Qin Min sat in the branches of the dead tree, staring blankly at the moon in the sky. But it wasnât long before she jumped off and went inside.
âMadam, should we leave a gate open just in case?â Shaoyao asked. Suppose the master came back?
Once he left, the servants did too, leaving just the two of them in this courtyard.
âHe means what he says, so he wonât come back. No need to leave any open,â Qin Min replied simply.
âMadamâŠâ Shaoyao chased after her, but Qin Min ignored the girl. In the end, Shaoyao couldnât help but exclaim, âMadam, youâre miserable arenât you? Very miserable?â
âGo to bed,â Qin Min said simply.
âMadam, just tell this servant if youâre miserable. Donât hold it in, youâll make yourself sick. Itâs impossible to cure heartsickness. Just say whateverâs on your chest, donât hide it and feel sad.â
Qin Minâs steps grew quicker as Shaoyao sped up her chase and kept talking. âMadam, say something! Iâm begging you, just one sentence. I understand your pain. You havenât spoken a word all night, just mopedâŠitâs not normal!â
Finally, Qin Min stopped and snapped, âYouâre the one whoâs abnormal!â
She was only feeling a little down, but Shaoyaoâs words made her feel like she should be downright miserable. But sheâd thought things through ages ago! That was the kind of man Gu Beiyue was. When he wedded her, it was because she was crippled in both legs and being pushed out as a random bride by the Qin Clan. Both of them had been consensual to the union, but once her legs recovered, he regretted it. He was an excellent man who was afraid heâd damaged her marriage prospects. The words he spoke today were all of one meaning! She wasnât as sad as Shaoyao claimed! She had only been quiet all night because she was puzzling over something she didnât understand.\nWhy did Gu Beiyue need a fake marriage to get a child? He was different from her; he could have his share of marriage candidates running to Medical City for a chance to wed him. He could even chase after his heartâs desire and have children with her, but why use such a convoluted method to gain a child? A fake heir to the Shadow Clanâs legacy? She was certain there was a huge secret afoot!
Shaoyao finally caught up with her, still insistent on her views. âBut Madam, you clearly like him. I could tell ages ago!â
Qin Min gave a start but quickly recovered to glare at her. âI like him, but does that mean he likes me? What kind of logic is that?â
Unable to retort, Shaoyao could only let her wander off.
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That night, Gu Beiyue did not return. But he wasnât far away. He was sitting on the rooftop of that very same teahouse, filled with worries for the first time in his life. It seemedâŠit seemed like he always had the best solutions to the empressâs woes to assuage them. But when it came to Qin Min, he had no idea how to deal with her or fix her problems. He had never regretted any of his actions, but he did regret this marriage. She was a lady in the prime of her youth, good in all aspectsâeven her personalityâbut why did she fall into his pit?
Her own marriage prospects had been delayed, but she had only furrowed her brows and said, âThank goodness, thank goodness. You gave me a fright!â It made him realize that he had not only sabotaged her happiness, but her heart.
He was back by morning the next day. Qin Min hadnât given him an answer to yesterdayâs words, but he didnât need one from her. The two of them went on politely with their interactions as if nothing had happened. They waited all morning, but neither Long Feiye nor Han Yunxi ever showed up. It wasnât until dusk that Gu Beiyue received Long Feiyeâs messenger hawk message saying that he was running to Changningâs salt fields to investigate a commotion and would be back next time. Han Yunxi also personally penned a message with the message: If you keep the hills green, you donât need to fret for firewood. Make sure you donât tire her out during this time.\nGu Beiyue was quite surprised by the letters. âChangningâs the neighboring county, isnât it?â
Shaoyao waited for the madam to reply. When she didnât, she said, âYes,â without enthusiasm.
Gu Beiyue laughed. âSo they came south to inspect the salt fields.â
Qin Min and Shaoyao were rather lost, so the former asked, âNeither the emperor nor empress are coming?â
Gu Beiyue was going to give her the letters instead, but suddenly recalled Han Yunxiâs words and slipped them into his sleeve instead. âMm, they left on urgent matters and wonât be coming,â he said, âEsteemed Empress told you to rest well.â
Qin Min hastiled replied. âYou must thank Esteemed Empress in my place!â
Gu Beiyue nodded and went outside. With a single shout, he summoned a guard from his hiding place. âGo call over Xi Yubo and the others. Have them bring along the child too.â
Both Qin Min and Shaoyao were stunned as they exchanged looks. There were guards hidden here? Since when?
Qin Min desperately muttered, âDid they overhear everything we said?â
Shaoyao only chuckled back, âMadam, donât worry. Itâs not like we said any lies, we only spoke honestly.â
Qin Min narrowed her eyes at her before Shaoyao realized she was too happy about this all and shut up.
Soon enough, Xi Yubo arrived with the nursemaid and child. He was only one years old and was an exceptionally pretty boy despite having unknown parents. Like a porcelain doll, his features were exquisite, with large innocent eyes and jade-like skin. The nursemaid had brought him up with Xi Yubo looking after him, so heâd never met any strangers. Besides walking a bit earlier than other children, he wasnât extraordinary in any way. Compared to children of other families, he seemed more tender and timid, especially against children like Tang Tang and Ruiâer. His nursemaid had led him along at first, but when he saw Gu Beiyue, Qin Min, and the rest, he lost all nerve and clung to her thigh while hiding behind her.\nâWhatâs his name?â Qin Min asked with an aching heart and growing affection. After all, this was supposed to be her and Gu Beiyueâs son in the original plan. She hadnât thought about him much since sheâd never seen him before, but now she realized the magnitude of yesterdayâs mistakes. Not only did she ruin Gu Beiyueâs plans, but this childâs ultimate fate. He should have grown up as the son of the Academy Head and Grand Tutor, the future heir to the Shadow Clan. Such a glorious, honorable title had all but disappeared from his hands. She didnât know how Gu Beiyue would deal with him now.
âHe doesnât have a name yet,â Gu Beiyue said simply, before the nursemaid chimed in quickly, âHis nickname is Shadow.â (ćœ±ć, Yingzi)
âWho told you to talk?â Xi Yubo chided.
The nursemaid shrank back while Shadow clutched her even more fearfully. Gu Beiyue knit his brows, but he didnât get to speak before Qin Min grew impatiently. âI was asking the big sis a question. Whoâs the one cutting in? Who are you, anyways?â It was obvious that the nursemaid doted on Shadow, or else she wouldnât have spoken up.
Xi Yubo glanced at his master and saw no reaction. Despite feeling resentful, he didnât dare say anymore. Qin Min dearly wanted to hold Shadow, but was afraid of spooking him. She faced the nursemaid and said, âBig sis, go on and hold him. Heâs probably afraid of strangers, letâs not scare him.â
The nursemaid hastily picked up Shadow, who wrapped his arms around her neck and held on for dear life. Qin Minâs heart ached at the sigh and looked towards Gu Beiyue. âAcademy Head, Iâll claim this child. Iâll raise him as my own flesh and blood!â
She knew that Gu Beiyue had fostered a son, but she wasnât sure what made this boy stand out in his eyes. Gu Beiyue only teased, âAre you trying to fight with me over the child?â\nQin Min wasnât sure what he meant until she realized that he wanted to take in the boy as a foster son.
âHave the child raised here. With the nursemaid and Doctor Xi looking after him, itâll be his fortune if youâre idle enough to look after him too,â Gu Beiyue said politely.
Wasnât his foster son hers too? Why was he being so formal about it all?
âIâm already a mother in nearly every sense of the word, so it makes no difference,â Qin Min grinned.
âThen Eldest Miss Qin should give him a name,â Gu Beiyue said.
Qin Min refused. âAcademy Head, it should be the father who names the child.â
Gu Beiyue smiled helplessly. âThen let me think it over carefully before I do.â
Just like that, they settled the matter of the child and had him move in with Xi Yubo and the nursemaid. Gu Beiyue had people arrange the courtyard accordingly and gave rooms to the doctor while the nursemaid and Shadow lived with Qin Min under one roof. As usual, Gu Beiyueâs own rooms were left unoccupied. Somehow, Qin Min even managed to acquaint herself with the boy within a day. From then on, Shadow followed her wherever she went. The big and small figures would send Gu Beiyue into distraction whenever he saw them. He never stalked Shadow on purpose, but whenever the boy looked his way, he would smile back. Gradually, Shadow stopped fearing him and even approached him while giggling happily.
Qin Min knew Gu Beiyue wouldnât stay long, but never expected his stay to be even shorter than her imagination. The man left for Medical City as soon as construction was finished in the back courtyard.
The beginning of the month heralded a new moon. Qin Min refused all followers as she walked with Gu Beiyue to the exit of the alley. He stopped at the entrance and said, âPlease still your steps, Eldest Miss Qin.â\nQin Min nodded. âSafe journeys, Academy Head.â
Gu Beiyue nodded with a faint smile before turning to leave, not a sentiment out of place. Still, Qin Min exclaimed after him, âGu Beiyue!â
Not expecting this, he turned back immediately. This was the first time this woman had shouted at him. WhatâŠis going on?
He looked at Qin Min and once again felt that she was quite different from the woman in his imagination.
âGu Beiyue, if you wanted a child, why not have one yourself? If you ever want your own flesh and blood someday, give me a word. IâllâŠâ Qin Min stopped.
Gu Beiyue subconsciously knitted his brow even as his heart fluttered in panic.
Qin Min suddenly grinned instead. âGive me a word, and Iâll divorce you.â\n