Shi Fengju heart felt as if an icicle had pierced his heart before an indescribable disappointment slowly filled the hole.
âWhy wonât you believe me?â
âThatâs because your actions donât live up to your words!â Gu Fangzi burst into tears and asked Shi Fengju sourly, âDo you like her now? Hold onto your conscience and tell me, have you started liking her? Do you think that Iâm finding fault in you for no reason whatsoever and that Iâm very sinister? Tell me!â
Shi Fengju did not speak and his expression turned calm, âFangâer, I hope that nothing of this sort happens again in the future. I hope that the Fangâer I like isnât like that.â
Once he was done, he turned and left.
âBig Cousin!â A burst of panic erupted in Gu Fangzi and she ran after Shi Fengju, hugging him tightly from behind. With her face pasted at his back, she choked with sobs, âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry! Big Cousin, itâs me whoâs in the wrong and not you! Donât be angry, please donât ignore me! Big Cousin, I did it because I was nervous, afraid that you might not want me anymore; Iâm really afraid! Big Cousin, I cannot live without you! Big Cousin!â
Shi Fengjuâs body stiffened and he sighed, âPromise me, never do it again.â
âEn, en! I promise, I promise! Never again, never again!â Gu Fangzi nodded desperately.
Shi Fengju smiled and turned to pat her back gently, âFangâer, believe in me.â
âEn, then, youâve to promise me that your heart will never change!â Gu Fangzi hugged him even tighter this time around and rested herself in his arms.
âI, promise.â Shi Fengju became unattentive in that moment but still nodded gently.
Only then did Gu Fangziâs tears finally stopped and she spoke softly, âOn the day after tomorrow, Big Cousin will be leaving home so Iâve personally sewed two clothes for you. My handicraft isnât great, but Big Cousin, you must not laugh at them.â
âReally? You made clothes for me?â Shi Fenju laughed, âWhen did you become so maidenly?â Since young, Gu Fangzi had never liked to do the work of women. Not just clothes, she had never gift him a belt and footwear before. As for an embroidered sachet, that was a few long years ago.
Gu Fangzi gave a glance at him and joked half-heartedly, âSo you think only that wife of yours can be a maiden and I cannot?â
Shi Fengjuâs eyes turned dark but he forced a smile.
Gu Fangzi went on and rambled, âThose friends of yours who are a negative influence on you, youâd better get far away from them and never learn from them! Youâre not allowed to visit the brothel and date other girls outside! Hmph, if I find out, Iâll definitely not forgive you!â
âHow would I! Was I ever that kind of person?â Shi Fengju restrained himself and laughed.
âYou never know! So Iâm here to remind you!â Gu Fangzi puffed.
On to Sang Wanâs side, she was almost done with packing the luggage. In there were his sleepwear, underwear and shorts, outerwear, cloak, shoes and socks, belts, headbands, and many others packed neatly for different occasions. There were also towels, soap, and other toiletries, lotus paste buns, pancakes, nail clipper, a jade ring, and many others all loaded into two large trunks and two small trunks. With a smile, she spoke to Shi Fengju, âThe list of items was in the trunk so it was easy enough for me to pack! Tomorrow, Nanny will have someone to lift these to Zhan Huan and pass on a message to have him buy the items if thereâs any thatâs missing! The outside is never like home, Zhan Huan and the rest may not think on a whole and may become unattentive. When that time comes, remind them a little or theyâll end up becoming lazy!â There, Sang Wan rumbled for a long time.
Shi Fengju felt a sense of warmth in his heart but somehow forced his words to give an opposite meaning, âActually, you can just let the servants do these packing; thereâs no need for you to do it personally. After all⌠I mean, itâs enough to have the servants do it!â
Sang Wanâs expression turned a little pale but she laughed, barely, âJust like you said! Thank you for accompanying my big brother yesterday, so just treat this as thanks!â
Shi Fengju knew deep down that she had already begun packing since a few days ago, but after hearing those words, he secretly regretted having said so.
Only to listen to Sang Wan going on, âThen again, it was Mother who assigned me to do so, so can I not listen? Whatâs more, there was also Nanny Li who was present!â
In other words, she was doing this for others to see.
Shi Fengju smiled, a smile that was extremely forced. Unbeknown to her, those words made his heart somewhat disappointed.
âOh thatâs right, â Sang Wan tidied the strains of hair hanging down her temple before bringing out a rectangular wooden box. âThis is a medicine chest. Inside, there are gauzes, anti-bruise powder, Vermilion powder, Zhuge powder, Vermilion pills, shixiang fansheng pills, rose hip pills, loquat cream, White Tiger balm and many other common pills. This medicine box is also water resistant, but itâs best to store it carefully in case it may be needed. Of course, not having to use it would be best!â
âThank you for being so thoughtful!â Shi Fengju smiled and received it.
Sang Wan smiled and shook her head, âThereâs no need for us to be so overly polite to each other.â
Shi Fengju nodded in agreement before pondering for a moment and spoke, âI might only be able to return on August 15th. In these three months, youâve to take care of yourself. If thereâs anything you need, discuss it over with Nanny Li, sheâs a wise old lady. Also, help me take good care of my mother! If you suffer from any complaints after,â Shi Fengju gazed at her and continued, âplease endure a little until I return.â
Sang Wan thought to herself: So you know, there I was thinking you donât! During the period when youâre gone, who knows what else that cousin of yourâs might do!
âAlright, then I shall wait for you to return to bring justice.â Sang Wan laughed.
Shi Fengju could not help but laugh along.
On the very next day, the entire family had a meal together. Second Young Mistress had not went to see Sang Wan for a while which had something to do with her being a little sick these few days. Meeting again this time around, the two greeted a little less than before.
Early morning on the eighth of May, Wang Shi brought Shi Fengju, Sang Wan, and Gu Fangzi to the ancestral tablets and burned the incense. Once done, they kowtowed and place the food offerings such as a whole chicken, fish, roasted square pork, and wine before praying to the ancestors to keep Shi Fengju safe and give him their blessings. Now again, Wang Shi led them to the temple to burn the incense, sprinkled rice water, and murmured some words of prayer before holding on to Shi Fengjuâs hand all the way and would only let go once he had to leave the household.
The Shi family had always been merchants and Shi Fengju had to go on trips that were either long or short every year. Wang Shi had always been worried for him but was also used to it. As such, on this occasion, there was no crying and only a face of a mother who missed her son. So on a whole, the atmosphere was somewhat alright.
In front of the entire crowd, Gu Fangzi suddenly boarded Shi Fenjuâs carriage and directed a smile at Wang Shi,â Aunt Wang, I want to go to the wharf to send Big Cousin off on his trip!â
The crowd was immediately taken aback, even Shi Fengju himself.
Shi Fengju could not help but give a glimpse at Sang Wan. Seeing that she was restraining herself, his heart immediately received a blow. But Gu Fangzi had already boarded the carriage and announced it to the crowd, there was no way he could just chase her off.
The servants from the household department were also taken aback by Gu Fangziâs actions and they looked at each other strangely before a glisten shone in their eyes as they looked excitedly at their Young Mistressâs expression secretly.
Nanny Li, on the other hand, was extremely furious. Although that anger in her was not openly revealed, her face was dark and she rolled her eyes at Gu Fangzi.
âThis,â The crowd gauged Sang Wanâs expression with a little discretion. Wang Shi and everyone else looked at Sang Wan to seek her opinion.
Although it was embarrassing, Sang Wan held herself back and did not let the tears trickle down her eyes!
âEnough. Mother, Sang Wan, you can all return now! Iâll have someone send my cousin back later! Sang Wan, take care of yourself, and take good care of mother in my stead!â Shi Fengju gave a smile barely enough and coughed.
Seeing that he knows to protect her reputation and speak a few good words of his own to her in front of everyone else, Sang Wan blushed a little and nodded at him with a smile, âMy husband, donât worry for I will! Mother and I shall await your return!â
âYes, yes, yes! May you have a smooth and safe trip, and return back as soon as possible!â Wang Shi smiled.
Shi Fengju nodded before ordering the coachman to drive the carriage away.
When Gu Fangzi returned to the household, her expression was not so good-looking as she glared at Ning Garden with jealousy and resentment before hurrying back to the Peony Park.
Can she really believe in Big Cousin? Is a manâs promise somewhat credible? Gu Fangzi was at this moment caught in an unprecedented conflict and dilemma.
Very soon, something was about to happen which would change her mindset to make haste!
Not more than two days after Shi Fengju left home, Gu Fangziâs father, Gu Jin, found his way to the Shi household.
Catching wind of the news from a servant, Gu Fangziâs expression became troubled and she ordered a servant to lead that man to a secluded waiting room in the outer courtyard. Cursing fiercely under her breath, she wrapped a few pieces of broken silvers in a veil and went to meet him in secret.
She was still some distance away and she could already hear her father yelling loudly, âYou people of the Shi family are really very stingy! Not even a jug of wine is given? Do you all know who I am? I am your Miss Guâs father, her biological father! I do not drink tea, serve up the wine, bring me the wine now!â
What a disgrace! Gu Fangzi felt both ashamed and furious as she rushed over and glared at the maidservants to leave before frowning at her father, âFather! What are you yelling for!â
âWhat? You see me as a disgrace? Even so, youâre still my daughter! A Gu familyâs member!â Gu Jin grinned and exposed his yellowed teeth.
Gu Fangzi had always hated hearing those words as they sounded extremely ear-piercing. However, she could only endure and spoke patiently, âWhy have you come? Is there any matter?â
âOh, â Gu Jin looked at her from head to toe and started laughing, âIs that how you should be speaking to your own father? It seems to me like Iâm an outsider and this is your home! My daughter, donât be in such a hurry! You arenât surnamed Shi yet! And Iâve yet to see the Shi familyâs betrothal gifts!â
âFather!â Gu Fangzi stomped her foot and spoke coldly, âIf you say these words again, donât blame me for ignoring you!â
âDonât be like that!â Gu Jin laughed, âWhatever my reason for finding you, Iâm sure you know very well.â
Gu Fangziâs face remained cold and she drew out the veil which had a few broken pieces of silver and gave it to Gu Jin, âJust these, take it!â
Gu Jin weighed the veil in his hand and laughed, âI say, my daughter, arenât you being very ungrateful to this father of yours? In the Shi family where youâre given shelter, delicacies, and silk and satin clothes to wear, yet you show this little respect to your father? Chasing off someone like me whom you see as a beggar, I see!â
Gu Fangzi sneered, âFather, what belongs to the Shi family belongs to the Shi family. This daughter of yours freeloading in the Shi family is already embarrassing enough already. Where would I even get the face to ask them for money to show you any respect! Just these few were me being thrifty to save up, so take it or leave it!â
Gu Jin ignored his daughterâs lashing words and rolled his eyes with a sudden realization, âJust like you said! Youâre still not a member of the Shi family, freeloading here isnât a really good idea! In that case, you will follow me back! Go, weâll go back now! Until the day the Shi family brings me the betrothal gifts and carry a big red sedan to receive you, youâll be staying with me!â
With that, Gu Jin grabbed Gu Fangziâs arm and forced her to leave with him.