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Chapter 06 Part 1[BLAKE]
My eyes widen as Sehun took a bite at my neck. I canât move from my position because he was holding my arms tightly. My heart is beating so loudly that I feel like my chest will explode. My knees feel like theyâre weakening, and I feel my body going slack.
âHmmm⊠I love the taste of your neck. Irresistible.â He said as soon as he bit my neck. âIt smells so good.â
I still canât move. What is Sehun doing?
Whatâs happening to him? Heâs scary.
âPlease own me now Blake.â He said once more as he nibbled at my earlobe.
Because of his actions, the electricity that coursed through me felt more powerful than Stormâs lightning[i]. All the hairs on my skin stood up. As in, I got gooseb.u.mps. Itâs like I ran out of air.
He faced me once more. His face expressing eagerness to see me.
âIâve been pining for you for a long time, Blake. I really really like you. I think I love you, Blake. So please, take me now. The truth is, Iâm gay. I l.u.s.t after men. Iâm gay.â He declared. His voice was rough and l.u.s.tful. He bit his lower lip that made his face more entrancing.
âHow about you Blake? I know you also want me. Do you like me?â
I nod my head in response to him, not knowing why I did that.
âYES! I knew you want me too!â I was surprised by what he said.
s.h.!.t! I feel like peeing or something. My heart feels so full that itâd explode any minute.
I canât take it anymore. Should I confess to him? He might be making fun of me. But no, I can see the sincerity in his eyes. I know heâs telling the truth.
Whatâs the point of hiding anymore? Even though I am not sure, I know Iâd end up there anyway. Iâm a gay. Iâm a gay. And I gladly accepted it.
âThe truth is Sehun, Iâm g-gay too, and I think Iâm starting to like you too,â I confessed stuttering to him. Donât judge me[ii], Iâm having a hard time saying the word.
I canât believe this! I really confessed. Thereâs no turning back now.
âReally?â He said in disbelief.
âItâs hard to confess, but itâs true. Itâs what I feel. I think Iâm gay. Iâm gay, Sehun.â
I was shocked when he shouted âYES! I MADE YOU CONFESSâ while jumping around.
He approached me and pointed at me with his trigger finger. âI caught you, Blake. I caught you. I finally caught you. I knew you were gay. I am right. My hunch is correct. Youâre a gay. Youâre gay Blake. Youâre gay!â
I was frozen from where I stood. I couldnât react to him and how he acted. All of my cells, tissues, organs, and systems stopped functioning. I wish the ground would open and swallow me.
Sehun entrapped me. He made me confess. He made me tell everything!
âBwahahahahaha! I did it. I did it! Blake is gay. Woooo!â
Now, heâs up on his bed jumping for joy.
Waaaaaaaah! I wanted to disappear right now. I canât face him as it is.
Because of my frustration and the weakness, I felt coursing through my body, I dropped down to the floor. I didnât pay attention to the cold because of the feelings of disappointment Iâm currently experiencing.
Sehun approached me and stretched out his hands. âStand up ah. Oh my gosh, Blake. I just made you confess, but you look like youâre going to faint.â I canât respond because I canât say anything. Iâm speechless.
I didnât reach out to grab his hand. I just stared at it blankly.
I heard him sigh. âOh my G.o.d. Donât be frustrated on your own. So, what if youâre gay?â
I didnât reply.
âOk fine. I didnât mean that, okay. That was a joke. I didnât expect that youâd confess. I just wanted to play a prank. I didnât have any intention to make you confess. Well, part of it, yes but thatâs a pure joke only.â
I still couldnât respond. I continue staring blankly at his outstretched hand.
âAre you really not going to stand up? Do you want me to carry you?â Because of what he said, I immediately stood up. I ran towards my bed. I immediately went in and huddled under the cover of my blanket.
I heard him laugh lightly and I can feel him approaching me. My heart is still beating loudly.
âI made you confess. And yes, youâre gay. I know what you are thinking. You think Iâll be disgusted with you. Or be mad or something. But no. So, what if youâre gay? Youâre not a bad person, right? Youâre still the nice Blake that I know, who is also my friend. I just did it because I want you to know your true self. Whatâs the point of hiding, right? I know you are confused. But you need to let it out. Donât just fool yourself. Itâs not like I wanted to get ahead of you. Itâs just that I made you confess accidentally. I just wanted to play a friendly prank, but itâs not my intention to make fun of you. Iâm really sorry.â
Iâm still huddled under my cover but continued listening to him. Even though Iâm not as nervous as before because of his acceptance, I am too ashamed to show myself.
I couldnât face him from now on. I donât know if I have the face to show[iii].
What if I just transfer to another apartment. So that I wonât need to live together with him. Promise, Iâm super embarra.s.sed.
I heard him sigh again and slowly walked away. The next thing that happened was that I heard the door shut close.
I really donât know what I should do.
Embarra.s.sing. So embarra.s.sing.
TN:
[i] Author used Volta as a reference. A local superheroine who uses lightning as her superpower
[ii] Wag kayo â Literally âDonât youâ can mean âDonât you [dare criticize/judge me]â
[iii] Similar to the concept of losing face in CN Novels. He is so ashamed that he couldnât show his face