Ji Yushiâs reaction was very weak. He had said that line without any hesitation, as if it was something he had thought about thousands of times inside and there was no burden for him to say it at all.
It was too abnormal.
It wasnât like the usual Ji Yushi.
Song Qinglanâs voice now carried a trace of anxiety, âWhy donât you? You have parents, colleagues, friends and also your older brother â- Didnât we run into him earlier?â
As the two confronted each other, it was like Ji Yushi was caught between something. Every part of his body was stiff and even his breathing was shallow.
Hearing that question, his eyelashes trembled slightly. His expression however remained the same.
He was clearly a little shaken.
Seeing his reaction, Song Qinglan said again, âOtherwise, you also have people you are in a relationship with. If youâre gone, what will happen to them?â
Three turning into one, it really wasnât something a straight man could bear to listen to.
Song Qinglan felt that it didnât seem appropriate. This example wasnât good enough.
He paused and quickly skipped over the topic. He tried his best to focus on the main issue, âEveryone has a reality that truly belongs to them and everyone has a life that belongs to them. Think about it, do you really not have a single thing you want to accomplish in your real reality? For example, your dream or something you have been pursing for a long time? If you give up now, what will become of those years of hard workâââ
His words reached an abrupt stop here. Song Qinglan was left stunned because Ji Yushiâs eyelashes trembled slightly, and a tear slipped down at an extremely fast speed.
Song Qinglan had never seen anyoneâs tears fall so fast and so straightforwardly.
Along with the shock, his heart squeezed tightly, sending pain throughout his chest.
Song Qinglan only now reacted. What did he mean by there was no such reality?
Was Ji Yushiâs life not as happy as he had imagined?
Such extremely pessimistic words were spoken by Ji Yushi himself. It meant that it wasnât just an emotional outburst and likely a fact.
He had clearly been the one who was inexplicably thrown away and he should be the one feeling angry and wronged but after Song Qinglan realised this, he felt at loss. For the first time in his life, he couldnât form a proper sentence and even felt a little panicked.
He raised his hand and then lowered it back down.
Song Qinglan was frustrated. Dammit, why hadnât anyone taught him how to comfort someone?!
Ji Yushi actually wasnât crying.
Those tears were physiological. Like a handful of snow on a pine leaf shaken off by the wind and disappearing the moment it falls onto the snow below, it was only a drop and that was it.
Compared to crying, it was more like an instinct.
For some reason, despite being so close, Song Qinglan found that he couldnât just reach out to touch Ji Yushiâs face and he couldnât wipe away Ji Yushiâs tears.
It was as if, as long as he touched Ji Yushi, something would completely shatter.
Ji Yushiâs eyes that appeared translucent under the light just continued to look at him.
Those eyes were wet, but they were colder than ever before. Ji Yushi said, âHere, I can have everything I want.â
Song Qinglan, âBut you donât belong here!â
Ji Yushi, âIt doesnât matter which reality Iâm in.â
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He had been bewitched.
âJi Yushi!â
Song Qinglan couldnât hold back anymore, He wiped away the inconspicuous tears with his thumb. He didnât know why his hands felt hot. Even the tips of his fingers trembled slightly.
He seemed to have understood something but right now wasnât the time for Song Qinglan to think about it. He only said in a deep voice, âItâs very important!! Who you are is very important! Even if you donât have that kind of reality like you said, you still have us. Me, Chunâer, Duan WenâŚ..The six people in the seventh squad are waiting for you. You canât have your heart disturbed by that one phone call, itâs all fucking fakeâââ
One phone call.
Those words entered Ji Yushiâs ears.
In an instant, his pupils dilated slightly and, gradually, his entire body visibly relaxed.
âFake.â
He said.
The tense string in his mind had broken off. Ji Yushi gradually returned to his senses. As if he had lost all strength, he fell onto Song Qinglanâs shoulder, âCap Song, itâs that phone callâŚ..â
Song Qinglan who had unexpectedly found himself used as a support froze in place.
The other party was almost completely in his embrace.
There was a faint scent entering his nose. It came from Ji Yushiâs hair.
Ji Yushi didnât seem to notice anything wrong about this as he lightly caught his breath. When his mind was clear again, he found himself covered in cold sweat.
He belatedly felt a little afraid.
If Song Qinglan hadnât caught up to him, he might have really fallen for that fatal temptation.
Ji Yushi rested his head against Song Qinglanâs shoulder and said both quickly and briefly, âThere was something wrong with that phone call. It captured what I desired and after I hung up, that was the only thought left in my mind. Nothing else mattered anymore.â
The crisis was averted. Sure enough, it was the phone call.
Song Qinglan breathed a sigh of relief, âFuck.â
This position allowed his chin to rest on top of Ji Yushiâs head. He didnât know how to respond in a situation like this.
Ji Yushi didnât move so Song Qinglan could only reluctantly raise his hand and pat the other partyâs back, âItâs good that youâve returned to your senses. We should let Old Duan and the others know and let them be more vigilant.â
Ji Yushi made a sound of agreement, but he still didnât move.
The hand Song Qinglan was about to lower hesitated.
Several seconds later, he changed it into an embracing posture. When his teammate is in a poor mood, he should do his duty as a captain to comfort them.
Gently protecting the person in his arms, Song Qinglan spoke with some complaint, âOne moment we were discussing the double-slit experiment and the next moment you turned around and left. Youâre more of a slag than Li Chun. Advisor Ji, what was it in that phone call that attracted you that much?â
In fact, Song Qinglan wanted to know what Ji Yushi had experienced and what kind of life he had led for him to be able to say such pessimistic words like âI donât have that kind of reality.â
But it seems that they had not yet reached the point where they could tell each other everything.
Ji Yushi only replied in a muffled voice, âItâs something I have been pursuing all my life.â
The heat from the other personâs breath sprayed onto his neck, creating an itchy sensation.
When a person sobers up, they still remember everything they had done when they were in a confused state. Song Qinglanâs heart felt like it was tickled by a feather and he found it a little funny, âWhat is it?â
As soon as he finished saying this, Song Qinglan was pushed away by Ji Yushi.
âThank you.â Having recovered, Ji Yushi ruthlessly became distant again. He had already returned to his usual calmness, âIt may be those three boyfriends or something. If I donât return, wonât they die of sadness?â
In Song Qinglanâs words just now âYou also have people you are in a relationship with. If youâre gone, what will happen to them?â, the word âthemâ was spoken very carefully.
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Ji Yushi didnât expect Song Qinglan to be so persistent with this misunderstanding.
Feeling insulted, Ji Yushi who liked to hold grudges and couldnât be bothered arguing with a straight man deliberately said those words to block him.
Song Qinglan frowned, âYouâŚâŚâŚâ
âI cherish myself very much.â Ji Yushi returned to the main topic after successfully making Song Qinglan unable to speak, âChief Lin told me in the phone call that the results are out, and the mission rating was very high.â
Feeling a little empty inside, he felt a little unhappy.
Song Qinglan crossed his arms in front of his chest and said arrogantly, âItâs fake. The results wonât be out this quickly.â
Ji Yushi, âI also know it couldnât be this fast.â
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The two walked inside. They had to buy tickets again.
Passengers around them were hurrying about. Occasionally, unfamiliar faces would look over at them.
After that commotion, Song Qinglan wordlessly kept a close eye on the person he had just managed to capture. Right now, they were certain that this reality was a lot more complicated than they had initially thought.
If they didnât pay attention, the other party may be drawn away by something else again.
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Song Qinglan, âThe reason you were bewitched was because of the mission rating?â
âYes.â Ji Yushi explained as he walked. He seemed to hesitate for a moment before continuing, âAfter including the last mission rating, I can get the reward I deserve.â
What kind of reward could be so tempting to even make someone like Ji Yushi waver? He even no longer cared if it was real and threw his teammate away like he was bewitched.
Tianqiong had a point system.
In Tianqiong, the accumulation of points not only meant a higher rating, it also brought along greater glory and these points could also be exchanged for more advanced tasks and access to Tianqiongâs core which was extremely important for future career development.
A Guardian with a personal rating of greater than one star could be promoted to an Inspector, holding the power to inspect any time and space.
As for a Recorder with a personal rating of greater than one starâŚâŚThere had never been one in Tianqiongâs history.
Although a Recorderâs job was relatively safe, it was very tedious and lacked room for advancements. Facing the mistakes and suffering from the past and being unable to do anything, only playing the role of a bystander, it tested oneâs endurance and perseverance, so there had not been many people promoted to one star.
Before leaving for the mission, Song Qinglan knew that Ji Yushi would soon be promoted from two stars to one star. Although it wasnât greater than one star, he would still be rewarded. Song Qinglan didnât know what a Recorderâs reward would be, but his good training prevented him from asking directly.
Ji Yushi was different from the other members in the seventh squad. He wasnât one to easily confide in others. Even when analysing and sorting out his thoughts, he would only do it when he was completely confident.
Back in the Ouroboros mission when he spoke in front of everyone, it was also a matter Ji Yushi had to overcome first.
The two walked towards the ticketing machine.
Ji Yushi gave Song Qinglan his ID card to purchase the tickets with and suddenly caught a glimpse of the other partyâs bruised and swollen hand.
It was like Song Qinglan didnât notice it. His slender finger quickly selected options on the transparent panel, but it could be seen that his actions were a little stiff.
Did it hurt?
It must hurt.
Ji Yushi suddenly realised that, from the moment he left the train carriage until he was found by Song Qinglan, the other party hadnât placed any blame on him.
Their current situation was completely his fault.
Regardless of what the current reality was like, at least for Song Qinglan, this was his reality after being intercepted and brought back from the Chaos mission.
It was him who raised the suspicion first and it was also him who worked hard gathering information before coming to Ning City to discuss countermeasures with him â- In a situation where nothing was certain, the other party did all that. In addition to that, Song Qinglan was forced to remember his other memory, overthrowing everything he originally thought was his reality yet when they left together to try and find a solution to their situation, he was almost left behind.
All this time, Song Qinglan didnât show any panic or consider the option of retreating.
But did he really not panic at all?
No one in the world knew about the feeling of memory confusion and being unable to distinguish between reality better than Ji Yushi. No matter how firm his heart was, Song Qinglan was still just a normal human.
After purchasing the ticket, Song Qinglan asked, âIf you need this reward, you could earn the points faster as a Guardian. Why did you choose to be a Recorder?â
âBecause the condition for me to get my reward was to complete 100 Recorder missions as a Recorder so I could only be a Recorder.â
As soon as he said this, Ji Yushi realised that he had actually answered Song Qinglanâs question.
Trust was mutual.
It may not be so difficult opening oneâs heart.
A train passed this small station.
Amid the noise, Song Qinglan turned his head and looked over.
âI was adopted.â Ji Yushi lowered his eyes, his eyelashes casting a shadow, âI want to go back to more than ten years ago to see my fatherâs scene of murder.â