Outaishihi ni Nante Naritakunai!! Chapter 248
While on the way back to the room together, Freed muttered so.
When I looked up at him next to me, I saw Freed watching me with gentle eyes.
âLidi, thanks to you, Esteemed Father and Esteemed Mother could have an opportunity to talk. Until now they couldnât even do that. Lidi, Father is also grateful that you created this chance.â
â⊠I didnât particularly want gratitude.â
âYup. Even so, Iâm grateful too. Thank you.â
Somehow, he became serious. Iâm not good with this kind of atmosphere.
While I was troubled, Freed changed the topic.
âHowever, for Esteemed Mother to be Esteemed Fatherâs mate. I want to accept it, but after all it feels questionable.â
Before, I told Freed my guess that Mother-in-law is His Majestyâs mate.
From his perspective, it mustâve sounded like a bolt out of the blue.
Even now heâs shaking his head.
âNn? I wonder. I think His Majestyâs attitude was quite blatant.â
âHowever, Esteemed Motherâs attitude was like that. Youâre amazing to think of reconciling Mother and Father in that situation, Lidi.â
I was unconvinced by Freedâs words.
Because, I thought of acting because Mother-in-lawâs attitude bothered me.
âHmm. Mother-in-law, huh. To me she looked lonely. I thought she wasnât showing her true feelingsâŠâ
âTo bring everything together with that alone, I really canât look make light of your ability to take action, Lidi. It makes sense you escaped me so many times.â
âL, letâs not talk about that anymore⊠Well, you can thank Lady Helene giving me plenty of hints for me moving like this. It wasnât just my power.â
The secret that she confidentially told me. That she has another person she loves.
That was the original trigger.
She has another person she loves, and yet sheâs earnest.
That was when I started considering the possibility that she isnât sleeping with the King.
Because, thereâs no way she could call herself earnest if she had feelings for another person while sleeping with her husband, the King.
When I thought so, various things made sense.
First of all, Lady Helene didnât look tired at all.
Lady Helene wasnât a mate and didnât have stamina recovery medicine, so it was strange that she alone could accept His Majesty, whoâs matchless like Freed.
Moreover, the question Lady Helene asked me.
She said things like, âHow many times a week does he call for you?â or âAfter all fresh lovers are differentâ. Supposing she had a sexual relationship with the King, I think she would ask the same things as Mother-in-law, like âIsnât it painful how matchless he is?â or âIsnât it troubling to be persistently desired every day?â However, Lady Helene questions sounded as if she were a young lady without any experience asking to satisfy her curiosity. No matter how I looked at it, I found it strange.
Furthermore, and I think this was decisive, itâs been fifteen years since she was summoned as a concubine.
Despite not being able to have a child, she showed no signs of despair.
Thinking about it, itâs natural. You canât have a child without doing it.
She had no reason to be depressed over not being able to have a child. I thought that might be the case.
And then, the question was why he didnât lay his hands on a concubine he married.
Wilhelm royaltyâs libido is strong. The King couldnât embrace Mother-in-law, so why didnât he go to the concubine he could legally lay his hands on?
Wasnât that because the King already had a mate and couldnât get an erection to anybody except her?
Freed too said it. When you find a mate, you canât see anybody else as opposite sex.
Surely, Lady Helene wasnât the target of the Kingâs sexual attraction.
Because, his mate was Mother-in-law.
But for Mother-in-lawâs sake he entered into concubine contract with Lady Helene.
To not torment Mother-in-law anymore.
The King mustâve been thinking of her in his own way, but I donât think his choice was correct.
Because, Mother-in-law was hurt by him marrying a concubine.
Otherwise, she wouldnât slight her husband for the long period of fifteen years.
Certainly, a concubine was something Mother-in-law brought up herself.
However, after all that wasnât what Mother-in-law truly felt.
Werenât the words âI want you to marry a concubineâ meant to be a test from a wife to her husband? I cannot help but have such a feeling.
Things might have turned out differently if the King had said, âI love you, so I donât want toâ.
I think if he said, âI donât want anybody but youâ and hugged Mother-in-law, she probably wouldnât have become so obstinate. But when the King ultimately married a concubine without saying anything, Mother-in-law chose to close her heart. And turned her back on her husband and son.
âI hope Mother-in-law can be honest a little.â
When I exhaled thinking of Mother-in-lawâs stubbornness, Freed too frowned doubtfully.
â⊠I guess itâll be quite difficult. But well, I think my father will do his best this time, so it should work out somehow.â
Freed nodded and then made a face like he recalled something.
âBefore I brought him to the garden, I told my father what Iâd heard from you, Lidi. My father had no idea. That if he doesnât talk, he wonât be understood. He thought his attitude was transparent enough.â
âUnexpectedly, men are often such people.â
Heâs been telling me he loves ever since we first met.
But, if he hadnât told me, I feel like I wouldnât have accepted him so quickly.
Itâs exactly as Freed says. Without saying it, you wonât be understood.
Aah, itâs a little different.
Women (perhaps men too) are cowardly creatures, so we wonât know if we can believe without being told.
Itâs troubling to guess from attitude.
So upon hearing it put into words for the first time, we think âMaybe I should believe it?â
âNn? What is it so suddenly?â
Freed blinked his eyes at my sudden declaration of love.
âYup. I think itâs as you say, Freed. Unless you put it into words, you wonât be understood. Thatâs why I tried saying that I love you.â
Convinced, Freed broadly smiled. With both hands he lightly lifted me, who was walking next to him.
Just like that I was spun around. I started feeling dizzy and let out a shameful shriek.
âWait⊠Freed, donât spin me around⊠Hyaaaaaa.â
âI know. I know, so⊠why are you spinning me arouuuund?â
âI feel like it, I guess?â
Freed put me down and sweetly smiled. As for me, I felt sick from the world spinning in front of my eyes.
I staggered from dizziness before Freed once again lifted me in his arms.
âYouâre dizzy, right? Iâll take you to the room like this.â
âW, whose fault is itâŠâ
In a good mood, Freed started walking. Then he said.
âLidi. About our previous talk, I entrusted it to my father. He approved, so perhaps things will advance right away?â