-san: A polite suffix, but not excessively formal.
-kun: A common suffix among friends and younger people.
-chan: A common suffix among people youāre close with, mostly used for feminine nicknames and girls, since itās cutesy and childlike.
-senpai: A common suffix and noun used to address or refer to oneās older or more senior colleagues in a school, workplace, dojo, or sports club.
āNow, no one can spy or listen to us here. This is my castle. Put yourself on the couch over there.ā
As soon as Lee entered the office, he tossed his jacket over his shoulder, and the atmosphere softened quite a bit. After that, he plopped down on the sofa. Thereās only one⦠Hāhe wants me to sit beside him?
āNāno, Iāll just stand up. So, what happened between Hiratsuka-senpai and I isāā
He restrained me with a gesture. āDonāt say a thing. Iāve seen enough of your fist fights. Iāve no intention of saying anything from the schoolās side.ā
āEh? Then why are we hereā¦?ā He sighed audibly to my words.
āTruth is, I have something to ask⦠Did you get a grudge from someone from the underground?ā
āNo, nothing I can think of.ā
ā⦠Got it, but youāre apparently being eyed by their upper management. They ordered me to tell Hiratsuka about your father, and I couldnāt go against it.ā
āā¦ā
āThe fact they have their eyes on you is a problem, but you still have a bigger one⦠That is, youāre at odds with Eri Mashima.ā
āHuh?ā I couldnāt help but let out a weird noise. Not in a hundred years would I think her name would be involved in all of this.
āYouāre being isolated in your class, right? Thatās Eri Mashimaās fault.ā
āHer faultā¦?ā
āWell, itās not her direct fault, to be exact. The ones doing it are her worshipers, and theyāre on their own. Eri Mashima is acting as āusualā, and thereās no malicious intent coming from her. OāOh, by the way, what you saw me do earlier was an act! IāI really donāt like her.ā
āYou donāt have to deny⦠Though, I get what you mean by her acting as āusualā. Itās like a kid brutally killing an insect, yet bearing no sort of ill will towards it while doing so.ā
āExactly, and the fact you separated from her made Mashima worse. Moreover, her father is one of the highest executives of that underground fighting organization⦠Frankly, heās so important over there that if he so asked, I wouldĀ haveĀ to fight you.ā
Does her father have that position? ⦠Iāve never seen him, and I heard her mother died when she was little. But none of this matters. Iām awake, and I donāt care that her father is some sort of big shot, I just donāt want anything to do with her anymore
I noticed Leeās face contorting as if his next words were hard to say. āSo I need you to do me a favor⦠I would like to have you and Eri Mashima back together⦠Iām not asking you to date her, just that you become her friend again.ā
These words absolutely mortified me. I didnāt think theyād try to force us back together like this, and even less so that itād be done via Lee, whom I met for the first time today. If it was Hayakawa telling me these words, Iād at least understand where heās coming from.
āI canāt do that. Iāve burned ten yearsā worth of feelings and cut ties with her. All this time Iāve been in constant pain, and finally, for theĀ first timeĀ in a decade, things have been looking better for me.ā
āI understand that, butāā
āYou donāt.ā
Iāve been by her side for a whole decade, slowly suffocating my heart and supporting her without reserve. I placed her above everything else in my life, accepting every little thing she did and loving her every second of the way, despite it all.
Lee bowed to me, the same guy who was so famous for his own pride⦠Seeing him do that made me feel bad.
āPlease, Sawada. If this continues, even I canāt predict what sheāll do with the other fighters. All my favorites may start to go crazy from whatever she tries to do in her madness, and it wonāt be only you whoāll be in danger. āYour friends might pay the priceā¦ā
The first thing that came to mind was Reikaās face, followed by Hayakawa and the others⦠Are they in danger?
Honestly, I felt Mashimaās gaze pierce me from time to time. It was a nasty glare.
āYouāre being selfishā¦ā I said after a few seconds of silence.
āSorry, Iām a muscle-brained idiot who can only do Jeet Kune Do. This is all I could come up with.ā
ā⦠Can I punch your face?ā I retort.
āIf that makes you feel better.ā
Mashimaās icky glare⦠What if it was aimed at Reika instead of me? Thinking that, a vague sense of uneasiness spread through my chest, and I couldnāt say anything to Leeās words.
I donāt remember how I got back to class, it was all a haze. After my conversation with Lee, I called Reika since I was worried about her.
āHm? is something wrong, Toshiki? Arenāt you in class right now?ā
āNo, Iām just a bit worried.ā
āAhaha, well, Iām with my dad now! Everyoneās doing fine over here!ā
āI see⦠You didnāt see anyone strange or anything over there, did you?ā
āStrange? Hmm, actually there was a guy tailing me all morning, but he suddenly disappeared halfway through. He wasnāt good at following me, as if he wasnāt used to it. I thought he might be related to my dad or something, butāā
After that, I just had small talk with her and hung up the phone. Reikaās surroundings were special, with her dad and all, but⦠She was a normal girl. What if something bad happened to her?
Sitting at my desk, I could feel the constant glares piercing me from all around. I guess this is all Mashimaās influence⦠After a bit, I got up and told the teacher I wasnāt feeling well, leaving early for the day.
Then, on foot, I walked to where Reika currently was.
Yesterday I was able to welcome Reika back without any incidents. Last night I even told her about every thought that had been plaguing me, and what I planned to do.
I havenāt slept much, and it was soon time to go to school. I finished my morning preparations and was about to leave the house. It wasnāt a normal morning.
āUm, hereās a gift. I thought Iād give it to you on the last date, but Hirano-kun got in the wayā¦ā I handed Reika a bear keychain right outside the entrance.
She accepted that gift happily, but her face soon turned gloomy. āThanks⦠Iāll take good care of itā¦ā
Seeing her happy made me happy, and seeing her sad makes me sad⦠How wonderful it is to have someone I care so much for.
āOkay, Iāll go first.ā
āOāOkay⦠See ya later!ā
With that, I opened the front door and stepped outside.
āOnly to meet Mashima.
āToshi! We can finally go to school together! Ehehe, weāll be together from today on!ā
I left the house without saying a word. I didnāt want to look back, nor did I want to see Reikaās face yet. Forcing a stiff smile on my face, Mashima and I walked away.
āāSo Tachibana-sensei bought me a cake. Oh, Toshi, are you jealous? Donāt worry, I like him too, but youāre the best!ā
āYeah, right.ā
Maybe coming back with Mashima was the right thing to do, as Lee told me in that office. Glancing beside me, I saw her walk next to me, happily talking about some other guy she liked other than me.
What a distorted relationship we haveā¦
Suddenly, a thought runs through my mind. I never knew anything about her family, only that she lived alone in a big house. I only saw her nanny once in a while.
Iām really ignorant of a lot of things, huh.
I kept walking to school while listening to Mashimaās absurd stories, and soon I notice the type of gazes around me shift dramatically. It was then that I finally saw it was her influence all along. Still, my classmatesā glares didnāt change much.
When I approached the school gate, I saw Lee standing there. He looked at me and bowed his headā¦
I can hit you, right? Prepare your a*s.
āAh, youāre going on a trip soon, arenāt you? Mmm, Iāll go with you! Youāre Reika-chanās favorite, but I know youāll definitely come back to me!ā
āReika-chan? Why are you talking about her as if you were friends?ā
āHm? Are you mad, Toshi? Hehe, whatās yours is also mine, so I have to be a bit kinder to Reika-chan, too!ā
Glancing, I could see Reika, Hayakawa, and the other walking right behind us, and I could also notice by their voices that they were extremely confused.
ā⦠Hey, Eri-chan.ā
āToshi! You finally called me āEri-chanā like you used to!ā
Sheās not normal. I donāt know what happened to her in the past, but weāre childhood friends who spent a long time with one another. I shouldnāt have pushed her away under any circumstances, nor said that I didnāt care anymore.
Thatās because we were broken. What we shouldāve done is talk more deeply about stuff, and I shouldāve been clearer about the things I didnāt like her doing.
I shouldnāt have been the only one to heal and move on.
So I gently place my hand on her shoulderā
āUwaa~! Toshi, youāre embarrassing me! Hehe, I see, I see! You need me Toshiāā
As Lee had told me, if I went back to my old relationship with Eri, Iād go back to my old peaceful life. However, our relationship was distorted and mangled. Iām not her friend anymoreā¦
I made a decision.
I had to face her.
Letting go of the tension in my body, I finally conveyed everything I felt to her.
āI wonāt push you away again⦠Youāre my childhood friend, Eri-chan, but you know⦠I found someone I like. āI love Reika.ā
āEh, bābut, you lālove me, donāt you? IāI donāt mind if you have a favorite! RāRight?!ā
All of this is still weird⦠Her response made me feel more sadness than hatred. What kind of life did you lead until now, Eri? This is definitely not right!
But she then shouted to the surrounding students, seeking agreement with what she said. They all stopped in their tracks.
Seeing her face swelling up, tears starting to roll down her face, messed my emotions up. For some reason, I felt like crying along with her.
But my mind was already made up.
āEri-chan⦠There are different kinds of love. IĀ loveĀ Reika, and you love me⦠as a childhood friend, donāt you? ⦠I get it because Iāve been in your position.ā
āBut, butā! IĀ donātĀ know what youāre talking about! Why are you being so mean to me? I care about you Toshi, and I loveĀ everyone!ā
I grabbed her shoulders tightly, raising my voice against her for the first time in my life.
ā No, you donāt Eri! We were both crazy⦠Hey, Eri-chan, I know we canāt have the same relationship we had, but⦠Do you wanna go back to normal with me?ā
āNāNormal? IāIāmĀ notĀ normal? But they all affirm me, you know. Toshi, am I crazy? Huh? Why am I scared? No, no no no no no, stop, STOP! I donāt want it to hurt! Make it stop! I⦠I donāt like you anymore, Toshiā¦ā
At that moment, people gathered around her. Some were from other classes, and others were from her own. Many of my classmates were also there.
āMashima-san, are you okay? Did he say something you didnāt like?ā
āEri-chan, leave him alone and come with me.ā
āOi, donāt let that criminal get anywhere near her!ā
āAre you bullying her? You piece of sh*t!ā
Yamada, one of the guys in my class, grabbed me by the chest. Reika and the others tried to run up and help me, but I shook my head at them. Soon, Lee came running up to me.
āOi, everyone scram! IfĀ anyoneĀ starts fighting, I wonāt forgive you! ⦠Sawada, what the hell is going on? Arenāt you guys supposed to go back to your original relationship? If you donāt, the power scale between the internal factions in the underground will⦠No, Eri Mashima will go berserk.ā
He whispered that last part to me so the other students couldnāt hear me, then grabbed my shirt tightly⦠Lee was truly selfish, and he doesnāt think about others.
āHey, Lee-senpai. Iām pretty sure I have one punch on your tab, right? You consented to it, so⦠Steel your stomach and take it.ā
āHuh?ā
Weāre extremely close to each other, so much so thereās only a few inches of space between us. That was more than enough.
Using every muscle in my body, every joint, every drop of strength I could muster, I punched him in the gut. It was widely known as the one-inch punch, performed by Bruce Lee himself.
He was blown away, his eyeballs almost popping out of their sockets. He had no time to even scream. That was me giving a half-serious blow.
Then the buzz around me soon turned into bewilderment. āLee, due to his strong grip, ripped away my shirt as he was being blown off.
Before anyone could say a thing, I started shouting at the people surrounding Eri.
āYouĀ guys donāt know SH*T! EvenĀ I, who was by her side for ten whole years, know nothing about her! So outsiders, get the F*CK out of my VIEW!!!!!ā
The bodies of Eriās followers were shaking uncontrollably, their mouths gasping for air. No one could utter a word at my sight. No wonder, they donāt know the horror of true violence.
For the past decade, I havenāt had a proper talk with Eri, even though I knew something was wrong with her.
IĀ hadĀ to face her because we were childhood friends.
But then Lee, barely conscious, started talkingā
āUnderground fighting? Danger? Eriās parents being executives? I DONāT GIVE A FLYING F*CK! Iām just herĀ USELESSĀ childhood friend! So, from now on, Iāll make her a normal girl again. āAnd yāknow whatā¦? Iām f*cking pissed. Oh, and you guys tried to kidnap Reika, right? Soāā
My voice lowered an octave, almost turning into a growl. They tried to hurt the person most important to me. I canāt let that happen. Looking around, I saw all of the students trembling, immobilized by the sheer fear of my intimidation.
āāSo, Iāll get you the fight you want.ā
I approached Eri-chan, who was kneeling down on the floor with her head in her hands, and hugged her. She was just like a scared childā¦
If you have a fight, just makeup. Well, itās not that simple, but itās a normal thing in every relationship. Yet we didnāt even know how to do thatā¦
āHey Eri-chan, letās be proper friends from now on.ā
āEh, Ah, Toshi-kun⦠I, I was tātold to love you, TāToshi⦠AāAh, youāre my childhood friendā¦ā
āYeah, weāve known each other since we were kids. Cāmon, letās go to the infirmary.ā
āMāMkayā¦ā
Reika and my other friends approach us. Then Reika herself supported Eri, who was dazed and confused.
After that whole ordeal, we went to the infirmaryā¦
TL: Wasnāt expecting this outcome, but Iām definitely loving it. No person on this whole planet is 100% good or bad, and life is just a huge canvas painted in gray. Itād be two-dimensional to just put any character into the āvillainā bag and call it a day.
Frankly, this novel isnāt perfect. Its execution is sometimes messy, but itās an enjoyable read nonetheless. The author at least tried, to the maximum of his abilities, to do more with the characters than a lot of other novel authors out there.
This novel is almost done, with ten chapters to go, and all I can say is that Iām excited to see where this goes next.