Publishedat 7th of June 2019 09:12:03 AMChapter 46
When I wake up in the morning, I customarily turn around, using my hand to feel the empty, ice-cold cottoned pear silk that hadnât ever been warmed by a body, which eliminates my drowsiness in a flash .
I havenât seen Jinzi since the night before, but⌠I donât want to think about that right now . I donât want to expose the soft area that belongs to women again, that would let others easily wound it .
Itâs not his fault . Iâm aware that his behavior on that cliffside was more because he was sulky and las.h.i.+ng out from that morning . Thereâs quite a few things that weâve come to a mutual understanding about, in fact, and donât need to ask about . Furthermore, my words that night were a bit excessive . Though I really donât like this feeling of the core of your being leaning towards another being; that their every act and motion, every scowl and smile, will intensely influence your own mood and att.i.tude . I canât stand being so weak, so vulnerable .
Iâve slept for only two or three hours, giving me some sort of tired excitement . A thread of white is gradually penetrating the faraway sky, making the candleâs flame in front of my mirror seem glum .
When I entered this body, I rarely looked at my reflection in the mirror as I really didnât like it . This manâs appearance is still very alien to me . Iâve always felt that Iâm still that woman from before the plane crash⌠for that reason, Iâve taken up an avoidant att.i.tude this whole time .
Seeing the elegant personâs face in the mirror is sporting some stubble, I â despite having past experience and mental preparations â still shudder in disgust . To speak the truth regarding this current body and its lack of b.o.o.bs, I can pretend that I had a mastectomy done, and that extra part is just a benign tumor . Zhang Qinglianâs Adamâs Apple also isnât very distinct, itâs just that the facial hair is⌠when I look at it I feel gross . I nearly threw up the first time I did . Thatâs why Iâve always immediately called for Hong Feng or Jinzi to get a blade and help me shave it clean off .
Iâm not shaving today, though .
We always have to face reality . I want to be stronger, more independent, and more unfettered . Iâll have to accept everything about the current situation .
Starting from today onwards, I no longer want to flee from anything . I have to dilute my completely unreasonable attachment to Jinzi bit by bit, and no longer allow myself to lose most of my rationality as soon as I come across something about him .
However, my not shaving was actually a stroke of luck, because Court that morning was filled with officials that looked nothing less than bedraggled, their eyes bloodshot . Regardless of whether itâs for real or an act, they all ill.u.s.trate that they were worried about the state of the nation and couldnât sleep at night . For that reason, my unconventional appearance accidentally fit right into the situation .
I didnât expect that the first one to rush to speak would be the Waiqi . Li Minguo very self-consciously and practically took out two confidential letters and said, âThis servant received some things urgent last night . They say that Guo Zhengtong had exaggerated the riverâs situation, and the flood is actually not that much of an emergency . â He pa.s.sed the letters around to the major officials to look at .
Guo Zhengtong is the official who sent the palace report yesterday . Heâs Lingyangâs governor, and nine of the thirteen counties that flooded this time are under his jurisdiction . He was born of Jiangnan landowners who were already on the decline, was a palace graduate of the same year as Zhou Zizhu, and could be considered a student of Gu Yunzhi . Heâs been a local official since the get-go . Itâs said that his officialâs voice is superb, yet this rarity is simultaneously considered to be of low status .
Whether itâs from his family background or relations.h.i.+ps, this person is doubtlessly of the Qingliu Party .
The Waiqi and Qingliu were able to unite quite well against me some time ago, but since Iâve repeatedly failed to take any big actions, theyâve started to somewhat turn against each other . Itâs especially apparent in their lower-ranking members working in outside provinces, as itâs easier for them to clash due to discrepancies in behavior and ways of doing things . These two confidential letters are from senior officials of neighboring areas of government, and are presumably people who generally have quite a bit of qualms with Guo Zhengtong .
The first of the two letters wasnât too bad, merely saying that the tides were resolving themselves . The other is a little vicious, saying that Guo Zhengtong was exaggerating and lied about the crisis with the intent to cheat supplies out of the Court so that he can try to please the citizens, planting himself into their hearts; that his intentions are treacherous, he has a criminalâs mind, and so on .
These words would be the most offensive taboo towards the Emperor, but heâs luckily still young, so the ones who decide will be us few Guardian Ministers [1] appointed posthumously by the former Emperor . The Qingliu party began to jump up from Gu Yunzhiâs side one by one to launch a heated argument with the Waiqi . They quote the cla.s.sics and hurl insults at each other, and they couldnât be farther from the situation at hand .
I could also be considered knowledgeable and experienced, and this flooding is urgent as such, yet theyâre still wasting saliva here . This is really⌠the peak of perfection .
Due to us three serving Guardian Ministers normal policy-making being that the minority will follow what the majority decides, it wonât be long before someone asks me for my opinion . Saying that the minority obeys the majority is, of course, not entirely correct . For example, if the other two agree on a matter but I object, they can make a government decree despite my wishes . I can threaten them and make a fuss, then I can get my own partyâs officials to refuse to boycott and cause a ruckus about it, therefore throwing the Courtâs politics into disarray . Thereâll be numerous restrictions, and carrying out that decree wonât be very effective .
âWhat does Sir Zhang think?â An old fox of the Zhongli party, the Minister of Appointments, asked me .
I deliberately cleared my throat, speaking calmly . âThe flooding is a matter of great importance . Tens of thousands of citizensâ lives are threatened in the interim . This is not for show, and cannot be neglected . It doesnât matter whoâs right and whoâs wrong for the time being . In this lowly officialâs humble opinion, I would rather be wrong in believing than wrong in not believing . â
The Qingliu didnât expect that I would suddenly come out and speak up for them, causing pleasant surprise . Zhou Zizhu looks at me thoughtfully . Gu Yunzhi declares, âSince Sir Zhang also says so, there will be no further objection to this matter . If itâs as urgent as a fire would be, then aid of money and provisions will be released immediately . â
Ah, those are the words Iâve been waiting for .
Giving myself an upright appearance, I speak to Gu Yunzhi in a relaxed manner . âSir Gu, may I ask where those are coming from?â
Gu Yunzhi stared . âThe state treasury and government storehouse, of course . â
I laugh coldly . âChunxi, why donât you come up and tell everyone how much money is said to be kept in the treasury at present?â
Liu Chunxi stepped forward, tone clear . â4,713,984Â liang . â
âAnd how much is actually still in the bank?â
âIt was still in the millions at the beginning of the year . With both military incidents this spring, the true amount of liang is currently 113,452 . â
The whole place filled with alarm when this was said . Leaving aside the huge discrepancy between the accounts and reality, for such a grand country to only have a little over a hundred-thousand liang in the bank is whatâs really horrifying . There isnât enough to provide disaster relief today, and furthermore, though Shao Qing has returned, w.a.n.g Hejing is still warring in the Southwest . Weâre actually facing a huge financial crisis .
Not waiting for someone else to talk, I ask again, âWhere did all that money go?â
Liu Chunxi spoke firmly, but with careful respect . âAnswering Sir Zhang, leaving out the 300,000 liang in taxes that Lingnan failed to turn in last year, itâs entirely gone to private loans from officials of every division . â
The Court was like a beehive, starting to fill with incessant buzzing as all the bees whispered .
I fake-coughed a few times again . âShould this Courtâs officials have an urgent matter, taking private loans from the bank is not a big deal . Itâs only that the national treasury is now empty, leaving us unable to fund the military and relief effort . If any of you have borrowed silver from the Ministry of Revenue, please pay them back in full within three days . If not, it will cause this important event to be delayed, and Iâm afraid no one would like to shoulder that blame . â
The bees quieted down in an instant . No one in the Court said a word .
To pay back debts owed is a matter of course that n.o.body would argue against; the difficulty of this undertaking isnât there, but in the actual implementation of this demand . Just look at what happened when Yongzheng cowed the Princes into paying their dues . [2] Fortunately, thereâs not likely to be any Princes or old figures that served Kangxi causing a disturbance, but this situation has its own troubles .
My first step has finally been taken .
After Court, Old Gao invited me to the Everfragrant House again . I knew that he wanted to request support from me for something, so I followed him .
The interior decoration of the House today is completely different from the tasteful and refined little place it had originally been, the majority of it having taken a lavish route . The room that came with our bundle is of an exotic Persian style .
Thereâs a big red woolen rug, a gilded low table inlaid with jade, a dense fragrance of frankincense and myrrh, brightly-colored hanging curtains, and a few Persian or Arabian songstresses that are playing instruments, every one of them draped in gauze, covered head to toe in precious jewelry and revealing clothes .
We took our seats on the ground, facing quite a bit of exotic fruits like grapes, cantaloupe, and so on, as well as a whole roasted lamb . Lan Guan is extremely busy at the moment, but still rushed over to show his face . My G.o.dson said to him, âXiao Lan, you go do what you have to do first, Sir Zhang and I have an important matter to discuss . You can bring people over after half a s.h.i.+chen . We havenât seen Xiao Yun in quite a while . â
Lan Guan smiled and agreed politely, said a bunch of social niceties, took all the songstresses and maids out, and considerately covered up the doorway .
Seeing that theyâd left, Old Gao itched to look at me with a face full of tears . âFather Sir, please save your sonâs life . â
I feign astonishment . âWhy for, Linxi?â
Old Gao is completely dismayed . âThe investigation of the a.s.sa.s.sination attempt on His Majesty has fallen to this child and the Nine Gates Commanders, with the ten-day limit⌠though this child has sent a lot of experts, theyâve all been unable to find a single clueâŚâ
I mumbled to myself, then called for Old Tian and Zhu to come in . âThis matter must have someone with unusual finesse and connections behind the scenes . The scope of this is not smallâŚâ Thinking about it, I feel that I still need Old Tian to keep watch over the center of my gunpowder development . I said to Old Zhu, âYouâre going to be going on a trip . You must take caution, and donât alert the enemy by any means . Go to the accounts room and take 3,000 liang first, then set off that day or the day after . â
Old Zhu accepted the order and went .
Old Tian withdrew to stand guard outside the room .
Gao Yushu appears to hold no hope for Old Zhu, still looking very dispirited . Odd . Was he wanting to borrow Jinzi from me?
I smiled and consoled him . âDonât worry, Linxi . Iâll speak on your behalf and get the time limit extended . â
Old Gao turned his worry to joy, thanking me repeatedly .
I speak again . âLinxi, it seems like youâve loaned a total of 80,000 liang from the Ministry of Revenue?â
Old Gao is a wise man, replying immediately, âThis child will pay it back in full tomorrow . â
I probe, âLinxi, do others not know if I still donât know? Have you ever been lacking for a trifling few thousands of liang? Why were you wanting to get a loan?â
Old Gao is a bit embara.s.sed . âFather Sir, this matter has been concealed from other, but will not be concealed from you . Li Guozhang was the first to do this two years ago, borrowing 300,000 liang from the treasury to use for usury, and earning a lot this way . Many officials secretly followed in his footsteps . This child had a moment of itching in his heart and borrow 80,000, but found having to wait such a long time to be dull, and simply neglected to return it . â
I laughed sarcastically . âSo thatâs how it is . â
I had said that Li Minguo must have borrowed a lot of money, as back in the day when the Empress return to her paternal family, he had made a temporary imperial courtyard for her visit, yet the Li familyâs finances didnât go into the red .
In any case, the Li family must be forced to repay their debt .
Weâve just barely finished our conversation on this side when Lan Guan and Yuan Qingyun come in . That guy is still that prissy, nose-in-the-air sort, his smile unpleasant .
I secretly think that the one of the very likely reasons heâs so popular is greatly related to all the skin contact . Seeing the more flattering, fawning, tender, charming, mellow, and eager-to-please type like Lan Guan, how else would the polar opposite Yuan Qingyun have any appeal?
He leisurely sits at my side like before, and leisurely pulls me into his embrace like before . His hand stroked my waist, words tantalizing .
This overall scene gives me a sense of dĂŠjĂ vu, but⌠I can cope with it a lot better than the first time . Iâve corrupted unwittingly, indeed .
After three rounds of wine, Old Gao and Lan Guan have become somewhat unrestrained, doing some things that inevitably make my face secretly red and heart secretly beat when I see .
Yuan Qingyunâs face gently caressed my own, his slightly alcohol-tinged breath replacing the my surrounding oxygen supply, messing with my own bit of intoxication, making my heart beat a little faster .
âSir,â he almost completely held me in his arms, eyes lowered, looking down on me with a smile, using his drawn-out, honey-silk cadence to speak, âYou said some time ago that youâd find me to try things out . Qingyun leaned against the doorway every day, suffering in the wait, yet he didnât see you⌠could it be that youâre a deserter, Sir, and want to fall back?â
I donât know what happened in this moment, either . Maybe it was the alcohol, maybe Iâd been provoked by certain things . I was fully aware that it was only a superficial means to entice me, yet I still smiled haughtily and said, âTo be labelled a deserter is something a man cannot allow . Is Qingyun trying to provoke me? That being so, Iâll stay here with you over the night . â
Yuan Qingyun probably hadnât antic.i.p.ated that Iâd say that, as he stared a bit before a lazy grin slowly, slowly bloomed on his face . He says without rush, âQingyun will tidy up the bed for your stay . â
*side-eyes ZQL*
[1] 饞ĺ˝ĺ¤§čŁ â lit . âmajor minister appointed by posthumous imperial edictâ . Meant to be making decisions for the Emperor until heâs of age, hence the translated name .
[2] Emperor Yongzheng was good to the citizenry, less so to wealthy officials, even less so to his own brothers . He was fond of seizing their a.s.sets and exiling them .  Yunsi is a good example . Otherwise I have zero idea whatâs being said here because my knowledge of Chinese history is b a d
When I wake up in the morning, I customarily turn around, using my hand to feel the empty, ice-cold cottoned pear silk that hadnât ever been warmed by a body, which eliminates my drowsiness in a flash
I havenât seen Jinzi since the night before, but⌠I donât want to think about that right now . I donât want to expose the soft area that belongs to women again, that would let others easily wound it
Itâs not his fault . Iâm aware that his behavior on that cliffside was more because he was sulky and las.h.i.+ng out from that morning . Thereâs quite a few things that weâve come to a mutual understanding about, in fact, and donât need to ask about . Furthermore, my words that night were a bit excessive . Though I really donât like this feeling of the core of your being leaning towards another being; that their every act and motion, every scowl and smile, will intensely influence your own mood and att.i.tude . I canât stand being so weak, so vulnerable
Iâve slept for only two or three hours, giving me some sort of tired excitement . A thread of white is gradually penetrating the faraway sky, making the candleâs flame in front of my mirror seem glum
When I entered this body, I rarely looked at my reflection in the mirror as I really didnât like it . This manâs appearance is still very alien to me . Iâve always felt that Iâm still that woman from before the plane crash⌠for that reason, Iâve taken up an avoidant att.i.tude this whole time
Seeing the elegant personâs face in the mirror is sporting some stubble, I â despite having past experience and mental preparations â still shudder in disgust . To speak the truth regarding this current body and its lack of b.o.o.bs, I can pretend that I had a mastectomy done, and that extra part is just a benign tumor . Zhang Qinglianâs Adamâs Apple also isnât very distinct, itâs just that the facial hair is⌠when I look at it I feel gross . I nearly threw up the first time I did . Thatâs why Iâve always immediately called for Hong Feng or Jinzi to get a blade and help me shave it clean off
Iâm not shaving today, though
We always have to face reality . I want to be stronger, more independent, and more unfettered . Iâll have to accept everything about the current situation
Starting from today onwards, I no longer want to flee from anything . I have to dilute my completely unreasonable attachment to Jinzi bit by bit, and no longer allow myself to lose most of my rationality as soon as I come across something about him
However, my not shaving was actually a stroke of luck, because Court that morning was filled with officials that looked nothing less than bedraggled, their eyes bloodshot . Regardless of whether itâs for real or an act, they all ill.u.s.trate that they were worried about the state of the nation and couldnât sleep at night . For that reason, my unconventional appearance accidentally fit right into the situation
I didnât expect that the first one to rush to speak would be the Waiqi . Li Minguo very self-consciously and practically took out two confidential letters and said, âThis servant received some things urgent last night . They say that Guo Zhengtong had exaggerated the riverâs situation, and the flood is actually not that much of an emergency . â He pa.s.sed the letters around to the major officials to look at
Guo Zhengtong is the official who sent the palace report yesterday . Heâs Lingyangâs governor, and nine of the thirteen counties that flooded this time are under his jurisdiction . He was born of Jiangnan landowners who were already on the decline, was a palace graduate of the same year as Zhou Zizhu, and could be considered a student of Gu Yunzhi . Heâs been a local official since the get-go . Itâs said that his officialâs voice is superb, yet this rarity is simultaneously considered to be of low status
Whether itâs from his family background or relations.h.i.+ps, this person is doubtlessly of the Qingliu Party
The Waiqi and Qingliu were able to unite quite well against me some time ago, but since Iâve repeatedly failed to take any big actions, theyâve started to somewhat turn against each other . Itâs especially apparent in their lower-ranking members working in outside provinces, as itâs easier for them to clash due to discrepancies in behavior and ways of doing things . These two confidential letters are from senior officials of neighboring areas of government, and are presumably people who generally have quite a bit of qualms with Guo Zhengtong
The first of the two letters wasnât too bad, merely saying that the tides were resolving themselves . The other is a little vicious, saying that Guo Zhengtong was exaggerating and lied about the crisis with the intent to cheat supplies out of the Court so that he can try to please the citizens, planting himself into their hearts; that his intentions are treacherous, he has a criminalâs mind, and so on
These words would be the most offensive taboo towards the Emperor, but heâs luckily still young, so the ones who decide will be us few Guardian Ministers [1] appointed posthumously by the former Emperor . The Qingliu party began to jump up from Gu Yunzhiâs side one by one to launch a heated argument with the Waiqi . They quote the cla.s.sics and hurl insults at each other, and they couldnât be farther from the situation at hand
I could also be considered knowledgeable and experienced, and this flooding is urgent as such, yet theyâre still wasting saliva here . This is really⌠the peak of perfection
Due to us three serving Guardian Ministers normal policy-making being that the minority will follow what the majority decides, it wonât be long before someone asks me for my opinion . Saying that the minority obeys the majority is, of course, not entirely correct . For example, if the other two agree on a matter but I object, they can make a government decree despite my wishes . I can threaten them and make a fuss, then I can get my own partyâs officials to refuse to boycott and cause a ruckus about it, therefore throwing the Courtâs politics into disarray . Thereâll be numerous restrictions, and carrying out that decree wonât be very effective
âWhat does Sir Zhang think?â An old fox of the Zhongli party, the Minister of Appointments, asked me
I deliberately cleared my throat, speaking calmly . âThe flooding is a matter of great importance . Tens of thousands of citizensâ lives are threatened in the interim . This is not for show, and cannot be neglected . It doesnât matter whoâs right and whoâs wrong for the time being . In this lowly officialâs humble opinion, I would rather be wrong in believing than wrong in not believing . â.
The Qingliu didnât expect that I would suddenly come out and speak up for them, causing pleasant surprise . Zhou Zizhu looks at me thoughtfully . Gu Yunzhi declares, âSince Sir Zhang also says so, there will be no further objection to this matter . If itâs as urgent as a fire would be, then aid of money and provisions will be released immediately . â.
Ah, those are the words Iâve been waiting for
Giving myself an upright appearance, I speak to Gu Yunzhi in a relaxed manner . âSir Gu, may I ask where those are coming from?â.
Gu Yunzhi stared . âThe state treasury and government storehouse, of course . â.
I laugh coldly . âChunxi, why donât you come up and tell everyone how much money is said to be kept in the treasury at present?â.
Liu Chunxi stepped forward, tone clear . â4,713,984Â liang . â.
âAnd how much is actually still in the bank?â.
âIt was still in the millions at the beginning of the year . With both military incidents this spring, the true amount of liang is currently 113,452 . â.
The whole place filled with alarm when this was said . Leaving aside the huge discrepancy between the accounts and reality, for such a grand country to only have a little over a hundred-thousand liang in the bank is whatâs really horrifying . There isnât enough to provide disaster relief today, and furthermore, though Shao Qing has returned, w.a.n.g Hejing is still warring in the Southwest . Weâre actually facing a huge financial crisis
Not waiting for someone else to talk, I ask again, âWhere did all that money go?â.
Liu Chunxi spoke firmly, but with careful respect . âAnswering Sir Zhang, leaving out the 300,000 liang in taxes that Lingnan failed to turn in last year, itâs entirely gone to private loans from officials of every division . â.
The Court was like a beehive, starting to fill with incessant buzzing as all the bees whispered
I fake-coughed a few times again . âShould this Courtâs officials have an urgent matter, taking private loans from the bank is not a big deal . Itâs only that the national treasury is now empty, leaving us unable to fund the military and relief effort . If any of you have borrowed silver from the Ministry of Revenue, please pay them back in full within three days . If not, it will cause this important event to be delayed, and Iâm afraid no one would like to shoulder that blame . â.
The bees quieted down in an instant . No one in the Court said a word
To pay back debts owed is a matter of course that n.o.body would argue against; the difficulty of this undertaking isnât there, but in the actual implementation of this demand . Just look at what happened when Yongzheng cowed the Princes into paying their dues . [2] Fortunately, thereâs not likely to be any Princes or old figures that served Kangxi causing a disturbance, but this situation has its own troubles
My first step has finally been taken
After Court, Old Gao invited me to the Everfragrant House again . I knew that he wanted to request support from me for something, so I followed him
The interior decoration of the House today is completely different from the tasteful and refined little place it had originally been, the majority of it having taken a lavish route . The room that came with our bundle is of an exotic Persian style
Thereâs a big red woolen rug, a gilded low table inlaid with jade, a dense fragrance of frankincense and myrrh, brightly-colored hanging curtains, and a few Persian or Arabian songstresses that are playing instruments, every one of them draped in gauze, covered head to toe in precious jewelry and revealing clothes
We took our seats on the ground, facing quite a bit of exotic fruits like grapes, cantaloupe, and so on, as well as a whole roasted lamb . Lan Guan is extremely busy at the moment, but still rushed over to show his face . My G.o.dson said to him, âXiao Lan, you go do what you have to do first, Sir Zhang and I have an important matter to discuss . You can bring people over after half a s.h.i.+chen . We havenât seen Xiao Yun in quite a while . â.
Lan Guan smiled and agreed politely, said a bunch of social niceties, took all the songstresses and maids out, and considerately covered up the doorway
Seeing that theyâd left, Old Gao itched to look at me with a face full of tears . âFather Sir, please save your sonâs life . â.
I feign astonishment . âWhy for, Linxi?â.
Old Gao is completely dismayed . âThe investigation of the a.s.sa.s.sination attempt on His Majesty has fallen to this child and the Nine Gates Commanders, with the ten-day limit⌠though this child has sent a lot of experts, theyâve all been unable to find a single clueâŚâ.
I mumbled to myself, then called for Old Tian and Zhu to come in . âThis matter must have someone with unusual finesse and connections behind the scenes . The scope of this is not smallâŚâ Thinking about it, I feel that I still need Old Tian to keep watch over the center of my gunpowder development . I said to Old Zhu, âYouâre going to be going on a trip . You must take caution, and donât alert the enemy by any means . Go to the accounts room and take 3,000 liang first, then set off that day or the day after . â.
Old Zhu accepted the order and went
Old Tian withdrew to stand guard outside the room
Gao Yushu appears to hold no hope for Old Zhu, still looking very dispirited . Odd . Was he wanting to borrow Jinzi from me?.
I smiled and consoled him . âDonât worry, Linxi . Iâll speak on your behalf and get the time limit extended . â.
Old Gao turned his worry to joy, thanking me repeatedly
I speak again . âLinxi, it seems like youâve loaned a total of 80,000 liang from the Ministry of Revenue?â.
Old Gao is a wise man, replying immediately, âThis child will pay it back in full tomorrow . â.
I probe, âLinxi, do others not know if I still donât know? Have you ever been lacking for a trifling few thousands of liang? Why were you wanting to get a loan?â.
Old Gao is a bit embara.s.sed . âFather Sir, this matter has been concealed from other, but will not be concealed from you . Li Guozhang was the first to do this two years ago, borrowing 300,000 liang from the treasury to use for usury, and earning a lot this way . Many officials secretly followed in his footsteps . This child had a moment of itching in his heart and borrow 80,000, but found having to wait such a long time to be dull, and simply neglected to return it . â.
I laughed sarcastically . âSo thatâs how it is . â.
I had said that Li Minguo must have borrowed a lot of money, as back in the day when the Empress return to her paternal family, he had made a temporary imperial courtyard for her visit, yet the Li familyâs finances didnât go into the red
In any case, the Li family must be forced to repay their debt
Weâve just barely finished our conversation on this side when Lan Guan and Yuan Qingyun come in . That guy is still that prissy, nose-in-the-air sort, his smile unpleasant
I secretly think that the one of the very likely reasons heâs so popular is greatly related to all the skin contact . Seeing the more flattering, fawning, tender, charming, mellow, and eager-to-please type like Lan Guan, how else would the polar opposite Yuan Qingyun have any appeal?.
He leisurely sits at my side like before, and leisurely pulls me into his embrace like before . His hand stroked my waist, words tantalizing
This overall scene gives me a sense of dĂŠjĂ vu, but⌠I can cope with it a lot better than the first time . Iâve corrupted unwittingly, indeed
After three rounds of wine, Old Gao and Lan Guan have become somewhat unrestrained, doing some things that inevitably make my face secretly red and heart secretly beat when I see
Yuan Qingyunâs face gently caressed my own, his slightly alcohol-tinged breath replacing the my surrounding oxygen supply, messing with my own bit of intoxication, making my heart beat a little faster
âSir,â he almost completely held me in his arms, eyes lowered, looking down on me with a smile, using his drawn-out, honey-silk cadence to speak, âYou said some time ago that youâd find me to try things out . Qingyun leaned against the doorway every day, suffering in the wait, yet he didnât see you⌠could it be that youâre a deserter, Sir, and want to fall back?â.
I donât know what happened in this moment, either . Maybe it was the alcohol, maybe Iâd been provoked by certain things . I was fully aware that it was only a superficial means to entice me, yet I still smiled haughtily and said, âTo be labelled a deserter is something a man cannot allow . Is Qingyun trying to provoke me? That being so, Iâll stay here with you over the night . â.
Yuan Qingyun probably hadnât antic.i.p.ated that Iâd say that, as he stared a bit before a lazy grin slowly, slowly bloomed on his face . He says without rush, âQingyun will tidy up the bed for your stay . â.
*side-eyes ZQL*.
[1] 饞ĺ˝ĺ¤§čŁ â lit . âmajor minister appointed by posthumous imperial edictâ . Meant to be making decisions for the Emperor until heâs of age, hence the translated name [2] Emperor Yongzheng was good to the citizenry, less so to wealthy officials, even less so to his own brothers . He was fond of seizing their a.s.sets and exiling them .  Yunsi is a good example . Otherwise I have zero idea whatâs being said here because my knowledge of Chinese history is b a d.