Lidiās PoV of the novelization commemoration story.
This is also a what-if.
Iāve fallen into a terrible pinch.
An unprecedented big pinchā¦
Right, in front of me is Freed in the military uniformāāāā.
āāā
Uhhyaaaaaa!!
Since a while ago, the inside of my head has been a great disappointment.
Itās exactly the return of the Military Uniform Festival. Far from just a portable shrine, in my head fireworks are flashily going off.
Taamayaa. Kaagiyaa.
Ah! No no no! What are you thinking, me!!
Quickly return to sanity!
Of course, I remember having Freed promise to wear the military uniform. If anything, I felt dissatisfied that he hadnāt fulfilled it, so to be honest I have nothing but thanks that the military uniform appeared in a surprise attack. Iām happy enough to start praying.
Butāāāā.
I stole a fleeting glimpse at Freed.
And turned my face away in vexation.
ā¦ Thatās bad. Heās too cool.
Freedās appearance in the jet-black military uniform with a stand-up collar is, how should I put, so perfectly to my taste that itās difficult to breathe.
Smiling at me, Freed looks sparkling. With him like this, I can only shiver.
ā¦ No good, I canāt bear it.
I have no choice but to run away now. Itās impossible to get close. Itās enough to observe from a little distance.
Despite shuffling backwards, I didnāt stop gazing at Freed wearing the military uniform. Ultimately, I ended up running away with a strange posture.
But, of course Freed wouldnāt allow that.
āLidi? Why are you running away?ā
Cornering me with a smile, Freed was making a bad face.
Heās hateful, asking for the reason even though he absolutely understands it.
Heās already noticed I find military uniforms moe, and I also admitted it.
Even before I noticed I love him (provisionally), my heart was beating so much I thought Iād die. Thereās no doubt about that.
Moreover, recalling how deliciously I received him who used that knowledge, itād be foolish to deny.
Itās an embarrassing story, but afflicted by the Military Uniform Festival I let him do as he pleased, I can only say I want to forget that dark past.
āā¦ Ahā
I was slowly retreating, but with a knock my back finally hit the wall.
I canāt escape backwards anymore. While I was thinking that I have no choice but to escape sideways, arms blocked the way out.
ā¦ This is the so-called kabedon.
My head boiled over from the unexpected situation and I fell into panic.
What is this, what is this, what is thiis!!
ā¦ Itās extra moe.
āā¦ Bad. Kabedon in a military uniformā¦ Itās so moe Iāll dieā
I didnāt notice voice left me. Thatās how excited I am.
Freed who drove me to the wall brought his face close.
Itās so excessive I canāt keep up. Through my high performance maidenly filter, Freed looks 50% more lovely compared to his usual appearance in the military uniform.
What I am trying to say isā¦ itās so moe I no longer have a way to express it.
I can tell my heart is pounding so hard it feels like itāll explode.
My face too should be bright red. Even if I canāt see it, I can grasp my condition. I even understood my eyes turned into hearts from the splendid contrast of the black military uniform and the golden aiguillette.
After all, heās cool. Extremely cool.
I can only say that Freed is cool.
At this rate Iāll seriously get a nosebleed and bleed to death.
Even though I was seriously thinking that, he began further assault.
A kiss was dropped on my lips.
Unlike the usual, he only sweetly touched, but even that had enough destructive power. I understood my knees lost strength.
Freed hurriedly supported me with one hand.
Itās surely a serious illness that my heart pounded anew from that pose.
He can do whatever he wants. Or rather, please embrace me. Iāve turned into a mess.
āLidi? Say something?ā
Freed asked so even though he understands. His voice was so enchantingly sweet I became more and more useless.
Having suffered complete damage, my situation was so difficult it took my all to speak.
Even so, since I had to say something, I spoke.
āU, mmā¦ Itās veryā¦ coolā
Unable to say anything else, I hung my head. Freed happily dropped plenty of kisses on such me. The spots he touched felt hot like burns, I was so embarrassed I thought Iād cry.
Really, what should I do. Iām so happy I feel Iāll burst into tears.
An irresistible feeling for some reason welled up from the bottom of my stomach. When I looked up and saw him gently looking at me, I felt a tight grip on my heart.
Before I noticed, I put that feeling into words.
āFreed, I love youā
At that instant I came to my senses. Eh, what did I say? Didnāt I say something foolish like love.
Thinking back upon my words, I wanted to bang my head against the wall from the extent of my foolishness.
What am I saying? Just what am I saying!?
Even though I still call it (provisional), even though I still havenāt confirmed it, why am I saying I love him! Isnāt it strange!!
My brain fell into a great panic at this abrupt situation.
But, itās too late now that I said it. My words already rushed out.
When I nervously looked at Freed, he was staring at me with a face like he was about to begin crying any minute.
Uwah, I feel like running away.
What do I do. Itās not an atmosphere where I can say it was a mistake.
Be that as it may, I canāt say something like, Honestly, itās (provisional) to me, ehe. While wondering what I should do, in desperation I ultimately decided to hug him.
Anyway, the first one to move wins.
āLidi, I tooā¦ā
Probably heās going to say something like love you .
If he finishes like this, the meaning of my previous words will be set in stone. Thatād be troubling.
āThat formal wear! I really love you wearing it!ā
Though my words may be strained, to deceive him I covered his words with mine.
For an instant Freed solidified like he didnāt understand what he was told, and then blatantly dropped his shoulders in disappointment. My heart hurt seeing him like that.
āā¦ Thank you. Itās most important that youāre delightedā
Although the voice he squeezed out made me feel guilty, since I managed to deceive him, I let out a breath.
Howeverāāāā.
Itās natural, but after all Freed minded it more than I thought.
What followed was the promised act.
He was more tenacious and persistent than usualā¦ In the end he didnāt let me go until the next morning.
I canāt disobey his military tone.
No matter how many times I entreated him that any more is impossible he wouldnāt stop, even after I fainted the act continued. How many times was I rocked until my limitā¦ I seriously thought Iād die.
Itās been a long time since he embraced me like thisā¦ It sank deeply into my mind just how dejected he was. I canāt even blame him, since I perfectly understand I was paying for my own mistakes.
I had no choice but to go along with it while reflecting from the bottom of my heart.
After being crushed in his embrace for a long time, the next morning while I was seeing off Freed, whose face showed no exhaustion, from the bed, I decided to take the restorative medicine with Ms. Delrisās stamp.
Iāve had my fill of the military uniform for a whileā¦
āThe Military Uniform Festival is incredibleā¦ā
With the medicine in my hand I quietly muttered.
Letās postpone the next time I make that request until Iām certain I love Freed.