I splendidly cleared the escape mission, but what happened was far from fine.
After coming home safely, I went to see Mother. It was also to greet her as I returned home, but mostly because I thought I made her worry. I donāt particularly care about Father, but I didnāt mean to make Mother worry.
At any rate, she probably knows the situation to a certain degree, but itād still give me a peace of mind to explain it.
Thinking so, I arrived in front of Mother, but contrary to my expectations Mother made a troubled face and said such.
āIt is unthinkable, but you did not return without permission, did you?ā
Hearing those words, I stiffened. Crap. Certainly, I didnāt leave behind even a letter.
Seeing my gaze wander about, Mother guessed the situation. She breathed a sigh, and with a cough began her sermon.
Eh, why did it turn out like this.
I couldnāt keep up with this unexpected development.
This is the first time mother got genuinely angry at me.
Honestly, Iād thought sheās a quiet and docile person, so I was surprised by her unknown side.
I was so surprised half of what she said went over my head.
Motherās sermon continues. I took the victorious attitude of earnestly repeating āYesā āSorryā.
Thanks to Father I understand.
At such times, I canāt unskillfully talk back.
It provokes more anger, and only prolongs the scolding.
Because Iād received sermons from Father for every little thing every few days, I learned of the method to make them end as quickly as possible.
But to sermonize me like harshly scolding a little child, I became depressed.
Or rather, I wonder why Mother weaves in words like ātomboyā or ācarelessā here and there. It cannot be, besides Father, did Mother feigning her innocence got exposedā¦
Even when Father scolded me the other day Mother was on his side, so perhaps itās the case.
ā⦠That should be enough, go to your room. But, do not do something like that anymore, okay?ā
With this these words Motherās scolding that eroded my mental strength finally ended.
Already dizzy, I could do nothing but obediently nod to Motherās words.
I was allowed to return to my room, and as I ascended the large staircase in the spacious lobby, I thought.
⦠I understand well. Iāll be extra careful from now on. Mother is somebody who mustnāt be angered.
I returned to my room and sat on the sofa. Drinking tea brought by a maid, I could finally take a breather.
ā⦠Iām tiredā
I flopped on the sofa. Itās okay since nobodyās watching.
Drinking my favorite blend of black tea I finally felt I came home. Mother might have got mad that I returned home without permission, but Iām glad to be back.
Because, in that situation, even if I honestly said I want to go home I donāt think heād let me.
Iām not being conceited. I clearly felt such strong intent from Freed.
I wonder what Mother would think about that.
In the first place, if Iād stayed in that constrained place obediently, without any of my things, how in the world would I spend my time.
Even if I were told to just roll around and wait for Freed, I absolutely couldnāt agree.
⦠But, this is a serious problem.
I raised my body and again started thinking.
Itās a fact that itās been decided Iāll marry him in half a year.
That much is fine. Iāve already agreed, and the engagement ceremony was grandly held.
Fast horses must have been immediately sent out to foreign countries, after all the Crown Prince of a major country got engaged.
Unmistakably itās spread all around the world.
But, I need to take some measures before the wedding.
To marry there means having to endure spending free time there.
I absolutely donāt feel like being locked up even when I finish my work as the Crown Princess.
Bringing something to kill time is essential.
Whatās more, I need minimum freedom. I think Iāll have to implore Freed for that.
If itās impossible⦠Yup, Iāll use force.
Whatās left is, what to do about what happed this time.
Mother also said it earlier. Think a little more about your behavior.
Thatās to say, I have to manage more skillfully from the next time, itās something like this.
Of course, as my Mother ordered, I have no objection about apologizing to those I caused trouble for, starting from Clara.
Itās the truth I really didnāt say anything, causing trouble for all sorts of people.
Letās lower my head any number of times necessary.
But, Iām also growing. If thereās a next time, that time I for sure wonāt blunder.
Let me show that if itās something like a letter even I can write it.
As expected, thereās no way I can honestly write āIām bored so I went homeā. Putting knowledge I was taught as a Dukeās daughter to use, Iāll compose an exemplar letter paying attention to phrasing and decorating it with beautiful words.
Iām a child who can do it if she tries.
But, suddenly I noticed a certain fact.
If I overdo it, wouldnāt it become āhypocritical courtesyā.
Thatās that. If Iām too polite, instead itāll turn impolite.
āHmm. Achieving balance is surprisingly difficultā¦ā
At what degree should I stop. I thought I could use flowery words freely, but it seems better to stop.
I drank the tea once again.
⦠Alright, letās rethink from the beginning.
Having a little fun thinking about the next time I escape, I started getting engrossed into the topic of what kind of letter should I leave behind to be successful.
āOr, what if I use āinvisible inkāā¦?ā
Theyāll surely be surprised. But, if they fail to notice thereās a chance Iāll be scolded like this time.
Thatās no good. Iāve had enough of it with this time. I detest being scolded.
Without noticing the direction of my thoughts went awry, I groaned unable to reach a conclusion, when I heard loud noises downstairs.
I came to my senses hearing that.
It seems maids are making a commotion.
Concerned abut the sound, I stood up.
I looked at the antique wooden clock hanging on the wall.
The time is early afternoon. Itās still too early for Father to come home, so perhaps a guest came.
Concluding that at any rate it doesnāt have anything to do with me, I once again immersed myself in thought.
However.
āLidi!! Did you come home!!ā
āGehā
Before even thinking about who the person raising the voice, I frowned.
The owner of the voice seems to be going up the stairs. I can hear such sounds. I clicked my tongue as it looked quite clear he headed for this room.
Why did he return to the mansion.
He should have returned to the mansion in our territory to train as the successor a year ago. I havenāt heard heād be returning to the Royal Capital.
āLidi!!ā
The door opened with a bang.
I glared at the man who intruded without permission.
The man who entered without any reservations is my older brother. Of course, heās my real older brother.
Brother, who looks just like Father, is wearing an extremely flashy red justaucorps. Itās decorated with aiguillette made of gold and silver threads. You can tell at a glance itās an appearance a noble who went to the castle. Regardless, I unintentionally knit my brows. Truly unacceptable. Looking at Brotherās bottom of the neck, I breathed out a sigh.
The cravat that shouldāve been beautifully tied, was atrociously disheveled.
Conversely, it may suit him, but as expected I donāt think so.
A maid I havenāt seen before who followed him looked at Brother who entered and the stock-still me with an apologetic face. But, thereās nothing to worry about. She must be unaware, but this is the default for this man.
Being told she can withdraw, the maid bowed and went back.
When just us two were left in the room, I courteously bowed to him.
āIt has been a long time, Elder Brother. You have visited me in an awful hurry, do you have some business with me?ā
As a revenge for invading my room as he pleased, I gave him an overly polite greeting, but Brother didnāt seem to like it.
He brushed up his hair like silver threads and looked here.
āWhatās that. Are you harassing me?ā
āI do not understand the meaning of what you have said. In the first place, is it not Elder Brotherās attitude that is usually fraudulentā
Brother mastered feigning innocence.
Iāve seen it happen at the evening parties several times, but Brother with his vulgar words and behavior, can thoroughly conduct himself elegantly if only he feels like it.
I donāt know how many times Iāve thought donāt be deceived by that sham when seeing young ladies spellbound by Brotherās gentle smile.
Brother who inherited Fatherās good parts has wastefully high specs.
His aristocratic behavior driven into him from young age is flawless in public without any gaps to take advantage of, I could only be amazed when Iād heard about his popularity among young ladies from a friend.
Let me emphasize, Iām not aware of whatās there to be fascinated by.
Thatās how the usual Brother is.
Seeing Brother appear irritated, feeling relieved I decided to suspend the harassment for the time being.
He specially came from the territory. He must have some business here.
Thereās no reason to waste time.
Thinking so, I took a breath, and looked in Brotherās direction.
āSo, why are you here, stupid brotherā
āOi, youāre calling the future prime minister stupidā
He returned in an annoyed tone. I responded curtly to Brother who flared up.
āIdiot is adequate for a man who enters ladyās room without knocking. Could you stop that already?ā
āThereās nothing to be worried about. Or what? You having sex in this room?Ā Then, as expected Iāll consider it?ā
āHa? What are you saying, thereās no way I doā
I looked at my grinning Brother with frigid eyes.
Heās been like this from old days. Itās too stupid to treat him with courtesy.
Instantly realizing who he meant, I became lost for words.
āAināt you embarrassed. I understand. These hickeys. You sure are lucky? Theyāre Freedās, right?ā
ā!!!!ā
In panic I ran towards the full length mirror to check out my neck.
A groan leaked out when I saw many red marks of ownership.
I havenāt noticed at all!!
As I recalled Will saying itād be better had I stayed in the room, I wanted to bury myself from shame.
So thatās what he meantā¦!
The red marks that flaunted the fact of our love affair became unbearable.
While looking at me cower while covering my neck, Brother said in admiration.
āThatās amazing. Iāve never been like this. That Freed seriously fell in love with you, but youāre still feigning innocence?ā
What an amazing innocence , when Brother laughed from the bottom of his heart, I once again scowled at him.
āIām not feigning anything. Older Brother, you also know, right? I have no reason to feign innocence after having an encounter at such a placeā
Itās Brother who was asked to investigate by Father. Thereās no way he doesnāt know.
āI guess. Still, that guy fell in love with the true you. In a sense, heās a strong personā
āAnnoying. Idiot brotherā
āSo bashful. Nobody will say anything since itās an officially recognized relationship. The Crown Princess is greatly favored by His Highness , that is spreading around the castleā
āGive me a break!!ā
Donāt look at me with such lukewarm gaze.
Or rather, even though the opportunities to visit the castle will increase from now on, being looked at with such eyes is too harsh.
Seeing me sit down and hold my head, Brother grinned.
āWhat are you saying. Youāre already a celebrity, yāknow? The castle has been in an uproar since yesterday as His Highness brought a woman to his roomā
ā? Whatās unusual about it. Hadnāt Freed brought in as many women as heād wanted until now?ā
Iāve heard from my friend Marianne that heās a famous playboy.
Thatās why, I thought itās natural heād bring women into his room.
When I said that, Brother made a difficult expression and scratched his check.
āAh, you seem to be misunderstanding, but you are the first woman he brought to his room, okay?ā
ā⦠Really? Iāve heard heās a playboy thoughā
āI aināt doing it for him, but Iāll correct whatās different from the reality. Itās been only half a year since he started sleeping with women at masquerade balls. He hasnāt brought even one to the castle, in fact before that he hadnāt messed aroundā
ā⦠So thatās how it isā
Certainly when Marianne talked about Freed she used the expression ārecently appearedā.
Come to think of it, Father also said Freed has his circumstances.
āI donāt really careā
Thatās what I really think. Itād be different if he made an illegitimate child, but I have no reason to learn about details of Freedās past relations with women.
When I stood up and put it bluntly, Brotherās eyes widened.
ā⦠Itās your usual masculine remark. I donāt think there are many women who can honestly say thatā
āReally? I donāt want infidelity or adultery, but even if Iām told about what happened before we met, I canāt do anything about it, can I?ā
āYouāre right. But well, as that Freed said heād tell you his circumstances, listen if you have a chanceā
āCircumstances?ā
āThe reason he went to masquerade balls for half a yearā
ā⦠Ahā
Itās the root cause why I ended up caught by Freed.
It doesnāt really matter as itās already over, but for now I nodded.
Seeing me agree, Brother said alright , and fixed his gaze on me.
I felt an aura of scolding rise up.
āThen, returning to the story, why did you go to the masquerade ball?ā
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