprimanding you. Rather, I will compliment you. Good job, you did really well.â
âYou donât think so? Do you think that anything they said was for your growth?â
âThen, was there anything you learned from their words?â
âRight. In the end, it is nothing more than meaningless words. Ignoring them is right.â
Joshua smiled as he continued to speak.
âBut there will be things which you shouldnât ignore. Your friend⊠Airn said something like that.â
Ilya nodded her head at that.
The Rabat nobles and Airn were different.
Airnâs words were for her.
It wasnât something she thought was wrong. He said words to make her grow.
Without him, she would have never been able to ask her father for help.
Ilya thought and looked into her fatherâs eyes.
She seemed to understand what her father was saying.
âFinally⊠it doesnât matter if you get along with others or not.â
Joshua smiled and continued.
âFrom now on, the words, gazes and actions of countless people might be focused on you. And they will try to shake you. But it isnât right to close your eyes and ears in fear of that. That wouldnât mean you are walking your path, but it is more like you are crumbling under the eyes of others.â
âAccept what you receive and think you need and let go of what you donât need. If your judgement is right, spit out swear words like you did in the banquet hall and just brush it off, and if it is advice that can help you grow, then accept it. Now should we conclude this? So, now what do you think is important?â
âFocusing on myself first and not others.â
The father stroked his daughterâs hair.
âThere is no need to focus on each and every word of others that is directed at you. As long as you understand yourself, then all your problems will be solved.â
At that moment, Ilya Lindsay felt her mind clearing.
What kind of person is she?
What did she like and dislike? What was her path? And what path made her crouch in fear?
Instead of reacting blindly to the words and actions of others, if you can become the subject and make your own choicesâŠ
Then there was no need to be afraid of others. And there was no need to be bothered by others.
âIt is the same with Ignet.â
Ilya closed her eyes and thought of Ignet Crescentia.
The swordsmanship she showed, the courage she showed and the words of recognition she gave her.
There wasnât any problem with that.
Because she clearly understood her own feelings. She hated and hated Ignet⊠but truthfully, she didnât.
Rather, she longed for her.
And those feelings were driving her own growth.
âI have to make a clear distinction.â
The incident caused by Ignet.
The sadness caused by Ignet.
The rumors caused by Ignet and the voices of comparison that arose out of it.
Ilya didnât need those; she didnât need to listen or think about them.
But that didnât mean that she had to ignore them and be stubborn about being recognized as a swordsman.
Ilya was genuinely delighted to hear the compliments from Ignet.
She decided to accept it and move forward.
âThanks for talking with me. I am sorry, but Iâll be back in a moment.â
The moment she focused on herself.
Ilya left the room as she realized that there was something more important than Ignet.
And she moved with all her might.
She felt sorry for her father, who was left behind.
But she couldnât stand it.
The moment she focused on herself, Ilya sprinted towards the training hall to see him, who had a greater presence than anything else in her life.
How did she know he was there?
A strange feeling had called out to her.
Ilya appeared in front of her precious friend.
No, she looked at the one she loved, Airn Pareira.
Even in Krono and in Land of Proof, it was a face that gave her great power.
She could feel his worried eyes and the faint smell of sweat.
Ilya Lindsay, who was completely focused on herself after so long, was fully aware of her feelings and opened her lips to speak.
But she couldnât say it.
She lived her entire life concentrating on others, so it wasnât easy to speak out like this.
âWhy am I being like this?â
âIsnât it more strange since I was the one who came out running for him?â
âI donât think this situation calls for saying thatâŠâ
âNo, Airn definitely only thinks of me as a friendâŠâ
Among the dozens of thoughts, a few seemed positive.
And then she realized once more. Who she was.
The fact that there was something more important.
Airn Pareira approached her. And looked at her with a worried expression. Ilya felt grateful for that.
Knowing that Airn had currently put down his sword for her sake, her emotions deepened.
She got to know herself better than before, but⊠it would take time for her to fully love herself.
It was difficult, but Ilya decided to hold back her words for Airn a little longer.
âLetâs take a little more time.â
Until she felt confident.
Until she could love herself.
Until Airn begins to like her.
Until then, she wanted to hide the feelings a little more.
âI just wanted to see you.â
âItâs like I said. Since we havenât seen each other lately.â
âSo, I came. Since I wanted to see you.â
âShould we duel then?â
Airn nodded. And Ilya smiled as she looked at him, which made Airn a bit surprised.
Because she was brighter than usual.
However, there was nothing strange.
She wanted to spend time with him.
Although she wasnât confident in revealing the truth about her feelings, she didnât feel like she should hide them completely.
She would stop hiding her feelings.
She would be more confident and express herself. Not hiding her true self.
âSomeday, I will be able to become a person attractive enough to express my feelings.â
Looking at Airnâs face, Ilya Lindsay smiled brighter.
Only the moon in the night sky was looking down on the two who were using their swords after a long time.