At night, Yun'an was once again carried back by the maids. Lin Buxian washed
the cloth and wiped Yun'an's face as usual. When he came back, Yun'an was
already sitting on the bed, smiling and looking at Lin Buxian.\nLin Buxian sat beside Yun'an and handed the steaming net cloth to Yun'an:
"Pretending to be drunk again?"\nYunan smiled "hehe", took the cloth and wiped his face carefully, jokingly
said: "You are so cute, so you can believe it if you try again."\nLin Buxian hooked the corner of his mouth, naturally took the net cloth in
Yun'an's hand, and replied, "I think you and the eldest brother-in-law are so
close, I thought it was really drunk."\nLin Buxian got up and put the net cloth back into the basin. Hearing Yun'an
said, "What can you do with a group of men?"\nLin Buxian lowered his eyes and said nothing, blew out the light and returned
to the bed.\nYun An moved towards Lin Buxian, looked at Lin Buxian with the faint light,
and asked, "What's wrong?"\n"what?"\n"Why do I feel that you are not in a good mood? Sisters' tea talks are
unpleasant?" Yun An only asked tentatively, but Lin Buxian's silence was
exchanged, and Yun An moved to Lin Buxian's side. , Asked: "I really told you?
What happened?"\nThere was another long silence before Lin Buxian spoke, and told Yun'an about
the matter that his third sister Lin Buyun had said. Yunan was also silent
after listening.\nLin Buxian let out a sigh, and said quietly, "Perhaps I can understand your
mood at that time." The "at that time" in Lin Buxian's mouth was a long time
ago, but Yun An's heart accurately reflected it. What happened at the time.\n"Yixi, can I hug you?"\nLin Buxian nodded, fearing that Yun'an would not be able to see it, so he said
"Yes."\nYun An lay down next to Lin Buxian's arm, and raised an arm through the gap
between Lin Buxian's neck and the pillow, and took the person into his arms,
letting Lin Buxian rest his shoulder.\nYun'an's chin rested on Lin Buxian's head, rubbed it gently, and asked, "It
feels bad in my heart, right?"\n"Ok."\n"Is there a feeling of suffocation, suffocation, weakness and anger?"\nYun'an's description accurately hit Lin Buxian's heart wall, and the emotions
that wanted to explode but couldn't find an outlet were suddenly vented.\nLin Buxian grabbed a corner of Yun'an's shirt and held it in his hand. He
didn't speak again until the snow-white, flat fabric wrinkled: "What the third
sister said is actually nothing strange. I don't know what's wrong. When I
heard the third sister talk about it in a...indifferent attitude, I suddenly
felt sad. I...was thinking of you at that time, and I was thinking, then, are
you and me now? I have the same feeling? What makes me even more uncomfortable
is that except for the third sister, all three of our sisters have read books,
but why the eldest sister and the second sister are as indifferent as the
third sister? Obviously all women, the rabbit died Even the fox is sad, how
can they even make waves..."\nLin Buxian felt that the person holding his arms was shaking slightly, and
immediately stopped talking, and asked with concern: "What's wrong with you?
Are you sick? My head hurts again? I'll call the doctor."\nYun An held Lin Buxian's body tightly to prevent her from leaving. Yun'an
nestled in Lin Buxian's neck, took a deep breath, and said, "Yixi, do you
know? I'm very happy you can Realizing this, I want to dream about it!
Because, because you are such a beautiful woman in my heart, almost perfect
existence, but..." Yunan felt a dull pain in his heart, and did not continue,
just holding Lin Buxian's arms became tighter and tighter, as if he was about
to draw people into his body before giving up.\nLin Buxian felt the pain, but did not say a word. She could feel that Yun An
was undergoing a certain emotional baptism. Although she did not know what it
was, she could guess the source of this emotion and today's events, or It's
about yourself.\nLin Buxian nestled quietly beside Yun'an. She couldn't separate a hand to hug
Yun'an and comfort Yun'an, so she could only accompany him quietly.\nYun An felt that his eye sockets were a little wet, and his throat choked.\nNo one knows how lonely Yun'an has been in the past six months. Since coming
here, Yun'an's heart has been reduced to an isolated island. Everything here
is incompatible with Yun'an's original life. The most terrifying thing is...
The woman's Yunan has just crossed into a time and space that is extremely
restrained by women.\nThe women here are extremely materialized by many "ethics". The sad thing is
that most of the women are in a state of numbness. Not only will they not feel
unfair, but they will even feel that this is "justified". Xingji has used this
kind of thinking and "rules" all his life. "Self-discipline, and transmit to
the next generation, from generation to generation...\nYunan knows that this is not the fault of the female group, nor is it the
fault of a single woman. In such an era of information, traffic congestion,
and in an environment where there is basically no mechanization at all,
physical fitness determines a person's value and ability to survive. Compared
with most men, women have an absolute disadvantage in this respect. Under the
feudal patrilineal society, most women are like vines and can only survive by
relying on men.\nBut all of this was extremely suffocating to Yun'an, a visitor from the
outside world.\nShe is powerless, let alone allowed to change this huge world. Everything here
is like a whetstone, constantly polishing the edges and corners of Yun'an.
Yun'an is very afraid that if this continues, one day she will be assimilated.\nOnce upon a time, how much did Yun'an wish someone could understand what he
was thinking? She threw the seeds of thought into Lin Buxian's heart in a
subtle way...\nUnconsciously, those seeds actually took root and sprouted out of the heart.\nYun An was excited and delighted, but her heart ached after a short while.\nBut what's next? In such an era, the awakening will be accompanied by endless
pain, for a lifetime!\nThe suffocation that Lin Buxian felt today is just the beginning, and the days
to come will be long...\nYun An can't wait to smoke himself, why should he owe so much? He said he was
only a recorder, thinking that trying to save Lin Mansion was his limit, but
he ignored more important things.\nWhy do you owe such consideration? I haven't decided whether to stay, why
change the people who belong to this era?\nLin Buxian is not a Blue Star. She has no way to think beyond this era. If she
loses her company and has awakened her "self-awareness", she will be driven to
death by this era!\nThoughts are like fire, and a single spark can start a prairie fire...\n"Yun'an?" Lin Buxian's eyes were full of worry. She stared at Yun'an without
turning her eyes. She clearly heard a sobbing, low and sad, the kind of voice
that could not be suppressed.\nThere was only one sound, but it pierced Lin Buxian's heart, strong and
desperate.\n"I'm sorry, Yixi... Maybe I, I really shouldn't, I'm not... I'm not." Maybe, I
really shouldn't be here, and I'm not a qualified time traveler.\nThis time, no one except Yun An could understand what she was trying to say,
including Lin Buxian.\nYun'an's mind heard what her relatives and sister said to her suddenly. The
eldest sister said: "A person has to go through many reincarnations in his
life, and each time is painful. Passive degeneration is more painful than
active, and some pain is accompanied by it. During the entire transformation
process, some will suddenly come to the door at some point, and no one can
escape."\nYun'an's eldest sister is one of the thousands of ordinary women in Blue Star.
If Yun'an is inheriting all the advantages of her parents, Yunan's eldest
sister Yunping is just the opposite. When Yun Ping said this, Yun'an was still
young. It was when he was youthful and presumptuous, and it was naturally
impossible for Yun'an, who was always the emperor's proud son, to understand.\nTo this day, Yun'an is holding Lin Buxian tightly, and this thing that has
long been in the depths of memory suddenly emerges.\nTwo people who have also undergone transformation are crossing the
vicissitudes of life and embracing each other through the mountains and
rivers.\nThe eldest sister's words came true, Lin Buxian's transformation was active,
and Yun'an's transformation was passive.\nYun'an finally realized her mistake. Compared with her eldest sister in her
early twenties, she lacked too much wisdom in life. Yun'an, who had walked all
the way as the proud son of the emperor, finally ate the bitter fruit of
pride.\nFor a long time, Yun'an has more or less "highly civilized" arrogance in his
heart. Sometimes Yunan can realize it, and sometimes he will pretend to be
confused even if he realizes it.\nYun An never admits that she despises this time and space, let alone the
majority of people here who are numb and devoid of humanity. She self-
righteously thinks that her thoughts are "high-level", sowing seeds in Lin
Buxian's heart, but ignores " Respect.\nYun An had never asked Lin Buxian if he was willing, but he rudely felt that
the worldly customs Lin Buxian had experienced were "wrong". Now that Lin
Buxian has awakened his "self-awareness", Yun An is still "going or staying."
"Wandering between the scales.\nImagine that after he left, Lin Buxian would bear the loneliness he had
endured ten times, one hundred times.\nYunan finally shed tears of regret...\nYun An finally understood what Professor Li said, what does it mean to live
like a stone, humble and lurking in the dust, but unfortunately... it's too
late.\nLin Buxian felt the dampness in the neck fossa, and was shocked. She struggled
to free herself from Yun'an's "shackles" and held Yun'an's cheeks gently,
softening her voice, and asked, "What's wrong?"\n"Sorry, Yixi, I'm so naive..."\n"Why do you say that suddenly? I don't think you did something wrong, or did
you think of something sad?"\nYun An sniffed, crying tears and staring at Lin Buxian, murmured guiltily:
"I'm just thinking, if I'm gone, how lonely you should be. There will be no
one who understands you in the future."\nLin Buxian's tugging, the question of "parting" was formally brought to the