âDonât cry and speak slowly. Whatâs going on?â
ââŠThatâsâŠâ Koo Hui-seo slowly continued to speak as he rubbed at his tear-laden eyelashes. âThat day, Kyungman-ie⊠his condition suddenly worsened. He kept throwing up whatever I fed him⊠So.â
âAh.â I had forgotten about Koo Hui-seoâs brother for a while, though his words made me recall the guy. Rather, itâs more accurate to say I recalled the guyâs demise more than his face.
When I remembered that terrible scene, my brows furrowed, but I tried to calmly look into the ex-chimeraâs eyes.
Perhaps he understood my silent urging; Koo Hui-seo hurriedly began to speak again, âS-So⊠I was going to call a doctorâŠâ
âBut?â
Before answering my question, Koo Hui-seo adopted a miserable expression. His desperate bearing reminded me of a man whose precious property was stolen from him.
But, he soon wiped away his tears and confessed, eyes downcast, âI was flustered⊠while the attending physician was on his way, I let him out of the bed brieflyâŠâ
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âAt that moment⊠I thinkâŠKyungman-ie tried to take his life.â
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âPerhaps he knew that, unless he did something now, he wouldnât be able to avoid giving [birth]âŠâ
SoâŠIt seems like Koo Kyungman tried to escape his situation while Koo Hui-seo was momentarily careless.
Although my relationship with Koo Kyungman was terrible, his situation was honestly worthy of sympathy from any human being. If I were him, I would have gone insane far earlier.
However, Koo Hui-seoâs expression tugged at my heart when the other talked about Koo Kyungmanâs attempt at death⊠The ex-chimera seemed ignorant of his own desperate expression. So, I asked him a pointless question, âDid Koo Kyungman-ssi die?â
ââŠNo. He hasnât died.â
âThen, perhaps⊠were you feeling guilty?â
âWhat?â
âThat is to say⊠Koo Kyungman-ssi is your younger brother. Well⊠things donât work out necessarily exactly the way you want them to go. Your emotionsâŠâ
However, contrary to my expectations, Koo Hui-seo blinked as if he couldnât understand me. His expression strangely reminded me of Lackeyâperhaps I shouldnât have said anything.
To be honest, if he had any human heart left, he would have killed his brother sooner. Giving Koo Kyungman death now would be like an apology.
âThen, why does he have such a sorrowful expression?â I glared at Koo Hui-seoâs pallid face.
He still looked blank, as if he could read nothing from my glare, and suddenly asked, âDo you think I regret this?â
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I had no answer to his question. This time, I was the one who was struck speechless, so I simply shrugged. Koo Hui-seo must not have expected much of a response eitherâhe didnât dig any further into that line of thought.
Soon, an awkward silence fell between us. Fortunately, this disquieting calm didnât last long.
âExcuse me. Then⊠Then, Hui-seo-ssi must have stopped Koo Kyungman from dying, then⊠What happened after that?â I asked after some reflection.
Koo Hui-seoâs shoulders flinched, as if his mind was on other things, before replying meekly, âAh, yes⊠I tried to stop Kyungman-ie, but he suddenly attacked meâŠâ
His answer was quite flooringâI was surprised that Koo Kyungman had enough energy to resist. Cutting off the ex-chimera, I flung further questions at him. How on earth did he attack? Perhaps itâs a bit strange to point this out, but he had no limbs to attack withâŠthe only thing that could move on that body was the neck. Did he tear at the ex-chimera with his teeth? âKoo Kyungman attacked Hui-seo-ssi? HowâŠâ
ââŠKyungman-ie understands my unique constitution well.â Koo Hui-seo closed his mouth with a complicated smile, as if he didnât want to explain any further. Of course I wanted to probe and learn more, but Koo Hui-seo cut me off. âAnyway⊠I still overpowered Kyungman-ie.â
ââŠ..Right.â
âIn the end, I ended up falling asleep as well.â With that said, rubbed his face several times as if he somehow blamed himself for acting foolishly.
Of course, I couldnât understand anything with that sort of explanationâI shot him a curious look. Annoyingly, as soon as he and I locked gazes, Koo Hui-seo began to match the timing of his blinks to mine. Faced with the impenetrable wall of the ex-chimeraâs lack of perception and tact, I had to interrogate him further. ââŠExcuse me, whatâs wrong with sleeping? Youâve already overpowered Koo Kyungman⊠or did your brother have an accomplice there? Actually, if you said you slept, how did you walk all the way over to my home?â
âAh.â Perhaps Koo Hui-seo finally understood my confusion, he continued to explain, âActually, I stabbed myself with a knifeâŠto try and wake up.â
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âI accidentally cut myself too deep⊠I thought I would die. Just then, I thought, âwouldnât Lee-kyung-ssi have a solution?â SoâŠâ
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âBut, by the time I arrived at Lee-kyung-ssiâs dorm, I was already almost half-asleep. My memories are quite fuzzy. I probably caused you much trouble before the fuse of my consciousness snuffed out, but⊠I wasnât in a good enough condition to explain or argue about anythingâŠâ
Of course, his words were still incoherent. As soon as I crossed my arms across my chest, Koo Hui-seo nervously rolled his eyes and fidgeted, âUh, mm⊠I shouldnât fall into deep sleep.â
ââŠWhy?â
âWhen I sleep deeply, I have nightmares.â Koo Hui-seo tapped his head with his index finger. âThat wouldnât be a problem when Iâm in a good condition. However, when Iâm notâŠâ
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âIâll fall asleep for a long while. WellâŠthatâs normally not a huge deal, butâŠâ
âUh huhâŠâ
âBecause your blood and mine have mixed together, things have gotten complicated. Itâs gottenâŠworse.â
My mood slightly dampened because I felt like he was blaming me; in any case, I felt like I was slowly grasping what the ex-chimera was trying to say.
If I understood correctly, [Koo Hui-seo has nightmares when in a horrid physical conditionâthe tussle with Koo Kyungman led to that condition. Therefore, before he could fully fall asleep, he came to me for help].
ââŠWait a minute. Why would someone try to hurt themselves in order to wake up just because of a nightmare?â
Furthermore, itâs unbelievable to think he could sweep others around him into his nightmares.
Naturally, I had never experienced this sort of situation before, and Koo Hui-seoâs attitude caught my eye. I pondered what was so strange when suddenly an idea occurred to me.
âDoes Koo Hui-seo know what sort of state his body is in?â
Most ill folk may not realize how broken down their bodies are.
I recalled Kim Olim and Seo Dawonâs conversation when Koo Hui-seo had first arrived at my house. The ex-chimera was not a normal human, and his mentality was different from normal modes of thought. Iâm not particularly knowledgeable about mental illnesses, but even I could tell the man was short-sighted and cruel.
Therefore, it was hard to take Koo Hui-seoâs babbles at face value. Rather, perhaps itâd be more accurate to say that the ex-chimera didnât understand his situation either and constructed child-like theories based on his short-sighted judgment.
âMay I ask why you donât want to have nightmares? You must be incredibly scared of falling asleep if youâre willing to scar yourself to chase it away.â I asked him another question to confirm my theories.
Koo Hui-seoâs pupils began rolling around as he stammered significantly and rambled. âM-Mother appears⊠Also, Iâm aloneâŠâ
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ââŠ.Ah! Also, if Iâm injured in my nightmares, the injuries are still there when I open my eyes⊠C-Come to think of it, Lee-kyung-ssi has broken his leg⊠S-Sorry.â
ââŠâŠItâs alright. Disregarding thatâŠyou said that injuries attained in the nightmare appear in real life as well?â
âYe~esâŠ.â
As I looked into Koo Hui-seoâs vacant eyes, I was certain. âThis place⊠Itâs a place made from Koo Hui-seoâs [skills].â
Before he was trapped in the hospital, he was the next guildmaster of the Red Dragon Guild; he must have been a User.
âThough, it seems like his memories of his time as a User have either dissipated or distortedâŠâ
Since the body remains intact, perhaps he was able to access his old skills?