Even though it was a long break, I didnât feel like doing anything.
But then again, I had promised Yuji, soâŠ
Last night I got the usual call from Yuji (who I consider to be my best friend) and ended up telling him everything that happened.
That apparently made Yuji feel concerned, so he asked me to go to the arcade center.
The first thing he said to me when I met him in front of the station was.
âYou look incredibly grumpy.â
I was annoyed by Yujiâs proud and indescribable expression.
We had planned to play at an arcade, but because I wasnât in the mood, we ended up talking at a diner.
Since Yuji and I had been keeping in touch with each other about what was going on, I saved myself the trouble of explaining unnecessary things.
Then yesterdayâs conversation came up.
âWell⊠if someone youâve known for a while suddenly treats you like one of those morons, Iâd say thatâs a bit harsh?â
âMaybe⊠I was just under the mistaken impression that she was a little more open with me than the other guysâŠâ
âHmm, I canât say for sure because I donât know the person, but did she really act like that?â
âThatâs how it feels to me.â
âI see⊠(Ever since junior high school, this guy has a tendency to be skeptical. Maybe heâs just getting ahead of himself and misunderstanding things.)â
Yuji seemed to be thinking about something, but quickly returned to his usual expression.
âMaybe youâll find out next time you see her. It could just have been a misunderstanding.â
That may be true, but it was a terrifying experience when Senpai gave me âthat lookâ.
It was as if she had implicitly told me, âAfter all, youâre just the same as those morons around hereâ.
I thought Senpai trusted me to a certain extent, but thinking that if she looked at me that way again, I couldnât bring myself to see Senpai who I grew accustomed with.
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(Saraâs POV)
âSo, whatâs the problem?â
Natsumi paid me a visit and asked that blunt question.
âAs I was saying⊠about yesterdayâs conversation.â
I repeated and explained what I had consulted with her through the phone call yesterday.
âI might be mistaken⊠but I might have hurted Takanashi-sanâs feelingsâŠâ
Ever since yesterday, I couldnât stop thinking about Takanashi-sanâs sad expression.
Thinking that I might be the cause of it⊠itâs the first time Iâve had this feeling.
Did I⊠do something wrong?
And that expression at the end⊠what does that mean?
âHmm, I wanted to get to the bottom of this⊠but first of all, I want to ask you this⊠who is Takanashi-san?â
Then I realized that I hadnât told Natsumi about Takanashi-san in the first place.
Speaking of which, I only told my grandmother about Takanashi-sanâŠ
âAh!⊠Sorry, Takanashi-san you seeâŠâ
Then, I explained to Natsumi what had happened in the flower garden and with my grandmother.
There were other things, but for now, this should be enough.
âWow⊠is he really a boy of this generation⊠maybe heâs really old?â
âI think Takanashi-san is nothing like the young boys out there.â
âI see, I see⊠So, what exactly happened yesterday?â
I explained what had happened yesterday on the staircase landing.
That I was not there from the beginning, so I could not make a decision, including who was at fault.
And in order to be fair, I gave the same treatment to both parties.
After hearing the story from the two boys first, I asked Takanashi-san if it was true.
âDoes that mean you treated him like any other boy around here?â
âYes.â
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(Natsumi POV)
So⊠thatâs what she didâŠ
As for me, I have seen how Sara typically acted on a daily basis.
Cold-hearted with boys and indifferent with girlsâŠthatâs the normal Sara.
I know that once you get to know her, you will be able to treat her properly and normally, just as I do.
But for exampleâŠ
âWhat if he behaved like that because he thought you were his friend?â
I donât think thatâs the only reason, but I guess I can understand a little bit how Takanashi-san felt.
However, I never thought that this girl, who was basically indifferent to others, would show such a clear interest in someone⊠and a boy at thatâŠ
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(Saraâs POV)
âFirst of all, I donât think youâre wrong in your response. I understand that you wanted to be fair, and even if you believed him, I know itâs not right to make assumptions without evidence.â
âYes.â
At first, Iâm getting some reassurance for my actions.
âHowever, I donât know if you understand what you did, butâŠâ
Then she continued.
âYour usual attitude toward boys doesnât hide your true feelings of dislike, and whatâs worse, your attitude shows that you donât think theyâre worth dealing with.â
Certainly, I have always felt that way about boys, and since I canât read the mood anyway, I have clearly shown it with my attitude and words.
âItâs gotten even worse in the last year or so, you know? To the point where I donât know how you managed to not make any enemies.â
The past yearâŠ
Perhaps it was around the time when the boysâ impression of me became even worse because I got fed up due to their repeated frivolous confessions.
âAnd although I donât know how Takanashi-san felt about it, maybe he thought you and him were getting along to a degree, and if something happened, youâll treat him that way. In the end, youâll treat like any other stupid boy, and heâll feel that heâs not trusted at all, wonât he?â
âThat kind of thing⊠I think Takanashi-san is different from other boys.â
âYes, itâs true that you think so, but you donât know heâs thinking. Also, did you ever tell him that you feel that way?â
âRegarding thatâŠâ
âDo you know Takanashi-sanâs contact information?â
âYes, we exchanged earlier.â
Natsumi looked a little surprised.
âHe~e⊠exchanging contact with a boy⊠well, no matter, did you contact him right after or the night afterwards?â
âNo, thatâs⊠Yesterday I didnât know what I did wrong, so I didnât know what to say to him.â
After I told her honestly, Natsumiâs expression became relaxed.
âUgh, if you had followed up there, things could have been differentâŠâ
It seems that I had missed a chance to break the deadlockâŠ