Later, after Takanashi-san left, I was overcome with impatience.
I couldnât convey the most important thing to him, and at this point, itâs something I canât doâŠ
I, myself, believe in you.
Youâre not like any other boys! Youâre someone I trust!
I havenât been able to tell him these words yetâŠ
Iâve been trying my hardest to tell him that.
â⊠Letâs just calm down and stop for today.â
Natsumi stopped me.
âNatsumi, I havenât been able to tell him what I wanted to conveyâŠâ
âPlease calm down.â
Natsumi then continued to persuade me.
âI think Takanashi-kun is being stubborn, so you should give him some time to calm down and then try again later. Donât be in a hurry, take it slow next time. However, you know what you have to say first in that time, right? Tell him that first. I will help you if I can.â
â⊠Yes.â
Honestly, I donât think I was ever this pathetic before.
I thought that if I explained carefully from the very beginning, he would listen to me until the end, but I failed to convey the most important wordsâŠ
I had become so accustomed to disliking boys and rejecting others that I had missed on the most obvious thing to do, which was to think about what the other person felt first before proceeding to talk to themâŠ
It was todayâs events that made me fully aware of this.
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It was now Monday.
Takanashi-san didnât come during lunch breakâŠ
Watering alone was something I had always been used to doing, something normal.
But nowâŠ
I looked at the bench, but I couldnât see Takanashi-san there, enjoying his lunch.
I couldnât even prepare the lunch that I had planned to make to thank him.
And the hamburger that I practiced so hard to make⊠will there ever be a chance for him to eat it�
After dutifully finishing the watering, I opened the shoebox to change my shoes at the entrance and noticed an envelope.
âI have one last thing to tell you.â
âIâll be waiting for you on the roof after school.â
I was about to tear the letter open, thinking it would be the usual confession, when the word âlastâ caught my attention.
There has never been a letter with such an opening beforeâŠ
Was it fromâŠTakanashi-sanâŠ?
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(Kazu POV)
Itâs Monday.
I was depressed from early morning, but didnât want to take a bad day off and have my aunt and parents called, so I headed to school.
I didnât go to the flower bed during lunch break, but spent the rest of the day in the classroom pretending to be asleep.
Halfway through, I received a concerned LINE message from Yuji, but I returned a suitably reply.
âŠIs senpai alone in the flower bed?
Saturdayâs conversation made me realize that Iâm in the same category as the other morons, and that she didnât even trust me.
I donât want to be seen with âthat lookâ, letâs just forget itâŠ
It was after school, and I was slowly getting ready to leave because I was feeling very overwhelmedâŠ
Coincidentally, I overheard some morons in my class talking about something.
However⊠this coincidence was a blessing in disguise.
M1: âHey, are we going today?â
M2: âTo see that haughty empress and the others?â
M3: âWhat do you say? Should we go see it too? â
M2: âHmm, I donât know. That might be a bad idea, and I donât want to be an accomplice.â
M1: âYeah. Although Iâd like to see that haughty empress crying her eyes out.â
M3: âMaybe we should take a picture with our smartphones.â
Hmm� What are they talking about?
I know theyâre talking about a bunch of c**p, butâŠ
Empress?
An empress looking haughty at these guys⊠no way⊠thereâs no freaking way rightâŠ?
I calmly left the classroom and after a short distance I ran out as fast as I could.
Senpaiâs class was 2-B!
At this moment⊠I had forgotten what Senpai thought of me, my fear of her, my negative feelings, and all other unnecessary things.
The possibility that the senpai I knew might be in danger⊠that was something that I canât stop worrying about.
If I let it pass here and something bad happens to senpai, Iâll regret it for the rest of my lifeâŠ
Donât think about anything else, it doesnât matter now, if itâs not Senpai, then I can at least warn herâŠ
Thatâs what I was thinking.
I reached 2-B and looked at the classroom through the open door.
Is senpai somewhere inside�
What should I do⊠sheâs not here⊠should I look for her somewhere else?
âŠNo, I wonât find her in time.
At that moment, my eyes met with a female student looking at me from behind the door.
Iâm pretty sure thatâs the girl who was with Senpai the other dayâŠ
The other side looked surprised, but quickly came over to me.
âHello Takanashi-kun. Iâm sorry about the other day. But if youâre here, then I guess it was you who called Sara.â
What did she mean? I called Senpai?
âPlease tell me that story. Did Senpai get called out?â
âYes, I heard there was a letter in the shoe box, and because it had âlastâ in the sentence, it was too meaningful to be a love letter, so Sara thought that it might be from Takanashi-sanâŠâ
âI didnât send it. If I wanted to do that, Iâd send it through LINE.â
âYeah, I told her that too. but⊠sheâs a little mentally unstable right now.â
Now was not the time to be thinking as to why!
âWhere is it? She told you the place right?â
âShe told me it was at the rooftopâŠâ
I didnât hear the end of it and started running.