But that plan was yet to be revealed. I donât know how it would leak to someone else. Besides, Charlotte and I only ever talked about it whenever weâre alone, and we never talked about it at just any other place.
Still, if the head of the Valentino Duchy would want to find out⊠itâs not impossible for him to find a way to learn about it. After all, he could very well put a tail on me and Charlotte.
âLily, I wonât regret it. Rather, what I regret is⊠the way I had been so hard on you before I lost my memories. Thatâs all.â
ââŠâŠâ
âYou asked me what Iâd do if there were actually no misunderstandings between us, that I might have come to hate you for a reason, but⊠IâŠâ
His voice trembled as the hand around mine clenched tighter. His eyes were painted with desperation.
âI know for sure that I did not hate you. Even now⊠Just gazing upon you makes my heart race so out of control that it hurts.â
He placed my hand over the left side of his chest. The vibrations of his pounding heart could be felt beneath the palm of my hand, through the barrier of his clothes.
ââŠâŠâ
I stared at him blankly. Still as ever, I didnât know what to say to him.
Even so, I hadnât changed my mind.
This desperation in his eyesâŠ. This fluctuating heartâŠ
They would all soon disappear.
You. How can you be so certain.
Looking at him like this, it looked so easy for him to come to this conclusion. Shouldnât he be more doubtful? What if he truly would regret it?
I tried to pull my hand once more. But this time, again, he wouldnât let go.
âŠAfter several more attempts, I couldnât help but let out a small sigh.
âMy hand. Let go.â
ââŠNo.â
âWhy are you being so stubborn?â
âIâŠâ
The area around his eyes had become red. This made it seem like tears would burst through at any given second.
Faced with this sight, I soon became flustered.
âPlease believe me. And⊠Please, donât push me away.â
ââŠâŠâ
It seemed like he intended to insist on doing this until he would get the answer he wanted to hear.
I didnât know that Theodore Valentino could be such a tenacious man. And quite self-righteous.
As I was conflicted for a moment, it occurred to me that, in the end, he would forget all this anyway once his memories returned.
âŠSo, I decided to give him the answer he wanted. Even though I was just lying through my teeth.
ââŠFine.â
ââŠâŠ!â
He raised his head in a hurry and came closer to me.
However, as if it wasnât enough, he raised me from the ground and lifted me into his embrace.
ââŠâŠâ
I had to grit my teeth as I said this.
âI will try to believe you.â
âTrulyâŠâ
âAnd I wonât push you away.â
Iâve decided to lie and act in front of Theodore Valentino.
When I surrendered and made this decision, it didnât feel all that difficult.
âŠJust like always, itâs easier to do the things that I was never sincere about.
ââŠThank you, my dear.â
Theodore murmured, his voice laced with so much emotion.
He buried his face into the crook of my shoulder. I had to stay in his arms like this for a while.
Even though the sunsetâs radiant light was spilling through the windows ever so clearly and beautifully,
Everything in this very moment was nothing but a lie.
* * *
These days, Missus Seymourâs position within the Valentino household was getting more precarious than before. Or maybe it only seemed that way.
The cause for this was, of course⊠Theodoreâs changed attitude.
He continued to side staunchly with me. Subsequently, the vassals also began recognizing me as the madam of the house.
But rather than being pleased with this change, I was just afraid of the imminent repercussions.
No. Thereâs nothing to be afraid of.
I wonât stay at the Valentino residence for the rest of my life anywayâŠ
âMadam, it seems like weâve arrived.â
Charlotteâs voice pulled me out of my reverie.
Brushing aside my thoughts, I looked out the carriage window.
Indeed, weâve arrived at the destination.
âBut⊠Is this truly alright, Madam? Of all things, itâs the art exhibition of the Pinerze Baronyâs Elder Madam⊠And itâs held at the salon of Marquis Elsnerâs esteemed daughterâŠâ
However, I heard that Owen had gotten annoyed by how out of control the obsession of the noble lady had become. I had yet to confirm whether this was true.
ââŠIt should be fine. Wouldnât Lady Elsner have many other suitors to choose from by now?â
âBut still⊠Madam, I have a bad feeling about this. If you feel that thereâs something off, please donât hesitate to leave right away.â
âMissus Pinerze had a difficult time securing this place, I canât justâŠâ
Todayâs exhibition would be attended by a number of prominent people. This included Georges Rennier, whose real identity was Cecil Pinerze.
And it was a precious opportunity to appreciate artworks that I otherwise wouldnât be able to see.
Florentine Elsner might be tiresome to deal with, but I donât want to miss out on this extraordinary opportunity.
âLetâs go, Charlotte. Nothingâs going to happen.â
ââŠYes, Madam.â
The carriageâs door opened, and soon, I alighted.
The sky was clear and blue today, as if only good things were meant to happen on this day.
Of course, I was never allowed good things in this life of mine.