āSister Ning, Sister Ning, wait! Iāll tell the truth. I was just afraid that you wouldnāt believe me if I told the truthā¦ Just wait!ā
I stuck my foot into the elevator. Sister Ning, who was inside, wiped her tears as she went bonkers, rapidly pressing the ācloseā button. Fortunately, our elevatorās quality was good enough to not amputate my foot. I stood in front of the elevator because I couldnāt go in. I didnāt dare to pull my foot out for I was afraid Sister Ning would leave by herself if I let her go.
Sister Ning yelled at me at the top of her lungs as she continued vigorously pressing the button: āGet lost!! I donāt want to see you!! I donāt want to be with you! Please, spare me! Please! Stop pretending to be a good guy, okay? Stop clinging to me! I really canāt and really donāt want to bear with this heart-wrenching pain! Please! Please!! Zhu Liangzhe, spare me!!ā
I was worried management would come up at that rate.
āYou knew long ago, didnāt you?! You knew long ago, didnāt you?! Just as in the past. You knew I canāt leave you! You knew I could only stay by your side forever back then and now and canāt even run from you! I have to face you despite the immense pain! What wrong have I done?! What wrong have I done to deserve this treatment?!ā
Sister Ning violently smashed the buttons one last time. Of course, it was ineffective. She grabbed her hair in a crazed fashion then sat in a corner of the elevator and cried. I pushed the door open and tried to gently pull her up. Alas, she ignored me. She hit me anded push me. I grabbed her hands with a tight hold to ensure she wouldnāt run off to the ground floor. She was wearing her sleepwear, after all. Plus, we couldnāt let people see us dishevelled and quarrelling. What would they think? A spousesā spat?
āSister Ning, Sister Ning, please listen to me, although I know that youāre guaranteed to not believe my explanation, which is why I didnāt tell youā¦ā
It took a lot of effort to finally pull Sister to the entrance of the elevator. I spoke in a loud voice but wasnāt angry. I just wanted to tell Sister Ning the truth. Admittedly, the truth was incredibly strange, but it was the truth. Furthermore, it was impossible for me to explain the truth. What was I supposed to say? Was I supposed to say, āThe truth is, Iām dead. These are my moms and wives I met after I transmigrated to another world? I went through a bunch of things with them, and weāre currently living a life thatās questionable on all levels?ā
If I said that, Sister Ning would think that I was lying through my teeth or even mocking her. Nobody would believe something so outlandish. Hence, I pondered, āSo, what do I sayā¦? Whatās convincing? Sister Ningās feelings can be put aside for the meantime; however, I need to calm her down first and foremost.ā
āWhat else do you want to say?!! What else do you want to say?! Is hurting me once not enough for you? How else do you plan to hurt me?! Yes, I like you; I always have. Iāve always wanted to be with you, which is why Iāve always been by your side. I always thought I had a chance. I always believed that, yet you brought back four women with better bodies than me who also like you! What are you trying to suggest?! You want to hurt me over and over again?! Why are you treating me this way?!!ā
Sister Ning wasnāt remotely calm. She punched and kicked me. No, her attacks didnāt feel comfortable, soft or whatever else; it hurt. All I could do was do my best to support her on her feet. Her tears flew onto my face. I did my best to hug her because I didnāt know what to say or do.
If I didnāt die and was still alive, Iād say that being able to be together with Sister Ning would be the happiest thing in my life. How could I not like her? Honestly speaking, I was always aware I liked her. How could someone not like her when they were with her? Sadly, I had an inferiority complex in the past. I felt so inferior that I couldnāt find the courage to confess my feelings. Iād be ecstatic if I got to go out with her on the weekend to see a movie, have a meal and buy her some bubble tea. I never thought she liked me. She treated me as an elder sister would treat her younger brother. Hearing her confession came as a surprise.
I was back, breathing the oxygen there, listening to the cars, recharging my cell phone at home and Sister Ning was crying in my embrace. Everything felt realistic, but I knew I could no longer return to this world. The fact that the four of them were here proved that everything I previously experienced was real. I really was living with Nier, Lucia, Luna, Ling Yue, Freya, my daughters and the White Deer King in that world. What was in front of me couldnāt possibly happen. I couldnāt return from the river, for I died at the time. Everything before me was an illusion.
In spite of Sister Ningās tears feeling cold, my heart feeling wrenched as I listen to her woeful cries and her expression of despair. It was all fake. Still, because I couldnāt give Sister Ning happiness even in dreams, I was upset. I made her suffer in even in her dreams. I had no means of giving her bliss. After I died, she mustāve been heartbroken. I didnāt get to see her tears at the time. I didnāt need to see those who liked me in pain, yet I saw it today. Not to mention I was the cause.
āSister Ningā¦ Sister NIngā¦ Iām sorry. If possible, Iād definitely confess to you. If Iām still around, if I still canā¦ I can guarantee that Iāll always like you.ā
Sister Ning ran out of energy from her breakdown. She weakly leaned on my chest, not because she was admitting defeat.
Since it was all fake, if I confessed, I presumed it wouldnāt impact the normal timeline. I shouldnāt be alive at this point in time. I didnāt have Luciaās dagger on my back, either. Ā I thought that, if I came up with a reasonable reason, I might just be able to convince Sister Ning to accept my explanationā¦