Story translated by Chrysanthemum Garden.
He was the first person he liked, and he felt love and gentleness towards him. His love for Chu Cheng was different from his love for others. When he came to this world, the first person he met was Chu Cheng, and the first one he felt safe and at ease with was also Chu Cheng. He relied on Chu Cheng, and he had no attachment to others except Chu Cheng.
What was Chu Cheng like? Ji Qingzhou thought, he was like the sunshine of the first bloom of the clear sky meeting the rainbow at the end of a rainy day, but he left too many feelings on Chu Cheng, so Chu Cheng was colorful and magnificent to him. He couldn’t bear to let these colors fade, so he couldn’t say hurtful words to Chu Cheng. He didn’t want Chu Cheng to suffer because of him. kohxAO
Forget it, he thought, he didn’t know how many times he could see him in a year. It wasn’t too much. Just promise him. Anyway he wouldn’t meet him again soon.
He accompanied Chu Cheng out of the elevator, all the way towards the front, Chu Cheng unconsciously turned his head to look at him as Ji Qingzhou had lowered his head, the side of his face looked very gentle.
“Are you having a good time these days?” Chu Cheng asked him.
Ji Qingzhou nodded, “Pretty good.” yj8S n
“After you answer, won’t you even ask me back?” Chu Cheng laughed, “This way, I ask you, you answer, so concise, not a word more, you haven’t asked me anything, don’t you have anything to say to me?”
Ji Qingzhou didn’t think he would say so, he couldn’t help but look up to see Chu Cheng, Chu Cheng looked straight ahead, but his expression of self-mockery hadn’t yet dissipated on his face.
Ji Qingzhou said, “What about you, are you doing well?”
Chu Cheng was silent for a while and said softly, “Not as good as you.” 1mD3Nj
Ji Qingzhou’s heart jumped hard, Chu Cheng turned his head to look at him, he said, “You do seem to be having a good time, then do you think I look like I’m having a good time?”
Ji Qingzhou looked at him, he couldn’t tell, he could never read Chu Cheng, he thought Chu Cheng liked him, but Chu Cheng let him go, he thought Chu Cheng didn’t like him, but Chu Cheng said he was having a bad time. He did look a bit gloomy and wasn’t as spirited as before, but who was he to make a fool of himself and think that Chu Cheng was having a bad time because of him?
Perhaps it was because of him, but it was only because he had refused his care and attention, so Chu Cheng wasn’t used to it.
“Is it because of me?” Ji Qingzhou asked him, “Because I refused your care and concern?” 0erV4n
Chu Cheng didn’t say anything.
Ji Qingzhou looked at him, his voice was clear and slow, “Chu Cheng, as you can see, I’m doing fine now, even without your care and attention, I can still live a good life. So, you don’t need to think about everything for me, I’m an adult, I have the ability to take care of myself, if I really encounter any problems that I can’t solve, maybe I will go to you for help, but most of the time, I can live well on my own, so you don’t always worry about me, okay?”
His tone was gentle, and there was even a smile in his eyes as he said, “Habits are hard to break at first, but as you get used to them, you’ll slowly get used to your new life. I am grateful that you have been so considerate of me, you wish me well, I also wish you well, I don’t want you to have a bad time because of me.”
Chu Cheng looked at him in a daze, at the tenderness in his eyes, and asked him, “Do you also think that my care and concern for you is just because of habit?” o7ZlRc
“What else?” Ji Qingzhou asked.
Chu Cheng slightly opened and closed his mouth, he almost asked him, “Maybe it’s like?”
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However he just looked at Ji Qingzhou and didn’t speak.
Ji Qingzhou saw him silent and very naturally stepped forward, Chu Cheng walked beside him, constantly asking himself, did he like Ji Qingzhou? Did he love Ji Qingzhou? Was he willing to be with Ji Qingzhou all the time? NjJF8A
They didn’t take long to reach Chu Cheng’s car, Ji Qingzhou said warmly, “Here we are.”
“Then I’ll go first, take care on the way, goodbye.” Ji Qingzhou still had that warm and gentle expression.
The moment he turned around and started walked back, Chu Cheng looked at him, reached out and tugged his arm, then he took a step forward and hugged him. sdeaku
When Chu Cheng hugged him, he didn’t say anything, but he felt a peace of mind.
He felt that all his irritability and dullness dissipated at this moment, and his heart quieted down. He held Ji Qingzhou tightly, holding him tighter little by little, he was so familiar with the person in his arms, he even kissed his shoulders and neck, his spine. He was obviously so thin, if he held him a little tighter, he could feel his bones, but he still stubbornly wanted to use his thin body to hold up his sky.
Clearly he wasn’t a very strong person, and people who got injured would shout to get treatment, why was he acting so strong? Even if he used him, wasn’t it better to use him to make his path smoother before he reached the peak of the entertainment industry and before his mother fully recovered? GQolO
Why did he have to draw a clear line between them?
He held Ji Qingzhou, whispered his name repeatedly, “Zhouzhou.”
Ji Qingzhou’s heart instantly softened, he subconsciously clenched his fist, he didn’t push away Chu Cheng, but he didn’t hug him back.
He said softly, “This is the last time, Chu Cheng, next time don’t be like this.” 2VhySC
Chu Cheng didn’t speak, he slightly let go of him to look at him, Ji Qingzhou lowered his head so he couldn’t see his expression.
Chu Cheng lowered his head to kiss him, Ji Qingzhou slightly moved away, avoiding his kiss. This was the first time he refused his kiss, even when they first met, when Chu Cheng tried to kiss him, he never hid, sometimes he sweetly turned the other side of his face, a polite hint that he should also kiss that side.
But now, he refused Chu Cheng’s kiss, “Don’t do that, it’s not appropriate.”
Chu Cheng stared at him quietly and didn’t say anything. WGbPNc
“It’s time for you to let go of me.” Ji Qingzhou said softly.
Chu Cheng gazed at him unblinking, but didn’t release his hold on Ji Qingzhou.
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“Let go.” Ji Qingzhou reminded him again.
Chu Cheng didn’t let go, still gazing at him. I1MXwP
Ji Qingzhou helplessly raised his head to look at him, he stared at him, then stubbornly stated again, “It’s time for you to let go.”
Chu Cheng looked at his dark eyes and wondered how he could let go of him again and again without any psychological burden. Did Ji Qingzhou like him? He thought, if he liked him, why could he be so stubborn to let go of him, so determined to draw a line with him, without a trace of hesitation. But if he didn’t like him, why didn’t he push him away? It was clear that he only needed to push him away and then he could leave, so why did he repeatedly tell him to let go first?
Why didn’t he push him away?
“If you push me away, you can naturally leave.” Chu Cheng looked at him, “There’s no need for me to let go, as long as you push me away, you can leave, no?” 5YjowJ
Ji Qingzhou froze for a moment, he didn’t expect Chu Cheng to say such words, he stared at Chu Cheng, a little stunned and a little reluctant, he unconsciously lowered his eyes to hide his sadness in this moment, but his heart couldn’t help but be a little sour.
He never pushed Chu Cheng away, whether during the contract or now after the end of the contract, except when Chu Cheng wanted to drive with him at the beginning, other times, when Chu Cheng wanted to hug or kiss, or even do other things, he never refused him.
He was so fond of Chu Cheng, he he could he push him away? But now, Chu Cheng was asking him to push him away.
Ji Qingzhou’s eyes burned slightly, he stood still, trying to raise his hand but he couldn’t. If he could push Chu Cheng away, he would have pushed him away when Chu Cheng just hugged him. He suddenly found Chu Cheng very annoying, obviously he took the initiative to hold him, but asked him to take the initiative to push him away, obviously he set a time limit, he said he didn’t like him, yet after the contract ended, he still pestered him. DzxiB4
He had been gradually adapting to life without Chu Cheng step by step, he had put away his heart, he just wanted to live his life well, but Chu Cheng was making things difficult for him.
Ji Qingzhou felt aggrieved, but more than that, this was hard for him. He slowly raised his hand, persuading himself that they would have always reached this point, from verbal rejection to physical rejection. Even if not today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, someday in the future, he would push Chu Cheng away with his hands and tell him, “Let go.”
Since they were separated, they should move on cleanly, since he could verbally reject Chu Cheng’s care and attention, he also had to physically reject Chu Cheng’s contact.
He should have pushed Chu Cheng away. As early as when Chu Cheng hugged him, he should have pushed him away. Tr8KMV
Ji Qingzhou moved to push him away, but before he could, his hand was held, surprised, he looked up, Chu Cheng looked at him as he held his hand.
Ji Qingzhou didn’t understand what he really wanted to do. It was he who wanted to be pushed away. Now it was he who was holding him. What did he really want? He couldn’t see clearly, he struggled against Chu Cheng’s grasp, wanting to be released, he tried pushing him away, but Chu Cheng’s grip was very tight, he simply couldn’t break free.
“What are you doing?” Ji Qingzhou felt angry and helpless, “You told me to push you away, what are you doing now? Chu Cheng, let go of me.”
As Chu Cheng felt his movements, the hand that was holding him held him slightly tighter. AtPv a
Ji Qingzhou lifted his other hand to tug the one he was holding, but he heard Chu Cheng whisper in his ear, “Don’t push me away, don’t push me away Zhouzhou, I was wrong, I shouldn’t have said that to you, I was wrong, will you forgive me?”
His voice was very low and was filled with suppression and pain, Ji Qingzhou listened and stopped the movement of his hands.
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