Yoona asked back. They were also veryobsessedwith [Arcadia], and because they were experienced with item prices, they knew I had asked for an unreasonable price.
However, I was rather happy that Yoona asked that. Although my heart thumped, for some reason, I didn’t feel like negotiating.
Therefore, without holding back, I answered like a real merchant.
[Me]
[Because I have nothing much else for sale…ㅎ]
[If that’s not possible… We can say there was no deal ㅎ…]
Usually, if I spoke like that, aiming to buy at a low price and sell high, I would be criticized, but the issue was that I had not properly grasped what kind of person Yoona was.
[Yoona]
[lololol ah okay]
[The account please]
But it seemed like I didn’t get any cold-hearted response in return.
“……They’re buying this?”
[Yoona]
[If you try to negotiate a higher price though, from now on out it may be difficult for both you and the agent to access more trades ă…Žă…Ž]
[Yoona]
[Also, cover the back of your cell phone number and ID card with your account and send it to me]
[I’ll make a deal in-game with YoonaYoonaㅎ]
And before I answered, Yoona soon texted again [I’m online, where are you?]. They acted in such a firm, decisive manner that I was unable to refuse.
* * *
Deposit:Im Jihyuk/ 18,000,000 won
I earned a ton of money. The number18,000,000won, even 1,800,000 won on the recorded deposit details, was like a dream,but as I stared at the text, my mood was getting more and more complicated.
[Hyejin]
[oppa how much did you sell it for?]
[Me]
[18 million won…]
[Hyejin]
[wow lololololololololololololololololol rly?]
[i respect you…]
[yoona ahjussi must be really flusteredlololololol amazinglololololololol]
[Hyejin]
[oppa how’s being a stage 2 netkamalololol]
[maybe this time try getting involved indirty stuffwith yoona…??]
[ㅎ…]
[Hyejin]
[ah its a joke lol oppa is mine lol]
Meanwhile, while giving soulless answers in response to Hyejin’s chatter, my thoughts got even more messed up. I, who only drearily answered back with [ㅇㅇ…], after depositing the promised 100,000 won to Hyejin, told her I was tired and lied down on the bed.
“oTYY……. Wd TJBTB Uq mTYY.”
I tossed and turned since sleep wouldn’t come even when I laid down. It was uncomfortable as if I was being pressed down, even when I tried to rationalize it as being due to either retribution or my successful revenge.
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Also, I wanted to clean up my feelings towards Shin Heejae which were getting more complicated, and like this, towards this guy who had never beendeceivedonceand had screwed me over, I felt a sense of unfairness.
But right now, listening to Shin Heejae’s lone voice, I finally came to realize what I was pretending not to know.
“What is this? Can you not hear me?”
“…….”
Actually, when I sold the staff the reason I was hesitant wasn’t because I pitied Shin Heejae, and it wasn’t because of the chance to take more from him in the future either.
I…….
I didn’t want to admit it, but I liked Shin Heejae quite a bit.
“Noona?”
Now that I think of it, when I was in school, due to being hit by life’s hardships I couldn’t go out with friends, and after that my social life was already in reality’s gutter so I didn’t have any energy left to form a good relationship with someone.
Like that to the point I was barely maintaining my relationship with Hyejin, who I met ingame. However, with Hyejin there was definitely also a gap that couldn’t be mended.
Then, Shin Heejae appeared.
Because Shin Heejae liked me very much, he strived to cross the line I drew without end, and while I didn’t try, Shin Heejae constantly put in my share of the effort.
No matter how much I loathed, cursed, or scolded him, he wasn’t discouraged, and I may have ended up falling for the easygoing and persistent personality of the guy that constantly approached me. Since I couldn’t hate Shin Heejae as much as I had before.
It wasn’t that I suddenly started liking men because I changed my gender. However, I couldn’t make Shin Heejae as miserable as I had resolved to. I didn’t want to admit I wasswayedand kept pushing away my thoughts, and eventually, the delayed results ended up coming up like this.
“…….”
I regretted it.
Selling Yoona the staff.
And now I realized my regret. But through what method would I find and come back with an already sold item. And……, There was no excuse I could give Shin Heejae.
At the same time, I realized why I had ignored these feelings at the end.
Perhaps, if I had not sold and given over the staff this time, I would have continued to deceive Shin Heejae. So in the end, somehow, the result of this impulsive decision was for myself.Shin Heejae had almost lived on blankly, deluded due to my burrowed loneliness.
My mind was made up. and my mouth was firm.
Everyone // Party // Clan // Friend // Whisper
[Everyone] [Sesam: i slept]
“Okay. Then let’s play now.”
Everyone // Party // Clan // Friend // Whisper
[Everyone] [Sesam: i want to sleep more]
“Are you joking? If you’ve been sleeping since before…….”
Everyone // Party // Clan // Friend // Whisper
[Everyone] [Sesam: dont call me]
Like that, I unilaterally cut off his words, and hung up on Shin Heejae who had been jokingly saying something. Then I even turned off the phone completely and quit the game that had been open.
Shin Heejae’s character which was hanging around nearby caught my eye, but I quickly finished logging out.
* * *
As usual, after finishing the draining work, I woke up after falling asleep just like that. I turned on the phone I had left off earlier, and starting from Shin Heejae, seeing there were quite a lot of messages, I read them all.
Shin Heejae’s last message was this.
[Heejae]
[noona are you okay?]
And even though I had left just like that, I didn’t feel any anger from the message. But I felt a sense of embarrassment towards each message sent between 1~2 minutes ago. Anyways, Shin Heejae also seemed to astutely feel that this wasn’t a teasing kind of atmosphere.
“Haah…….”
I felt a bitter taste in my mouth while reading Shin-Heejae’s caringly sent message. The chat, full of yielding words trying to somehow understand the rude manner of the other person,hurt my heart.
However, it was better for both of us to properly cut ties now……. No, I believed that this was the last line I could cross with a conscience when dealing with Shin Heejae, at least. Without replying, I mechanically turned off the computer.
For now I had logged into discord, but of course Shin Heejae was in an offline state. I felt relieved that he wasn’t connected, thinking that it was unknown if we would have another conflict.
Looking at the last message sent, I felt like I would fall asleep after staying up all night. I thought it was a relief that it was anirregular time. I was a person too, and I didn’t want to bother him, saying insincere words until the end.
I entered the clan members room in the discord. In there, I checked the profile of the announcement image that Shin Heejae had put up. This was because I had a flash of memory and remembered that Shin Heejae had put up his name and bank account number there.
Luckily, as I remembered, Shin Heejae’s account number was written on the profile.
Chocolate Bank – Shin Heejae ××××―××―××××××
The cost of the Clan Festival issplit equallyper month. For those with difficulty paying using in-game currency, please send 2,000 won each.
I immediately transferred 18 million won to that account number. Seeing the empty bank account, I only felt relief, and no regret.
I then accessed the character Sesam and during that time, returned all the items I had received from the clan members. Among the members, some talked to me the moment I sent the mail, as if they had checked as soon as they had seen it.
Everyone // Party // Clan // Friend // Whisper
[Clan] [Yewoo: huh? sesam-nim can keep using this though]
I didn’t respond.
Then, I unlocked all the equipment Shin Heejae had given me. After that, I tried to send mail to Heejae’s character, but I couldn’t because forsome reasonhis mailbox was full, so I sent all the items towardsHeenyang-ie. All of the little money and items I had remaining were also included.
Will you divorce user “Heejae”?
Yes  //  No
You have successfully finished the divorce.
After also finishing with [Arcadia]’s convenient divorce system, now all that was left to do was to leave the clan.
I knew that quitting the clan would be announced in the clan members’ chat channel, but I had no intention/thought of playing this game again anyways so it wasn’t something to hesitate over for me.
I found [Manage Clan] and pressed [Leave Clan].
Everyone // Party // Clan // Friend // Whisper
[Whisper] [Yewoo: ??? sesam nim what are you doing???]
[Whisper][Lemonade: sesam nim;;]
[Whisper] [Yewoo: Did something happen with the clan master??]
The whispers sent by the clan members I had gotten a bit close to poured out, but I didn’t answer. It wasn’t even anything good, so there probably wasn’t any need to explain word by word. They would likely feel betrayed, but I didn’t have room to care to that point.
I, who escaped to the character selection window as if being chased, selected the character Sesam and went as far as to press the delete character button. It was written that since the character was max level, it would take a week for it to be deleted, but the state of the deletion request had been entered normally.
“Haah…….”
Only then did the thought of it being over and the quick completion of everything surge out as a deep delayed sigh.
But, there was still the biggest obstacle left. I wondered whether I should reveal to Shin Heejae that I was a guy or not.
Was it better to keep making him misunderstand that I was a girl? Or, is it right to clarify to prevent him from even keeping any lingering feelings, and disappear.
While considering what I should say to Shin Heejae, I kept erasing and then repeatedly rewriting several sentences in the chat window.
I considered apologizing instead, but the idea wasn’t very attractive. This was my pride that remained until the end. Shin Heejae also behaved severely towards me, but didn’t even remember.
Now that I looked at it that way, I suddenly got annoyed, and thought that if I went to the point of apologizing in this cleanly organized situation, it would seem as if I had regrets.
Alright. Let’s just block him like this.
“…….”
However, I couldn’t press the block button in the end.
And, I threw the phone on the bed at the side and left it there.