chapter 15

'I thought that such a day would never come again . I thought that I will never hold her in my arms again . . . '

"I no longer love Chizuru . " Believing that, Luklov survived these four years .  That's why he no longer seeks her .

　That was the only way he could live, as the only one, that lived after the sacrifice those two did .  

　As long as Lukrov gave up Chizuru, they were still alive .

 

　The sun set and became dim, and the little room that he gave Chizuru slowly became immersed in the darkness .

　Lukrov which had been persistently holding on to his lover, who came back from another world, many times because he was driven by endless rising desires, was covered in sweat .

　'But it is not enough . '

　 Unless he carved himself into her body, Lukrov's soul could not have any peace .  It was a mystery whether I could get such a thing done, one day .

　Chizuru's body, which he had held so violently, turned pale, and the sweat that one couldn't tell whether it was hers or Lukrov's, and white liquid were everywhere .  At last, Lukrov traced the limbs of Chizuru, who lay down faintly, with regret .

"Hmm……"\n　A sweet, soft voice leaks through her cold lips .

　The gentle voice that fills Lukrov's chest, just like the sound of a bell coming from heaven, is no different from his memory of 14 years ago .

 

　There can never be such a thing .

 

　Fourteen years changed everything in Lukrov .  He is now many more years older, has experienced hell, lost friends, and lost his heart .

　Now, Lukrov has no idea how to love her . He who lost everything and got old .  With the young and pure Chizuru, who hasn't changed from 14 years ago .

　Even the slightest remnants of the sunset spilling through the window were sufficient to illuminate the presence of Chizuru in the eyes of Lukruv . .

　White and soft skin with no scratches .

　Delicate and slender limbs, a sensitive chest .

　Her silky, thin and lustrous black hair spreads out on the bed without a single crack . \n'I remember I loved putting my finger through this hair .  And, worst of all, when I touch her hair again like this, I still feel as hot as I did back then . '

And above all, Chizuru seemed to have the same feelings as she had 14 years ago .  With her gentle and gentle heart, she melted the frozen heart of Lukruv .  The memories of the innocence between the two of them quietly revives in the heart of Lukruv, who is sealed in the deep ice again .

'That was when I was happiest in my life . . . '

　The distant past that he should have given up on getting back .

　Lukruv was set in ending living his life by devoting himself to ruling this remote land .

　How much pain do you think one has to live before a person can make that decision?

"You don't know anything . . . you don't know"

　Lukruv muttered, irritatingly, hiding his voice .  "You won't recieve any love from me . . . Did you believe in that? Idiot"

　Love is still there .  There is no doubt that it stands in front of you like a huge and robust rock that you can't turn your eyes off .

　However, Lukrov no longer knew how to overcome the gap of 14 years .

 \n　Since giving up on Chizuru four years ago, Lukruv tried not to think of her, and lived with hope that someday his thoughts of her would disappear .

　And it had been gradually successful, at least while the sky had the sun .  With the exception the times when she came to him in a dream, like a ghost would come when the night and the darkness came, Lukrov was learning to live alone .

　He lived ten years in hell and four years in emptiness .

 

　In addition . . . he was able to endure lossing her once .  But the second time, he wouldn't be able to .

　'What would happen if I were to lose her again . . . ?'

 

　In the gloomy room he was watching Chizuru, who was completely exhausted and was asleep .   He could hear the footsteps of a person approaching, the footsteps of a woman .  He had a general idea of who was coming

　A short knock hits the door, and immediately Arde with a candle enters the room .

"Chizuru-sama, dinner is ready . . . "

　The maid, who noticed the shadow of the owner of the castle on the bed, in the darkness, turned her head down and said, 

"Oh . . . sorry . . . dinner is about to begin . . . "

"I don't care, I told you to come and call Chizuru . After a long journey, she's tired and has already fallen asleep . I'm not going to the dining room tonight . Tell everyone that . "

"Yes . "

　Then, as she was about to start asking questions, Lukruv made his forefinger approach his mouth and made a sound between his teeth .

"shh"

　His other hand continues to stroke Chizuru's hair .  Arde turned her face which was red without any difficulty, and after she bowed, she hurriedly closed the door . 　

 

　In the darkness of the night, Lukrov ,while holding on to Chizuru who was sleeping never thought that he was such an idiot .