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Chapter 441 – Ordinarily Living
“W-what do you want to say? If you want to order me around, save it
 I-I won’t fall for it again.”
Lin Xiao has always been very brazen towards her and seldom serious. Xiao Hua knew that when he’s serious, he’s either planning on saying something corny to bluff her or using some logic to make her listen to him, anyways, nothing good will come of it.
“Don’t worry, I have no plans on ordering you, I just want to tell you something.”
“Oh, then hurry up and say it. The miss will be back soon and if she sees me alone in a room with you, she’ll beat me to death!”
“Hm, is she that violent?”
“Of course! It’s like she becomes a completely different person if it has something to do with you!”
“Hehe, really? Doesn’t that mean I’m very important to her? That’s great, so she cares about me that much
”
“Uh
 can you be a bit normal with what you’re focusing on?” Xiao Hua rolled her eyes and rubbed her cheeks, “So, what did you want to say?”
“Hm
 cough.” Lin Xiao gently coughed and got back on topic, “Xiao Hua, gathering information must be tough, right?”
“It’s alright, my ninjutsu lets me erase my presence so that I can blend in like a normal believer, so it’s not that hard.” Xiao Hua responded honestly.
Perhaps in Lin Xiao’s eyes, Xiao Hua was a ninja that hid in the sewers all day, but actually, her days weren’t too bad. She ate, lived, and dressed like a normal believer, it’s just that no one knew her identity.
Speaking of that, there’s something funny that happens
 because of Xiao Hua, every time Snow arranged accommodations, there would always be one extra person for some reason, and they would never be able to get to the bottom of it, like there was a ghost or something.
“But even if it’s not hard, you’re in a dangerous position.” Lin Xiao nodded and continued.
“It’s okay, the only ones that can see through me are that finger of death and third apostle, even your sister Snow cant see me, oh
 uh, I forgot she was blind, sorry.”
Xiao Hua accidentally said the wrong thing and awkwardly apologized.
Lin Xiao didn’t mind it and waved his hands, “Xiao Hua, whatever the case may be, you’ve been a big help.”
“Hm
 it’s nothing, I just spoke a bit with your sister’s servant.”
“No, it’s not something trivial. I just told you to find the spy, but you also went out of your way to help her
 if it wasn’t for you, my stubborn sister wouldn’t have the chance to open her mouth to curse me anymore.”
“It’s not that big of a deal
” Xiao Hua felt uncomfortable from being complimented, “So what did you want to tell me? No matter how much you compliment me, i-it won’t do any good for you.”
“I just wanted to thank you
 Snow doesn’t know, but I do, so there are some things that I have to say in her stead.”
Lin Xiao paused and walked right in front of Xiao Hua. He gently patted her shoulder and then looked her straight in her eyes.
“Xiao Hua, thank you very much for saving my sister, I will never forget this.”
“Eh? Y-you
”
Xiao Hua was stunned and never expected Lin Xiao to thank her so formally. She didn’t know how to respond at all.
What should she do? He was seriously thanking her, so she should at least say something, right?
She has always treated Lin Xiao as an annoying young master and never had a good attitude toward him, but now that he was sincerely thanking her, she can’t keep on giving him a bad attitude.
But
 how should she respond?
“Why aren’t you saying anything?”
Lin Xiao thought that she wasn’t saying anything because she wasn’t satisfied with his thanks, so he smiled and continued saying something even more shocking.
“Don’t worry, it’s not just lip service
 Xiao Hua, you saved my sister, so as thanks, I’m willing to do one thing for you.”
“
 W-what did you say? Can you repeat that?”
“I’m saying that I’m willing to do one thing for you, anything, as long as it’s within my power
 I can help you buy luxury goods no matter how expensive it is, like gold, gemstones, that’s what you girls like, right.”
“Gold and gemstones?”
“What, you don’t believe me?” Lin Xiao stuck out a finger and shook it, “I may be poor, but my friends are all rich! Not mentioning Rosie and Caesar, I saved Claire once, so if I asked her for money, she definitely won’t reject me.”
“Hm
” Xiao Hua blinked and still didn’t respond.
She trusted that Lin Xiao wasn’t lying, but she didn’t speak because she didn’t believe herself!
If she was shocked when she heard Lin Xiao thank her, now she was really confused! It was like she was in a different world and she was doubting her own identity.
She was just a servant and was serving others since she was a child and ordered around like a slave. She would already be very grateful if they were more considerate and treated her better and not always hit or scold her all the time.
Lin Xiao was different from the others, although he also liked ordering her around, he also worries for her safety and didn’t want her to take risks. He also sincerely thanked her after finishing her word and even wants to reward her?
Wasnt it a matter of course for the servant to help the young master? So why was he rewarding her, it’s unheard of!
“Are you really going to reward me?”
“Of course.”
“Helping me with something, or buying me something
 any of that?”
“Anything you like.”
“O-okay
 then let me think about it.”
Xiao Hua slapped her own cheeks and was finally sure that she wasn’t dreaming, so she began thinking.
She could get Lin Xiao to do anything for her, this is the first time in her life getting to order someone around. This was a new feeling, but she didn’t hate it and it felt comfortable.
But what was she going to get Lin Xiao to do?
She couldn’t think of anything.
She was a servant and was part of Shen Yue Ge, so she didn’t have much freedom. She also didn’t have any grudges, so she didn’t really have anything she wanted Lin Xiao’s help with.
As for money, she didn’t want any, even if she had money, she wouldn’t know what to do with it. If she actually liked money, would she even need Lin Xiao to give it to her? With her ability, she could easily steal as much money as she wants.
As for expensive accessories, she prides hherself on being a normal girl, she wasn’t pretty and her hoarse voice didn’t sound nice, even if she wore the most expensive accessories and the most luxurious clothes, she would still just be a servant girl.
Furthermore
 it’s not like she wanted to seduce anyone, so if she dressed up all pretty, who would she show it to?
The miss? The master of Shen Yue Ge? Or
 to Lin Xiao?
Hmph, whoever it may be, the only one she wouldn’t show is Lin Xiao!
Xiao Hua thought for a while and finally thought of a suitable response.
“Hm
 I don’t really have anything I want you to do, I just want you to treat the miss well, just promise me that.”
“Just that?”
“Yes, just that.” Xiao Hua nodded.
She was happy seeing ShenDai Ying happy, so only that had meaning to her.
But Lin Xiao shook his head.
“No.”
“No? Why? Did you say anything?” Xiao Hua almost choked and angrily questioned.
“Because I would have done that even if you never asked, so that doesn’t count
 also, I said I would help you do something, not someone else, so choose something else.”
“Hm
 then there’s nothing else!”
“Is there nothing you want to do?”
“No.”
“Nothing you want?”
“No.”
“People you care about?”
“Other than the miss
 no.”
“So you don’t have this or that, so what are you looking forward to in the future?”
“Future expectations? I don’t have any of that either.”
“Then what are you living for?”
“
 Eh?”
In the end, Xiao Hua was speechless and couldn’t respond to Lin Xiao’s question.
Yes, what was she living for?
She was an orphan and almost starved to death before ShenDai Ying brought her home and saved her. So naturally, she became her servant, at that time her life was pure and simple, she was fed well, she was warm and slept well too, that was her whole life.
Then she was recruited into Shen Yue Ge because of her natural talent and her life completely changed.
She didn’t know what kind of talent she had, she was just a completely normal servant, but the master told her that her normalness was her talent. Then he trained her into an outstanding spy, she was responsible for information gathering while also being ShenDai Ying’s personal liaison.
From that time on, she really didn’t know what she was living for anymore, if she had to have a reason, it was probably for ShenDai Ying.
But Lin Xiao was now asking for a meaning to her life other than ShenDai Ying
 did she have something like that?