Outaishihi ni Nante Naritakunai!! Chapter 203
Today is my daughterâs wedding dress fitting.
My daughter, whoâs hardly come home since New Year, seems to be unchangingly loved by His Highness.
I can understand how much His Highness cherishes my daughter from rumors I hear from my husband and my surroundings.
Since I hear my daughter too is all over His Highness, it might be inevitable for her to not leave her lover who sheâll soon marry and return home.
But, me being lonely is a different matter.
My dear daughter whom I gave birth to. That daughter will marry into the Royal Family in two months and become a member of royalty. When that happens, that child will become the Crown Princess.
It will become difficult to casually enjoy tea.
I feel very lonely that despite this my daughter doesnât seem to mind at all and doesnât seem to want to come back home.
Even if I understand children are like this, after all itâs still painful.
Thatâs why Iâm looking forward to meeting my daughter for the first time in a while today.
âRosina, arenât you too excited?â
When we boarded the carriage, my husband talked to me. I asked my husband to send me to the room where Iâll meet my daughter, and he accepted. Rather than having royal guards who I donât know well lead me, I will be relieved to have my reliable husband do it.
âAra, itâs because Iâll see Lidi in the wedding dress first. Iâm very much looking forward to it. Sheâll surely be beautifulâ
âAre you envious? Fufu, but you canât. No men are allowed today. His Highness too will surely be vexedâ
I fended off my husbandâs glare with a smile.
Our daughter seems unaware, but my husband canât help but hold her dear. Everybody in the mansion except our daughter knows.
Such a daughter will wear a wedding dress. Even if heâs relieved that sheâll marry His Highness, as her parent he must feel complicated about it.
âArenât you a selfish personâŠâ
â No matter what I will marry Lidi to His Highness! You were saying things like that, and now that itâs decided, youâre in a bad mood. If you show that face to Lidi, maybe that child will notice sheâs loved by you a little?â
â⊠If Lidi is happy, then itâs fineâ
âYeah, youâre rightâ
I agreed with my husband who told me so despite being sullen.
Heâs my husband. Supposing he judged our daughter couldnât become happy, heâd break off the engagement no matter what it took. Even if itâs what he had wanted.
My husband who wished for our daughterâs engagement with His Highness for her sake, wouldnât hesitate to break off that engagement also for her sake.
I think itâs very wonderful of him.
âLidi can marry her beloved. Iâm gladâ
My husband looked at me as I muttered so.
I replied to him with a sweet smile.
âSheâs the same as me. Lidi will surely be happyâ
It seems our daughter clearly told my husband yesterday. That she loves His Highness.
I wonât tell my daughter, but my husband was weeping yesterday in our room that heâs truly glad.
Surely even if I told her, she wouldnât believe it.
âAah, itâs been a long time since Iâve been in the Royal Castleâ
The carriage stopped. Because I had no reason to visit the castle recently, itâs truly been a long time. With my husbandâs escort I alighted the carriage, and together we walked inside the castle.
Thereâs no guide, but there are Prime Ministerâs guards.
On the way, seeing my husband everybody gave a slight bow. I kept in mind to walk a little behind my husband who calmly responded to that.
Itâs been over twenty year since we got married, but I havenât regretted marrying him even once.
âI absolutely wonât make you regret it. Be with meâ
Incidentally I recalled the words he said when he proposed.
I worked as a court lady in the Royal Palace. As a daughter of a wealthy merchant family, I entered the Royal Palace as a court lady to learn good manners. I became friends with Clara at that time.
âCut it out. Rosina. You are surely being deceivedâ
I and my husband met at the Royal Palace. It was my husband who was calling out to me. At first, I didnât take him seriously, thinking Iâm just being teased, but before long I was taken with my husband who often showed up and enjoyably talked with me.
The head of the preeminent ducal house. In contrast, I was nothing but a daughter of a merchant family. I was resigned that our status was too different to marry, but my husband removed every obstacle and reached out his hand to me. The words at that time was the line just before.
My beloved had done so much, there was no way I wouldnât respond positively.
I nodded to the proposal right there and decided to resign from the Royal Palace.
It was Clara whom I told first at that time.
ââââ That I will marry him.
I was suddenly getting married without saying anything about it before. And my partner was the preeminent Duke.
I understand Clara was against it thinking about me.
Even when I was scolded about why I had never told anything before, I couldnât answer.
⊠I hadnât expected to be able to marry him. Thinking about my partnerâs position, it had been better to not tell anyone. Itâs exactly because I had thought like this that I couldnât tell Clara.
âIâm sorry. But, Iâve already decidedâ
âIf you marry that man, I will never again meet youâ
As I shook my head at Claraâs words, she said so as if it was a final warning.
But, even though she told me that, I wouldnât stay there.
I had already decided to trust my husband who had showed me his sincerity.
It was useless to say anything else. Thinking so, I silently turned my back to Clara.
ââââ Since then, over twenty years have passed.
Sheâs achieved the position of Head Court Lady and works energetically in the castle.
She seems to be like cat and dog with the husband I married, even so despite those quarrels she appears to be doing well.
I havenât met her since, still Iâm delighted to secretly hear about her activities.
And to my surprise, she now takes care of my daughter.
What a quirk of fate. I can be relieved that Clara is on my daughterâs side.
âRosina? You look absentminded, are you alright? Weâve arrivedâ
â⊠Ara, Iâm sorry. Thank you, dear. Iâm alrightâ
âThen itâs fine⊠Lidi will come in a while. Wait in this roomâ
âI have work. I canât comeâŠâ
âIt was said men are forbidden, right? Jeez, youâre prone to worryingâ
While worriedly looking back again and again, my husband walked to the office. I waved my hand to such husband and entered the room Iâd been guided to. Inside the room were dress craftsmen, all of them bowed at once in silence.
Looking nervous, one craftsman said.
âPrincess Consort will come in a little whileâ
Exactly as stated, my daughter came right away. Seeing my daughter enter the room, I became lost for words.
In the time I didnât see her, my daughter has become very beautiful.
Her skin is glossier, her expression gives off faint seductiveness. Her straight light brown hair thatâs same as mine is more lustrous than before.
My daughter is wearing an open chest dress, but what drew the eye was the big tattoo.
Itâs the Kingâs Flower.
My daughterâs Kingâs Flower that I see for the first time gracefully covered the left side of her chest as if to assert its existence.
ââââ This is the proof of His Highnessâs princess consort.
A large blue tattoo that demonstrates His Highnessâs obsession with my daughter. It strangely suited her.
Itâs visible at a glance that sheâs loved and treasured by His Highness. She seems to be shining from inside. Seeing my daughter so obviously happy, I was relieved from the bottom of my heart.
âCome back home every once in a whileâ
I hugged my daughter whom I saw for the first time in a while. I honestly showed my feelings.
Yes , while I lovingly stroked my daughterâs hair, she nodded so again and again, and incidentally I noticed the woman behind my daughter.
What happened later is difficult to put into words.
She gave me words of apology, and we hugged and cried.
She hasnât changed at all in over twenty years, it was simply nostalgic.
âIâm sorry, Lidi. Today is a day for your sake, and yetâŠâ
âNo, if Mother is having fun, I am happy as wellâ
Seeing my daughter smile truly happily, I felt tears well up again.
⊠Sheâs grown into a good child.
Same as my son, my daughter is a child who makes all sorts of messes, but sheâs gentle at heart. Iâm very happy His Highness understands that.
âBe happy with His Highnessâ
Yes , I once again hugged my daughter who nodded so honestly, and I bid farewell.
I left the room together with Clara who will see me off to the carriage.
âI am glad she looks happyâŠâ
âYeah, both His Highness and Princess Consort unmistakably love each other. Itâs alright, Rosina. Iâm sure theyâll be wonderfully close King and Queenâ
When I nodded with a smile, I heard a voice from behind.
It was my husband who appeared. Apparently, he came here to see me off.
My husband and Clara made very unpleasant faces when their eyes met for a moment, but without saying anything they stopped at simply averting their eyes.
⊠Perhaps itâs out of consideration for me.
Clara detests my husband for what happened to me, and my husband doesnât like Clara for being hostile to him for being my husband.
Both are my favorite persons, I wish they could get along, and if not I wish they at least wouldnât fight.
âClara, thank you. My husband came, so this far is fine. If you like, could you write me letters? Iâll also write themâ
âItâs enough, right. Weâre going, Rosinaâ
âYes yes, see you, Claraâ
I nodded to my husband who impatiently called my name.
I bid farewell to Clara and took my husbandâs hand.
While walking, I looked at my husbandâs profile.
â⊠We managed to make upâ
I told him so in a mutter. My husband knows he was the cause of the break-up between me and Clara.
Perhaps for that reason, after a short pause he answered.
â⊠I see. Iâm gladâ
Whatever his feelings are, my husband still was happy for me.
After all, Iâm glad to have married him, I smiled a little that I hadnât made a mistake.
â⊠Lidi was very beautiful. Look forward to the ceremony in two monthsâ
When I additionally mentioned the state of my daughter, my husbandâs eyebrows dropped slightly.
I pretended not to notice it.
âI hope a bride will also come to Alexâ
When I changed the subject, this time my husbandâs eyebrows scrunched.
Seeing this, I giggled a little.