ââŚÂ âŚÂ You just donât have to buy itâŚÂ âŚÂ .â
âHow are you going to go to Hawaii in that outfit? Come out wearing something else.â
As Lee Wooyeon ordered, Inseop went into the changing room with other clothes. The moment Lee Wooyeon entered the department store, peopleâs eyes were all on him. As a manager, he was in a position to prevent crowds of people, but Choi Inseop was led by him and was only changing clothes from before.
âIt really doesnât fitâŚÂ âŚÂ .â
Inseop wore the clothes that Lee Wooyeon picked out and looked at his reflection in the mirror in the dressing room. A sigh came out.
He had a body that was qualitatively different from Lee Wooyeion, who looked good in whatever clothes he wore like the clothes were tailored by the designer for him. He was so skinny that he thought he would stand out more if he wore clothes like this, so his shoulders hung low.
If possible, he would like to walk around in Hawaii wearing only a neat suit like the one Ihe was wearing nowâŚÂ âŚÂ .
âWhat are you doing?â
âAhhâŚÂ âŚÂ !â
âYouâre all changed, so why didnât you come out?â
âAh, Iâm, Iâm coming out now.â
When Choi Inseop grabbed his clothes and went out, Lee Wooyeon pushed him back into the dressing room.
âThe clothes youâre wearing now donât suit you. Change again.â
âYes. All right.â
Thinking that he was lucky, Inseop sighed in relief. As he was taking off the clothes he was wearing, Lee Wooyeon pulled back the curtain and pushed his face inside.
ââŚÂ âŚÂ ! Why, why are you like this?â
âIâd rather let you be naked.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ !â
âHurry up and get dressed. I donât have time.â
Along with the sound of his shoes, the sound of Lee Wooyeonâs laughter faded away. Inseop quickly changed into the clothes he was wearing and handed the clothes to the staff in front of the changing room, saying he was sorry.
On the way to other department stores, peopleâs attention continued. There were many people taking pictures, and in the meantime, there were people who came up to him with courage and asked for autographs. Lee Wooyeon politely declined and blinked at Choi Inseop telling him to follow him quickly.
âWelcomeâŚÂ âŚÂ , Oh.â
When Lee Wooyeon entered the store, the staff who recognized him exclaimed in surprise. No matter which famous celebrities came, they were educated not to show off their personal feelings too much, but when Lee Wooyeon appeared, the store was in turmoil.
âCan I help you, Sir?â
âIâll look around and ask for help if I need it.â
âAnytime, just tell me. Sir.â
Thinking it was a very selfish comment, Inseop followed Lee Wooyeon.
âHow about this?â
Lee Wooyeon picked something out and looked at Inseopâs body and asked.
âI donât know.â
âI donât know what your style is like.â
âI donât know either.â
Choi Inseop answered honestly. He wore mostly clothes his mother bought him, and since he came to Korea, he only wore a suit with a neat color. He never had a particular taste for clothes. He just focused on choosing the most inconspicuous and comfortable clothes.
âI think itâs okay to wear something a little flashy, but if itâs too bright, it doesnât suit you.â
âWho is it for? Is it for this customer?â
The clerk, who was only looking for opportunities to intervene, said he was right, and pointed to Choi Inseop. Lee Wooyeon, who was choosing clothes with a smile, answered yes, dryly. Inseop, who could now understand whether he is in a good mood or not just by hearing his tone, looked at Lee Wooyeonâs eyes and looked at the clerkâs face.
âThe customer has a pale face and has a light hair color, so you will be well received by these calm colors. How about this?â
The clerk picked a beige tee and put it under Inseopâs face.
âUhmâŚÂ âŚÂ , I donât know.â
âHow about this? Itâs a new product, and the response is very good.â
âIs that so?â
âWhat style do you want? Tell us, and weâll figure it outâŚÂ âŚÂ .â
âI will choose.â
Lee Wooyeon smiled and stopped talking to the clerk.
âIf you tell me, I will helpâŚÂ âŚÂ .â
âItâs okay. Iâll pick something and ask for help if I need it. Thank you.â
It was a soft but firm refusal. As the clerk walked away with regret, Lee Wooyeon clicked his tongue with an angry face.
âWeâre leaving.â
He didnât know what angered him, but in this case, it was best to just quietly follow him. Choi Inseop bowed his head to the store staff and followed Lee Wooyeon.
Looking at Lee Wooyeonâs back, who was walking in strides earlier, Inseop said as if muttering.
âSorry.â
âWhat?â
âIâm sorry. IâŚÂ âŚÂ We were going to buy some clothes with a happy heart, but I look like this, so all the clothes donât suit meâŚÂ âŚÂ .â
âWhat does Inseop look like?â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ .â
Inseop could not help but suffer to discuss his appearance in front of a man who was always chosen without fail when selecting an actor with the most beautiful face in Korea,
âWhat do you look like?â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ UglyâŚÂ âŚÂ . âŚÂ âŚÂ .â
He couldnât say the next thing. Even looking at the height difference reflected in the show window, his difference with Lee Wooyeon was a great as the sky and the ground.
âInseop, youâre pretty.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ !â
âWhen you cry.â
When he added that to his previous meaningful response, Inseop lowered his head, not knowing where to put his body. Lee Wooyeon came to Inseopâs side and made him face toward the show window.
âWhere are you ugly? Look.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ , âŚÂ âŚÂ .â
âYou have big eyes, a cute nose, and pretty lips.â
âAh, no. Itâs okay. You donât have to comfort me.â
Inseop removed Lee Wooyeonâs hand and turned his head. Lee Wooyeon smiled and started walking again. Peopleâs eyes followed his footsteps.
Choi Inseop walked quickly and followed him.
âI thought the store was fine.â
âWhich store are you talking about?â
âThe store we just came out of.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ Didnât you come out because you didnât like it?â
âI didnât like the clerk.â
Choi Inseop tilted his head and muttered, âHeâs kind.â
âThatâs why I donât like him. I have to choose Inseopâs clothes, but heâs choosing them.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ . Is it bad for the clerk to pick out clothes?â
âOriginally, the person who takes the clothes off chooses them.â
Choi Inseop was shocked and looked around. Fortunately, no one was standing from where they could hear their conversation.
âDid you think that I was buying clothes for Inseop with a really good heart?â
ââŚÂ âŚSorry. Youâre not like thatâŚÂ âŚÂ .â
âYes, of course, I am not that kind of person. Hahaha.â
Lee Wooyeon, who was smiling, heard the phone ringing in his pocket, and said, âWait a minute,â and answered the call.
As he was answering the phone, store associates took pictures with their cell phones from a distance. Inseop took a step back so that he did not appear in the photo. Lee Wooyeon, who was talking on the phone with a smile, turned serious. Inseop was worried, but could not approach him and stood looking at him.
Lee Wooyeon said âI understandâ, and ended the call.
âWhat happened?â
âThe editor of the magazine wants to see me for a short time now as there are some filming problems for tomorrow.â
âThen Iâll have the car ready.â
At this point, Inseop thought that the shopping was over. Lee Wooyeon shook his head.
âNo. We said weâd see each other around here, so I think weâll just have to talk for about forty or fifty minutes.â
âOkay. Then where do we go?â
Lee Wooyeon smiled and took the card out of his wallet and handed it to Inseop.
âGo shopping. Even if you come with me, it will just be boring talk anyway.â
âNo. This. This is enough.â
There were three shopping bags Inseop was carrying. He didnât want more clothes than that, and he hated shopping with Lee Wooyeonâs card even more.
âBuy some more.â
Lee Wooyeon put the card in Choi Inseopâs pocket, lowered his head and whispered, âI have fun taking it off.â
Inseopâs face was hot and he was frozen in place. Lee Wooyeon looked at his watch and said,
âThen see you at five. Where shall we meet?â
Choi Inseop did not have a cell phone, so he had to set an exact meeting place. Inseop, who looked around for a while, found a bookstore and replied, âThen there.â
âOkay. Then wait in the front for me at 5 oâclock.â
Lee Wooyeon once again confirmed the appointment time and disappeared. Inseop, who received the card, thought about what clothes to buy, and decided to buy a plain white short-sleeved T-shirt. After buying a white T-shirt that was so plain that no one would be interested in seeing him wear it, In-seop checked the time.
There were still 30 minutes until the 5 oâclock he promised with Lee Wooyeon. Inseop, who went to the bookstore to buy a book, found a travel book corner and stopped there.
ââŚÂ âŚÂ HawaiiâŚÂ âŚÂ .â
He pulled out a book with the word Hawaii written on it on a colorful background. Tomorrow he will go to Hawaii for Lee Wooyeonâs photoshoot.
Hawaii was one of the places he wanted to visit someday while reading travel stories of people traveling around the world as a child. Inseop opened the book and looked at the pictures in it. After looking at the pictures of the beautiful beaches and the natural environment, he started reading the description below.
Just as he was about to read the description of the must-eat food in Hawaii, someone stole the book from his hand.
ââŚÂ âŚÂ !â
âEnjoying Hawaii 100 times more? Are you trying to enjoy 100 times more than now?â
Lee Wooyeon smiled and turned the book that Inseop was holding. The people in the bookstore screamed and all looked at them.
âSorry. The time is alreadyâŚÂ âŚÂ .â
When Inseop checked his watch, he could see that the promised five oâclock had already passed.
âI found you.â
âIâm sorry.â
âItâs inconvenient because you donât have a cell phone.â
When Inseop did not appear in front of the bookstore he had promised, Lee Wooyeon was furious. He circled the neighborhood three times. He even went to each store and asked if the person who was with him came. No one remembered the existence of an introverted manager who came with Lee Wooyeon. Lee Wooyeon went back to the bookstore where he had finally decided to meet, thinking that he would break his leg if caught. Just in case, when he went inside, he saw Choi Inseop reading a book with his eyes twinkling like a child in the travel book corner. Thinking that he had to go home and pay for his anger, Lee Wooyeon approached Inseop.
âI was reading a bookâŚÂ âŚÂ Iâm really sorry.â
Lee Wooyeon handed him the book Inseop was reading. Seeing Inseop put it down on the bookshelf again, Lee Wooyeon asked as if puzzled.
âArenât you going to buy it?â
âUh. Itâs fine. âŚÂ Itâs not like weâre going on a trip..â
âAfter filming, one day will be for sight-seeing.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ .â
Lee Wooyeon picked up the book Choi Inseop had put down.
âYou canât buy it!â
âI want to read.â
As he went with the book to the cashier, people gathered nearby like a cloud. Even the clerk who was doing the checkout was surprised by the sudden appearance of Lee Wooyeon, and opened his eyes wide and scanned the barcode with the scanner.
âThank you.â
After completing the calculation, Lee Wooyeon took the book and left the bookstore. People rushed after him. Lee Wooyeon spoke to Inseop in a plain voice as if he didnât care about the people following him.
âIs this your first time in Hawaii?â
âYes.â
âItâs a good place. I went for a movie shoot once before, and it was just okay to watch. Is there anywhere you want to go to?â
âItâs my first time, so I donât know.â
As he went down the escalator, Lee Wooyeon gave Inseop the book he had bought.
âRead it and tell me where you want to go by tomorrow.â
âNo. Itâs fine.â
âItâs okay. After all, the last day is free time for us.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ .â
Even after accepting the book, Inseop was not at ease. These days, whenever Lee Wooyeon treats him well in this way, he doesnât know what to do. Disappointed but happy. However, at the same time, he wondered if it was okay for him to do this, and he only felt sorry for Jennie and Lee Wooyeon.
âWhy do you look like that?â
âItâs nothing.â
As he walked out of the first floor of the department store and walked to the parking lot, Lee Wooyeon persistently asked Inseop.
âI donât think itâs nothing. Why do you look like that?â
âNo. Iâm fine.â
âItâs not a good look at all. Why?  Because Iâm good to you, do you feel dirty?â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ .â
He should have answered no right there, but Inseop missed the timing. Lee Wooyeon continued with a soft smile.
âYou really make people feel like shit. I took the time to bring you to the department store, buy you clothes, books, and tell you to choose the place you want to go, but you put on that kind of expression.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ sorry.â
Choi Inseop couldnât have known that Lee Wooyeon deliberately took time to come to the department store. Because he was only a manager who managed his schedule and followed him.
âI smile even when Iâm not in a good mood. The promised month is less than a week away. Did you forget?â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ Yes. I understand.â
âDamn it, itâs really making me frustrated.â
Lee Wooyeon sighed and walked ahead. Choi Inseopâs heart grew heavier than before. As he approached the parked van, Inseop found a letter stuck on the windshield. A letter was placed in front of the vanâs window almost every day these days.
âThis, âŚÂ âŚÂ .â
âLeave it.â
Lee Wooyeon does not read the fan letter that comes to him. His theory was that reading letters from strangers to him would be a waste of time. Still, he couldnât throw the letter away in front of people, so Inseop carefully put it in his pocket.
Lee Wooyeon went to the back seat instead of the passenger seat and sat down. Choi Inseop smiled bitterly. It was natural, but for a moment, thinking that he was sad about it, he was considered deceitful.
As he started the car, he said, âIâll startâ like he always did, as if to himself. Lee Wooyeon didnât answer. He could read through the gritty air that his heart was tightly twisted.
While waiting for the signal, Inseop glanced at the book Lee Wooyeon had handed him earlier.
He saw the words Hawaii. The letter tickled Choi Inseopâs heart. Inseop swallowed and calmly opened his mouth.
âTraveling, âŚÂ âŚÂ This is the first time.â
âWhat?â
âItâs my first time traveling. For the first time since I was born.â
He was weak, so school, home, and hospital were everything. He came to Korea to get a job undercover, not for traveling. In fact, even after he came to Korea, he had never been to a park. Strictly speaking, this trip to Hawaii was the first trip he had ever taken.
âIs this your first time?â
Lee Wooyeon also asked the question as if in disbelief.
âI am not feeling well, âŚÂ âŚÂ I was almost at home.â
It wasnât something to be proud of, but Inseopâs voice trembled a little as he told his story.
âIâve read it in books, but Iâve always wanted to go to Hawaii someday. âŚÂ âŚÂ Iâm looking forward to it.â
After hesitating whether or not to add the word âexpectedâ at the end, he muttered timidly. Lee Wooyeon replied with a smile.
âWhat are you looking forward to?â
Inseop could guess that his mood was relaxed from his loose tone.
âJust, like the sea, the beach, the sun.â
âYou want to go swimming? By the way, did you buy a swimsuit?â
âNo. I donât swim.â
Because of the surgical scar on his chest, Inseop never even dreamed of wearing a swimsuit.
âYouâll go all the way there, but you want to come back without immersing yourself in the water?â
âItâs fine to just take a look.â
The warm sun, the soft sand, and the foamy sea. It was something everyone thought had nothing to do with them. He didnât even think about belonging to it. He was satisfied with just looking at it from the side.
âIf you want something, you have to have it.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ .â
âWill it become yours just by looking at it?â
Choi Inseop replied, âI know,â and laughed without enthusiasm. There was a time when there was a world that he wanted to have and a world he wanted to belong to. After realizing that it was impossible, Inseop had no desire for it. No, he tried hard not to have it.
âIf you want something, try it. Donât be stupid.â
âMr. Lee Wooyeon, âŚÂ âŚÂ What do you do when you have something you want?â
It was a question that suddenly popped into his head. After saying that, Inseop realized that he had asked a pointless question.
âMe? Well, what do I do?â
Lee Wooyeon narrowed his eyes and muttered like a person contemplating what to eat first in front of a delicious dish.
âIt depends on what the target is. If I can buy something with money, I will buy it with money, and if that is not possible, I can go and get it.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ youâll just get it? Isnât that a crime?â
âThen, I should pay for it.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ .â
Lee Wooyeonâs way of thinking was not normal, so he couldnât keep up.
âIf you are alive, âŚÂ âŚÂ . Hmm.â
Lee Wooyeon pondered for a moment as if lost in thought, then looked at Inseopâs back and continued.
âI can just bring it to you.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ Is that the end?â
âYou can make them listen. If they donât listen, just kill them and bring another guy.â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ .â
Alas, he can never keep up. Even if he dies, he canât follow him.
While Inseop was blaming himself for asking a really stupid question, Lee Wooyeon suddenly asked a question.
âMr. Choi Inseop, what do you want to do the most when you go to Hawaii?â
âJustâŚÂ âŚÂ I can look around, I can walk around, ah, thatâs right. If I am in the US, the phone bill will be less. There must be a lot of payphones, so I call home oftenâŚÂ âŚÂ .â
Inseop, who was talking excitedly, saw that Lee Wooyeon was staring at him with cold eyes and quickly shut his mouth.
âDo you want to go home?â
ââŚÂ âŚÂ .â
It would be a lie if he said he didnât want to go back, and there were too many regrets left here if went back. Inseop quietly considered his honest heart. Lee Wooyeon, who took his silence in a different way, smiled, revealing his neat teeth. But his eyes did not smile. A cold feeling flashed in his eyes. Lee Wooyeon stared tenaciously at Choi Inseopâs head, who was holding the steering wheel.
âDonât even think about looking at your passport except when you leave the country.â
âIâm not running away.â
âHow can I believe that? I should tie your feet up when you sleep. Iâll take it off and throw your clothes in the safe.â
Inseopâs expression hardened slightly because he was a person who would remain so. Lee Wooyeon laughed and said, âIâm joking,â but Inseopâs tense expression could not be resolved. Thanks to this, Lee Wooyeon was able to laugh for a long time.
On the way home, the two exchanged a few more nonsensical words about their trip.
That day, Inseop packed his luggage for the first time in his life. To Lee Wooyeonâs question of whether he was excited, Inseop replied bluntly, âNo.â But he couldnât sleep all night.