She wasnât wrong. They made a deal three years ago, and she promised to give him a successor, not to mention it was one of her main duties as a queen. But why did her words irritate him?
In fact, he should be thankful for her for using the word âduty.â Also, wasnât it better than calling it a contract fulfillment?
All he wanted from their marriage was a successor, beyond that, he didnât expect more. And because he didnât expect any more than that, he never found himself disappointed in her for whatever trouble she caused him.
But recently, he found himself wanting more than just a successor with their marriage. He wanted her to embrace being the Queen of Hashi, to carry out her duties and responsibilities with pride. That was why he gave her the role of managing the palace. To make her part of the kingdom.
And he remembered with great fondness how she enthusiastically accepted the responsibility.
But was that all he wanted?
He couldnât even find it in himself to say that yes, that was all he wanted from her. But for the life of him, he doesnât even know what else he wants. And the more he thought of it, the more his thoughts grew jumbled, confusing him greatly.
Just as he let out a quiet sigh, he was surprised to hear another follow right after. It wasnât his own, so he turned his head, just in time to see Eugene do the same and they looked at one another with bewilderment.
âIâm sorry, did I wake you?â she finally said, readjusting her position to talk to him properly.
âNo, itâs fine. Is everything alright?â he asked, doing the same to look at her.
âYes, I was just thinking about thingsâŠâ she answered, trailing off. Kasser leaned in closer.
âWhat were you thinking about?â
âItâs nothing.â she told him, making him frown.
He was bothered at her vague reply, but he knew better than to interrogate someone who doesnât want to speak. Regardless, he couldnât stand this feeling of not knowing, not tonight.
Is she� He suddenly stiffened in thought.
He had to know.
âEugene.â
ââŠyes?â
âAre you remembering something?â
âNo, I donât remember anything,â Eugene quickly answered as she sensed him beginning to sit up in the dark. When she saw him lying on his side, planting his elbow into the sheets and leaning his head against his palm, Eugene shook her head once more to reassure him.
âI met the bank president today.â she suddenly shared. It wasnât the one she was currently worrying about, but she decided to at least give Kasser something to talk to about. âApparently, Iâve had some kind of private fortune. So I called to confirm it.â
âAnd what did you find?â
âJust that I have too much of it.â she admitted, âI still keep wondering if all of it really is mine.â she finished softly.
âIt is yours.â he confirmed for her, âMost probably itâs from the Sang-je.â he added.
âThe Sang-je? What for?â
âFor congratulating you on your marriage. All Anikas get money when they wed.â Kasser said and finally smirked, all teasing could be heard from his voice. âYouâre worried about having too much money? Why would you worry about that?â he chuckled at her.
Eugene only sunk further down her blanket as her brows furrowed.
âIt doesnât feel right to have all that money. I donât even know where itâs from,â she mumbled. If only I could tell him, why I am so keen on studying Jinâs wealth.
âIf itâs in an account under your, then itâs yours. Why does it matter where it comes from?â he asked with confusion, as name Eugene stole a glance at him before she pouted in frustration.
Is this really the line of thinking one would have when born from money? Because apart from Sang-je, Kasser was one of the wealthiest people in Mahar. That still didnât stop her from wondering if every Anika was granted that much money when getting married.
The Sang-je truly cherished Anikas.
âBut you probably received more.â Kasser suddenly piped, interrupting her thoughts.
âReally? Why?â
âBecause you married a king.â
âWhy would he give more money to Anikas marrying a king?â
âProbably to comfort an Anika leaving the Holy City, and to financially help them settle in a foreign kingdom. But donât tell anyone. Iâm only telling you because you donât remember, but itâs not something commonly known.â
âOh? Then how did you find out?â she asked him.
âI just happened to.â He said with a shrug of his shoulders. With that, he effectively ended their conversation. Eugene thought it was odd for him to show even an ounce of discomfort. So she didnât ask more because she was no longer as curious as before.
Well, at least itâs not some shady money, she thought in relief, feeling a weight lifted off of her shoulders.
âEugene.â
âYes.â
âAbout what you said,â He paused, continuing to lie in silence for a moment before speaking again. Eugene waited patiently for him to continue. She wondered what was so difficult for him to say.
âIâm not trying to criticize you, nor trying to change your mind,â he finally continued. Eugene frowned at the sudden change of the subject, trying to recall what she had said earlierâŠ
âI just want you to know, if you donât want a child, we donât have to.â He finally said, âI find sometimes, children only make matters worse.â
Eugene couldnât immediately comprehend the meaning behind his words. How could children make matters worse? Suddenly, the former queen staying in the Holy City, came to mind.
Feeling she picked on Kasserâs scab from his childhood wound, she felt herself empathize with him.
âMaybe itâs because you donât know me that well yet but, I can assure you, no one can make me do what I donât want to do,â she told him in complete confidence, even adding a playful tone, but she heard no reply from him.
She waited for a few minutes more, but was greeted by nothing but silence. Soon, she situated herself back to get a comfortable sleep, her eyes fluttering close as sleep slowly crept up in herâŠ
Unfortunately, a second later her eyes snapped back open as she remembered an important detail to her worries.
Ah, I forgot to ask,â she winced in thought, as she bit her lip.
She still needed to know what it was that she stole before escaping to the desert.