CH 160

Lelia felt her eyes getting wet. She closed her eyes and waited without moving until the shadow was just around the corner.

“…”

The intruder approached the bed and stood quietly. It didn’t even breathe. It couldn’t even dare to touch her when she was asleep. It just looked at the slender back lying on the bed and her scattered hair. After a long time… The intruder slowly began to move away. At that moment, Lelia instinctively felt him leaving and raised herself.

“Oscar…”

Now, whenever she said that name, it made her heart ache, and in an instant, she grabbed and pulled the man. A large, muscular body was dragged helplessly. His body collapsed on the bed as if it had no will to love. Lelia pulled back the black hood with her eyes full of tears. A pale face was revealed before her eyes. The red eyes looked at her with embarrassment.

“Oscar… Oscar.” Lelia cried his name and hugged him tight. Afraid that he would go away again, she hugged his waist and did not let him move.

“…”

Oscar didn’t hug her, nor did he shake her off. He was just frozen. Lelia was impatient with his icy attitude. She slowly pulled herself from the hug, and looked at his face.

“…”

“What’s wrong with you? Why don’t you say anything…?”

Lelia raised one hand and caressed his cheek. Anxiety came from his cold body.

“Are you sick? Where are you feeling the pain? Have you been to the doctor?”

“…”

There was no answer even though she asked nervously. Soon, Oscar firmly grabbed her wrist. His cold touch spread to the palm of his hand, and an awkward silence flowed. Oscar pushed her away firmly as if he felt nothing.

“…Oscar.”

He raised himself straight off from bed. Lelia then predicted what he would do. He’ll make a crack and disappear, or he’ll run out of the window.

“No, don’t go!” Lelia quickly grabbed onto his waist. She earnestly begged him with her forehead pressed against his wide back. “Don’t go… Don’t go, please… Oscar, don’t go.”

When she faced him again, she felt how much she had missed him. She endured the longing. It was only the moment they faced each other, but Oscar, who pushed her away coldly, was frustrated. Why on earth…? She was begging in front of him, and he craved her affection. And suddenly… Why…?

“What’s wrong with you, Oscar? Talk to me… please?”

“…”

Oscar stood for a long time as if his limbs were tied tightly. His back muscles flinched. Soon he slowly turned around.

“I…”

A cracked voice leaked out. Lelia was heartbroken by the poor broken voice.

“Is it because you’re sick or because you—”

“…”

“Tell me, please…”

Oscar looked at Lelia’s face as she cried and pleaded. He had never seen a face like this before.

‘The way you cry and beg like this is…’

Her face was not like this when she begged him to send her back to the territory. Oscar had a headache. It felt weird. At the end, he recalled what Lelia said to him.

“Rather, you abandon everything and come to me.”

“Then I’ll also… I think I can accept you. So, if… If you can give up the throne… Come to the Superion’s territory…”

He was curious about the rest he didn’t hear at the end.

‘What were you trying to tell me?’

He was constantly curious about that moment while suffering from guilt.

“I…”

Oscar blurred the end of his speech again as if he had become a person who couldn’t speak.

Then, Lelia dug back into his arms.

“You, you can’t go.”

She said firmly in a terrible, trembling voice. As if the warning was not false, she hugged his waist tightly with her slender arms. Oscar looked down at her. He must be imagining this. She couldn’t hold him with only this much force.

“… I have to go.”

“No…”

“I can’t be by your side.”

Lelia found this situation funny. It  was the opposite of when Oscar kidnapped her. Oscar, who was afraid of holding her tight, was now impatient to leave her, and she was trying to hold him and not let him go. How in the world did this happen?

“I promised.”

“…”

“I promised to be by your side.”

“…”

“Oscar. I’ll protect you. Right?

“For the rest of my life?”

“… Yes, for the rest of your life. So don’t be afraid.”

Lelia remembered her childhood promise. Lelia laughed at herself for saying this now. Would it have been a bit different if she had realized how she felt earlier?

[If so, you and I…]

She put a little more force into her arms wrapped around his waist. She was afraid that Oscar would disappear in front of her eyes even if she relaxed a little. Oscar whispered as if warning.

“You’re going to regret it.”

“…”

“You’ll blame me.”

At Oscar’s words, Lelia shook her head. She strongly denied it with her face on his chest.

“In the end, you’ll suffocate and want to die if you’re with me…”

Lelia cut him off. Impulsively, she reached out and grabbed Oscar’s face and pulled him in. Her heart throbbed when his cold lips touched hers. She eagerly kissed him with clumsy gestures. Like a young bird looking for its mother, she begged for his lips to open.

But Oscar was frozen without any reaction. Sorrow mixed with nervousness. At first glance, she thought Oscar’s soul might have left him. But at that very moment, the back of her head was caught suddenly.

[PR/N: Hold onto your seats, readers.]

“… Ahh.”

A hard hand dug through her hair. He pressed deeply through his lips, as his hand securely held the back of her head. It was a rough kiss like the last memory; it was a sweet kiss like when the raindrops mixed between their lips. She couldn’t think of anything.

Lelia embraced Oscar’s neck and eagerly accepted him. The cold lips turned hotter and hotter. It was difficult to maintain sanity with the stimulating breath. He had the illusion of hearing thunder in his ears. The rain that didn’t even appear seemed to knock on the window. Yeah, since it’s raining. It’s okay because it’s raining.

Lelia closed her eyes tightly. She was out of breath as if she was running non-stop. Like a lie that had been told so many times, he rushed roughly at her as if pushing her to the cliff. Sigh… The moment their lips parted, Lelia was afraid that he would disappear like a mirage.

“Sorry.” Oscar whispered quietly. Lelia shook her head. She didn’t want to hear this.  Right now, it was just…

Their lips touched again. It was a soft kiss unlike before. Oscar kissed her soft lips affectionately and swept them down. A sweet breath came out of the electric sensation. Soon, his breath moved from her lips to her neck. Lelia grabbed Oscar’s head in fear of him moving a little further down. His soft hair was wrapped around her fingers, and a strange sensation began to pour in. For a while, Oscar’s cold hands dug through her clothes and her eyes widened.

“Wait… I…”

I don’t know how to do it… The latter words were swallowed by his lips. Oscar poured tiny kisses on her lips and cheeks. They were warm kisses that made her cry. He waited for Lelia’s permission with a series of kisses, and soon she nodded. After that, she couldn’t think of anything.

She felt like she was in a dream, not reality, and the sensation… she felt it for the first time. The sound between their lips was unfamiliar. Oscar kissed her all over her body. Each time she touched his lips, she felt a hot tingling sensation.

The hot breath made her unable to come to my senses. Oscar’s body, which she had expected to be cold, was as hot as a ball of fire. Lelia felt herself leap into the fire. She confessed with a shaky voice.

“Oscar, I love you…”

“I love you…”

A small confession soon turned into a gasp of breath. Her vision grew blurry. She eagerly hugged Oscar’s neck as if it were a rope. He supported her firmly, as if she would never fall. She was in a daze. His heavy pressure on her body felt good.

The red eyes, which seemed to be filled with joy, shook in front of her eyes. The eyes engulfed in madness no longer felt afraid. Rather, it was hot and affectionate as if they were burning. Oscar said she would regret it, but Lelia was confident. No matter how much time passes, she will not regret what happened tonight.

It was a particularly long night.

***

The side effect of the drug, that she would not be able to sleep for three days, must have been an exaggeration. Lelia fell asleep as if she were fainting from exhaustion. The hot body that bothered her till dawn was still entangled with hers.

Oscar kissed her back and enjoyed her soft lips. It was clear that she would regret it after she came back to her senses in the morning.  But it was irreversible now. Again, he laughed at his regrettable self.

‘You think it’s better, hmm? Isn’t this what you wanted?’

Ignoring his thoughts, he hugged her slender waist. Lelia’s body, which was deeply asleep, naturally wrapped around him. Last night, a sting came from the marks she had engraved on his back. Even the pain made him feel ecstatic. There was a strange glow in the red eyes. Yeah, there’s no turning back now.

He swept his hair while laying a short kiss on Lelia’s cheek, who was tired and asleep.

“Now…”

He kissed her lips gently for a long time because he was afraid of waking up. Then he managed to get up. He’ll do what Lelia wants. It was good to lay down like a slave forever. He won’t be greedy for anything else. He was going to stay with her as a shackled sinner. If Lelia wanted him, nothing else mattered. However…

‘Would you want me even after knowing all of the truth?’

He wondered, but soon shook his head. It didn’t matter if he buried it as a secret forever. The body that has already committed sin would not be difficult to commit it twice. As if bowing to God, he kissed Lelia’s foot and got out of bed.

“Then I’ll also… I think I can accept you. So, if… If you can give up the throne… Come to the Superion’s territory…”

‘I’ll be able to hear the backstory when I come back after tidying up.’

He was going to accept anything requested. He stared at Lelia, who was deeply asleep. Just before dawn, she barely fell asleep while accepting him, who kept begging, saying, “One more time, one more time.” In the end, he couldn’t wake Lelia up and looked around. He re-dressed up with a black robe and left a short letter at the bedside.