Shin Heejae, not knowing how I felt, tried to meet with me more persistently after the siege.
âNoona, you said you lived at ĂĂ city, right?â
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[Party] [Sesam: yeah]
âThatâs perfect.â
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[Party] [Sesam: ?]
âItâs exactly an hourâs drive from my house.â
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[Party] [Sesam: lolol just moved to hawaii]
âAnd thatâs our honeymoon destination.â
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[Party] [Sesam: please shut up]
Honestly, I wasnât sure of myself. Originally, I planned on just taking Shin Heejaeâs staff and ditching, right?
ButâŠâŠ. Even though the staff was in my hands, I regularly logged into the game. While criticizing that Shin Heejae bastard, who I couldnât even reason with, we played together.
âHave I really become fond of this bastard?â
While asking this, I got angry again because I wasnât able to deny it right away. Now, instead of being mad at Shin Heejae, I felt more ashamed of myself.
Even the act of Shin Heejae was not asking me to return the staff, was probably him letting it go because he trusted me.
Then, even if it was right to shit on that trust, every day, I just log on and play with Shin Heejae.
The clan members also know that Shin Heejae and I are dating online, and I canât exactly deny it eitherâŠâŠ. It was this kind of slow situation.
Unable to do this and that, should I say it felt like I was being held tight. Getting really stressed, and feeling a longing to do somethingâŠâŠ.
âNoona, perhaps, youâre not a misogamist, are you?â
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[Party] [Sesam: a misogamist with you]
âAh, why.â
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[Party] [Sesam: no interest in younger people]
âDonât regret it later, Seyoung-ah.â
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[Party] [Sesam: what are you saying?]
âA noona I know told me that. She said as time went by, she liked young men.â
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[Party] [Sesam: then go out with her lolol]
âPerhaps, are you jealous?â
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[Party] [Sesam: lolol? can you not read?]
âAh, why wonât you do it for me. It was something I said on purpose.â
I found Shin Heejae to be gross, but also funny. No, honestly, I canât even hold back my laughterâŠâŠ.
But, it seemed like that was the problem. I felt like even if he was a bit less funny, he would still be able to stand out right away. Should I say, itâs fun⊠While I criticize him, Iâm also curious about what kind of things heâs going to say.
âNoâŠâŠ.. What am I curious about? Am I crazy?â
I suddenly came to my senses.
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[Party] [Sesam: i said i would never date you]
I said so with a forced straight face, butâŠâŠ
âI took a screenshot of this.â
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[Party] [Sesam: what?]
âLater when I marry noona, I should show you.â
Shin Heejae didnât seem to mind. I was taken aback by his ridiculously confident attitude.
No, should I really go meet him? I let it slide because I thought heâd startle if he knew I was a man. But this bastardâŠâŠ.
While muttering about it, I tried imagining meeting Shin Heejae. I thought about what expression he would make when he saw me.
My mood fell as I thought of a contorted, handsome face. It wasnât pleasant. More than anything, this guy wouldnât just frown.
âI feel like heâd hit me at least twiceâŠ..â
And when I imagined the situation, Shin Heejae was bigger than me.
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[Party] [Sesam: hey]
[Party] [Heejae: yeah?]
[Party] [Sesam: are you good at fighting? ă ]
[Party] [Heejae: ă _ă ?]
[Party] [Heejae: iâm the best in arcadia ă .ă v]
[Party] [Sesam: no asshole are you good at fighting not the game]
[Party] [Heejae: in order to be the best in arcadia there are some things I have to give up⊠ă _ă ]
[Party] [Sesam: lolol]
Shin Heejaeâs silly answer made me laugh a little, but soon I straightened my expression and slapped myself on the cheeks. Lately, the control of my facial muscles have been loosened because of responding to such ridiculous words.
AnywayâŠâŠ. By the way Shin Heejae said it, I gained a little courage. In a joking tone, I brought up the main point that I wanted to ask him.
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[Party] [Sesam: hey]
[Party] [Sesam: if]
[Party] [Sesam: the person you thought was a woman was a man]
[Party] [Heejae: Â ?ă _ă ]
[Party] [Sesam: then how would you feel]
[Party] [Heejae: whats that ă .ă ]
However, I wasnât ready to suddenly explain why to Shin Heejae yet. I couldnât answer and stuttered, then managed to squeeze out a new story.
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[Party] [Sesam: i mean⊠i⊠got tricked by a netkama once?]
[Party] [Heejae: a netkama?]
[Party] [Sesam: yeahâŠ]
[Party] [Sesam: we became close because he said he was a girlâŠ.]
[Party] [Sesam: he was a manâŠ..]
It was a good and plausible made-up story. However, Shin Heejae, who had been listening until now, suddenly turned on the microphone and asked me something.
âSo thatâs why you asked me if I was good at fighting?â
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[Party] [Sesam: huh?]
âTo ask me to punch him?â
âNo, you crazy bastard!â
I answered with a straight face.
[Party] [Sesam: no what are you talking about]
[Party] [Sesam: why are you punching all the sudden?]
âNo, you said he pretended to be a woman and tricked you. Isnât he a perverted bastard.â
ââŠâŠ.â
âNoona, possibly, you arenât saying you wonât meet me because of that guy, right?â
As I blankly listened to Shin Heejaeâs anger at virtual netkamas, strangely, I fell into a very bad mood.
What do you mean, theyâre perverted bastards?âŠâŠ no, itâs not like I did it because I wanted to be a netkama, you were the one following me first while calling noona, noona, aloneâŠ..
As I made regretful excuses internally while not knowing who I was making them to, Shin Heejae, who was unaware of my mood, started getting ahead on his own. Well, him saying I could go download my citizen ID card was just nonsenseâŠ. In the end, Shin Heejae added something with a dry nuance.
âNoona. I can prove it. Itâs embarrassing. ButâŠ.., If noona wants it, wellâŠ. I can also show you everything.â
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[Party] [Sesam: ?]
I thought for a moment about what he was saying, and then my anger flared up.
[Party] [Sesam: sh*t if you try sending a picture of your p*pper? report immediately]
[Party] [Heejae: i canât even say that big things are bigâŠ]
I realized that Shin Heejae wanted to slowly come out and make dirty jokes. I decided to beat him right away. Shit, do I have to play games now while making sex jokes with this bastard?
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[Party] [Sesam: lolol among the bastards who claim that theyâre big, there werenât any big ones?]
[Party] [Heejae: so you should have met me first, seyoung-ah ă ]
[Party] [Sesam: die dont speak bullshit]
[Party] [Heejae: now i understand why seyoung is always angryâŠâŠ]
[Party] [Heejae: itâs because you met a small man noonaă ă ]
[Party] [Sesam: i think youâre the smallest man iâve ever met]
[Party] [Heejae: hm lolololololololol]
As Shin Heejae laughed, the conversation ended like that. But unlike before, I felt dirty.
âShin Heejae.., shit. Heâs gotta be bluffing, right?
I couldnât control my irritation and blocked his character. Then I moved to another village, but Shin Heejae followed me right away. He turned on the microphone and spoke.
âNo, what is this block?â
âDie⊠youâre really going to be sentenced to death by your remarks today, you punk.â
âHm. But, noona, are you not going to tell me more about that netkama?â
ââŠâŠ.â
âI said Iâm not like that pervert?â
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[Party] [Sesam: just before, the person all fired up about their p*pper was who?]
I said it as a way to tell him to please shut up, but Heejae tactlessly replied while giggling.
âThat word is too lewd.â
âThis bastard really must have a sexual obsessionâŠ.â
I logged out, convinced of his illness. I felt that if I hung out with him more, he would tell me things I didnât want to know.
However, as soon as I turned off Discord and the game, I got a phone call from Shin Heejae. I didnât answer the phone and turned on âno disturbance modeâ.
Shin Heejae whined on messenger soon after the phone call was automatically rejected.
[Heejae]
[noona]
[seyoung-ah ă .ă ]
[lolololololololololololololol ah come back]
[i wont do it anymore]
[Heejae]
[no, but noona said something dirty first ă _ă âŠ]
I read his message and tried to think it over, but I couldnât just let go of his disgusting act of shifting the blame.
[Me]
[damn you lolol thatâs what it seems like because you always think about that kind of stuff]
Before I could curse more, Shin Heejae admitted it, so I lost the will to criticize him. Unsurprisingly, Shin Heejae was an antisocial pervert. Even if I fought with a guy like this, I, as a normal person, couldnât win.
âNo, but I really feel dirty.â
When Shin Heejae kept calling ânoona, noonaâ I didnât really think much of it. But I felt a bit through this conversation, that I wouldnât know if this bastard was using me as a side dishâŠ.. No way, with the hand picture I sentâŠ.
âIf this guy knew I was a man, really, heâd be shocked.âŠ.â
I tried to laugh, but my frowned brow didnât ease up.