In the early evening when the rain is pouring, the light skinned hand of yours
Eventually, there was nothing that could reach the both of us.
I think I could hear the song, itās been some quite time ago. I saved my voice for quite a while from that point onward. As if mumbling only with humming without the melody.Ā Everything I had already been destroyed forever and was now beyond repair. And I knew that. Even so, there was an unstoppable feeling in my heart. The emotions that never fade away.
Is he the owner of this dream? The good memories were so little and trivial that I can even count them in my hand.
Sometimes the time that we spent together was like hell. No matter how much I open my heart to you, the sheet that was damp with tears because of you is now frozen. The feelings that I only realize at the end are so miserable that I want to chew my own tongue.
You never made eye contact with me when I look into your eyes. My devastated innocence is beaten hundreds of time and trampled under your feet like garbage. Even though I knew it, but I tried so hard to close my eyes. It was a hellish time, when I couldnāt see the exit and everything was dark.
The man struggled to open his shaky eyes. His head, which seemed to be burned by fire was flickering slowly, damp and wet. The numb left leg was twisted in a bizarre shape and at first glance, the white bone was stuck firmly in the space between the driverās seat and the door, and except for the rustling mechanical sound, the surrounding were only as quiet as a dead rat.
Is this how I die?
Then it suddenly comes to mind.
I was in a hurry due to a late-night schedule. I took the car key from my manager who shook his head to cancel my schedule; he said it would be impossible to go now.
I climbed to the driverās seat alone.
The highway was quiet, and the promised time gradually approaching, I stepped on the accelerator to speed up. I thought I might have been drunk. I didnāt drink or take medicine but my right foot which was supposed to be on the brake was down.
On an empty road, luxury-looking foreign vehicle running alone in the distance. The road entered a sharp curve, and the navigation warning message was heard from the manās car that did not slow down.
The orange glow indicator of the guardrails flashed dizzyingly and passes by the eyes, the car, which was accelerating at a great speed, crashed into a foreign vehicle in front of it and deviated from the guardrail.
Why do you even live? It was your question that I once asked in contempt. I couldnāt pretend to not know the other meaning behind those words, so I smiled awkwardly, unable to say anything.
I didnāt hate your words, but they always hurt. There were many times when I had to forget it and I would choke up as if Iām swallowing needle.
The body that crashed under the guardrail rolled several times. I could hear the sound of my head being thrown here and there and my legs twisting due to the impact. I canāt think of anything.
The pain of my body is too much. Even among the blurred vision, the man smiled, but before even a small laugh could escape, I get surprised as if I woke up from a dream because of someone elseās appearance in my head.
Oppa
A sweet voice that calling out, with a sickly face wearing a hospital gown.
Huh
A voice that had not come out suddenly leaked out. Frozen in shock, woke up from the daydream and faced the reality, the image of a young girl overflowed like a flood as if waited for this. He had a smile on his face and arms. The moments were deplorable because he wanted to cry because of the pain, but felt sorry for not being able to hold back while biting his lips. I hope you are popular. I knew that I was so happy even if I said it as if I were jealous.
Uhā¦ Uhā¦
Before you get married
I need to pay all of my debts, get rid of your illness, and buy you a pretty wedding dress
I want to buy that for you. You, whose face is dyed red at my last words shouted back.Ā How old do you think I am right now? And you are already talking about marriage!Ā I just like how the way she pulled her blanket as if embarrassed. Brushing our disheveled hair, it was as if peace was ours. Hell-like times are already a long time ago.
How did i forget you? There was no hope for a person that had already been completely destroyed. Through the blurry vision, someone could be seen through the shattered window.
It was evident that the car had crashed into each other.Ā Iām sorry. Words that could not be uttered with a sound melted into the tongue. The hot liquid constantly wets the face.Ā I am so weak that I have no confidence to live any longer, but still someone
Someone please protect this child
Despite how strong she acts, sheās still very vulnerable
And doesnāt know the world which she must live alone
In the midst of the intensely piercing pain, the man prayed and prayed for a wish that he could not even spit out. Even though you know that you canāt reach it, even knowing that. As the unstoppable prayers filled the quite space, the consciousness grew further and further away.
And the more he slept in the quiet space, the more distant the consciousness became. Meaningless winds that I canāt let go of while witnessing the moment when my blurred vision flickers black.
There are promises that have not been kept.
Thereās someone waiting.
When are you the happiest? One day, darkness suddenly came at the end of your voice, which had been asking meaninglessly